confessions of little turtle

ok here we are.....I was very threatened at age 5...I thought my parents were breaking up...that fear is still with me...I shut up so my mother would not leave me....this just was what happened...I didn't choose this...any of it...I was a little kid...I was a good little kid...
now this is still there...I don't think it goes away...you just have to work with it...ptsd???

I need a psychologist....drugs wont help this stuff....maybe I need both...IDK

I have a confession.....I have no idea what happens in the brain to cause depression..
it is so easy to just say something like low serotonin...

I am excited.....there is a place that is studying nutrition and mental health...
it is called the FOOD & MOOD centre....there is going to be an international conference in july at Bethesda Maryland.....I am going....one of the guys that will be talking is joseph hibbeln.....the omega 3 expert...

I have a lot to learn about depression...

i cant believe how horrible severe depression can be...it was awful....terrible...
I hope help comes soon.....its a hell hole that I never want to see again...
the tension and fear are awful...

i think my life has been a tragedy.....I don't think I am going to get over it...
I am not a very happy person...I just hope that I can accept who I am....

I have always seen life being tragic....ever since age five when I first knew
that I was going to die....my mother tried to tell me everything would be ok...
but I knew that everything was not ok....we are all going to die....and I don't believe in any after life...

I think Food plays a big part in mental health, I always feel better when I am near a good cheesecake or plate of Cannoli ! LOL
Do tell us what you learn it sounds very interesting.

we are all in it together.....it is what it is....depression...not very nice

Hi little turtle! You've been missed on here!

Depression sucks .... I wish my cave was nearer your pond - I don't mind swimming especially at night so long as I don't get my ears wet

why? why? why?

(((((((( little turtle )))))))))

fuzzybear is a person of interest here...she can lead us together ....to fight the injustice that we have endured...that have made us sicker...I am looking to fuzzybear for help

I am a recovering SUGAR addict...I was pre-diabetic a couple of years ago....I was able to reverse that condition....but now I pay close attention to what I eat...especially SUGAR..

it feels good to be able to tell that...that is only one of my problems...I have many problems.....they are a part of me.....I need to accept all of my problems along with how good I am deep down...deep down good....I was an innocent child...the world really sh*** on the innocent....we were all innocent children at one time...yes yes yes

the world sh*** on us and then we do it to ourselves...we get ashamed of ourselves and then do damage to us by beating ourselves up...we whip ourselves...we hide out...we hate ourselves....we learn this because we didn't know any better...well I am a good guy and there are a lot of good people here on this depression site...

((((((( little turtle )))))))

Little turtle, thanks for all you share here - what you say here is exactly right

Also I appreciate that you don't talk about and / or recommend meds in every post. I think many of us already know some of what meds can and can't do... for one thing they can not repair dysfunctional parenting ...they can not stop us doing further damage to ourselves by hating ourselves.. they can not analyse us or our unconscious ...

I am a very very big hypochondriac....and I have many stories about dying from cancer...but I actually didn't have a cancer and I am not dead yet...

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I like what prince harry is doing...

we were born and we were innocent children...do we really want to keep punishing ourselves for not being normal.....this world where there are some awful acting people have come down hard on us for just being kids...and we have lost all kinds of our family and friends....do we want to keep killing ourselves...and do we still want to hide out with our grief ALL ALONE

we may be our own worst enemy...the enemy within..

(((((((( little turtle ))))))))

I'm here in the pond with you..

I agree, do we really want to keep punishing ourselves...

the future will be interesting....I hope biology helps us..I don't think drugs have a future...
we need to focus on the psychological and social aspects of mental illness...
drugs are a temporary fix ....we need to know more about causes...
we are not leading healthy lives...