[color14u]

I'm not sure how I feel. I actually went out of the house today. Not too smart cause the wind chill factor was -30. I got to see some people from my second job that I hadn't seen for awhile. I was happy for a brief minute. Then I realized it just made me sadder cause I can't work there until I can walk.
Got another e-mail from the toxic person again today. I hate it cause I feel like I need to respond, but I don't know what I should/could even say. Sigh.

[eggplantlife]

I am doing better. Thanks to friends.

Feel a tad bit worse than yesterday. Was looking forward to jogging this a.m. but it's -23 with the windchill so I don't think I'll be doing that. Have a doctor appointment to get my hormones checked on the premise that maybe my depression is due to pre-menopausal-related hormone decrease. Other than that, AA meeting and horse riding lesson (unless my instructor cancels because of the cold).

[seeminglyreal]

I've been at work for barely two hours and I've already dealt with my monthly quota of rude people.

I'm gonna start looking for jobs that don't require me to deal with people. I'd rather sit for 10 hours straight in front of a computer screen than deal with all this ****.

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[tigersassy]

I'm here. Doing ok. Tired. Woke up after/during a crazy dream. I think it's safe to say that PTSD is acting up now. Yay for trying to deal with it. Positivity. Must stay positive.

[JohnCrow]

I don't mind the cold but this is getting unbearable

Feeling tired. Sleep doesn't make it go away, and exercise doesn't help

Well it's not just me that is dealing with cold weather and snow, so I should tell myself "suck it up buttercup"... I've got a vehicle for almost a week, (this makes a huge difference in my mood, I've been without one for so long) so I plan on making good use. Have a meeting at the school for my son, then hope to see my other son, and do something for me as well. Hope you all get some relief from this depression and illnesses.

[herethennow]

i should stop getting myself to cry because no matter what tears refuse to come out.

---- trigger warning -----

trying to release all of this with si.

basically pdoc is giving up on me.
ohwell, another 3 months till he leaves. i can't wait.

[Turtlesoup]

Slept good last night (amazing how different that feels) my pdoc suggested I could take all my Depakote at night if the Buspar was kicking up my insomnia-didn't really want to change anything for a couple of weeks to see how I would do-but tried that last night & yay sleep. Had an intense session with my tdoc yesterday-how can so much stuff be going on in one head???? Trying to find my way through dealing with all this makes me feel like I'm lost in a labyrinth at times just retracing my steps-working really hard at not getting overwhelmed by it all. Big hugs & positive thoughts to all here especially those who are struggling today We can get through this

[tokiwartooth]

I have on three layers of clothes and I'm still cold!

[SeekerOfLife]

I think the depression is here to stay. Hoping to find some joy this weekend.

[Chummy]

Feeling hopeless. I looked at some pictures of others on Facebook. I'll never be happy. I'll never have a good job or a boyfriend or good friends. I'll never be ok. It made my deisre to end it all so much bigger. I don't know how I'm gonna live like this for another 50 years. I'm so tired of everything. I should go to sleep. Maybe in the morning I'll feel not so bad anymore.

[TheOriginalMe]

So my infestation was very, very minor. I'd probably picked up one bug from the train and it had laid a few eggs before dying. Anyhows, the pest control man has got things sorted and doesn't think there will be any more problems. I made a start on emptying some of the clutter away and tomorrow I'll do a bit more. I'm tired and relieved.

[Quanticia]

I don't have depression anymore, I'm just here to give hugs! Be strong, everyone

[angelene]

Got my makeup kit yesterday which gave me a temporary shopper/makeup-junky high. Later I threw caution to the wind and drank some coffee, Interstitial Cystitis be damned. I weathered the effects pretty well by doubling my water intake. It was wonderful to enjoy a nice, hot cup of coffee during all this cold...

I had a telephone conversation this afternoon with my best friend. She's well aware of my telephobia after all these years, so we usually text but she is going through so much right now. She invited me over to hang out but I didn't realize that she meant tonight, which led to me mistakenly leading her into believing I might show. That was a big "duh" moment on my part because I have an open invitation...
But I can't make it tonight for a couple of reasons and they all suck. (She lives an hour away, I'm having a fibro flare and it is so ****ing cold!)

I got some new toothpaste today so I'm looking forward to how that works out. I can't tell if I feel more or less depressed now that I've recounted these inane details.

to everyone.

[color14u]

I am starting to freak out about work. Up until the 26th I am only allowed to work 2 hours a day. Everyone has been dumping stuff on me and I am trying to fix some of the things that weren't done quite right. My boss is upset I haven't worked on the project he assigned me. My Dr is only letting me increase to 3 hrs after the 26th. He says I'm still not strong enough for more because I still can't eat. The corporation I work for says I have to be back to work full time after 90 days of limited hours. So basically by Aprl 26th I need to be back full time. I don't know what I am going to do. I know he is right cause I can't work 2 hours in a row. I have to take a break half way through. I'm really afraid now... just another beautiful day in my life...

[aprillynn197]

Feeling like a loser all the time is taking a toll on every part of me I'm gaining weight developing a skin rash on my face and a cold sore to top it off.

[einsam]

Too busy to feel much, but thankfully I got a response from my instructor concerning a few questions with the course material. Immediate wave of gratitude. Why is it always the men, though?? Why do the women treat me as if I don't exist? You'd think that people would stick together when they're a minority in their field.

Originally Posted by Quanticia

I don't have depression anymore, I'm just here to give hugs! Be strong, everyone

That's kind of you.

[eggplantlife]

I was okay when i woke up couple of hours ago. Then i put on self help audio and kid of fell asleep. Woke up now and i feel real down. I don't like this up and down feeling. I mean i really was feeling up. I feel so lonely. I feel realy down. This is crazy emotions with highs and lows so quickly.

Feeling okay today I guess. Could be better. The good news I found out yesterday is I have a job interview on Monday for a paralegal position at a law firm!

At least it warmed up today so I can go jog/walking today. That normally improves my mood. Then I'm heading up to my husband's sister's cottage on the water (ice) for the day. Will be better than sitting around at home.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by newgal2

Feeling okay today I guess. Could be better. The good news I found out yesterday is I have a job interview on Monday for a paralegal position at a law firm!

At least it warmed up today so I can go jog/walking today. That normally improves my mood. Then I'm heading up to my husband's sister's cottage on the water (ice) for the day. Will be better than sitting around at home.

Good luck on Monday!

Originally Posted by Angelique67

Good luck on Monday!

Thanks a lot!

[avlady]

idon't have a job either because of mental illness. i know how others think i'm just lazy or want a free buck, but thats not it. i would love to work, but i can't. i've had jobs in thee past and enjoyed them very much and felt worthful to the world.

[nervous puppy]

In the middle of a downward spiral and can't stop. Going down deeper by the minute

[magical loser]

i thought i got more sleep last night but not much and i still felt like crap today (and still do) and i keep sort of falling half asleep through the day, not properly asleep but i feel even worse when i "wake up" from it

im just sick of feeling like this. i want energy + motivation to do the things i need/want to do ugh!