confessions of little turtle

My future and my relationship. I worry if i will ever get completely rid of depression and anxiety attacks. I want to be normal like everyone else. I also want my brain to work adequately to be able to study....right now i m not able to.

desiree----can you do any baby steps...like how are you coming with moving your body around....and do they have life coaches in india......they can be helpful....

I m trying to take baby steps like bathe every day, exercise(walking, stretching exercises, etc), clean my room(I live with my parents. I have been avoiding cleaning for a long time. I started again with my room y'day - I plan to clean for 30mins each day for now till I m more comfortable), force myself to go outside the house at least two to three times every week, do laundry and iron clothes once every week and try to read a story book.

Once I get into a routine I plan to take up a bit of gardening, cooking and amateur painting.

I feel so lazy throughout the day. I have to force myself to follow my daily routine.

I really don't know about life coaches in India - I have to find out.

you are really working on recovery...you can expect to feel lazy and without energy....you are doing work that is very hard...

Thank you little turtle.

please don't give up hope...there is hope for all of us...
I am very old now and getting ready to deal with death..
there is help...it is not as easy as I thought but there is help..
please pay attention to an old turtle...we need each other to
deal with this suffering and cruel world..

((((((((( little turtle )))))))))

3 times I was wanting to die...but each time I recovered and had some FUN..
please pay attention now because I am getting very close to passing away from you all..

Each time.
This is valuable testimony.

please listen ---------we make mistakes but we are not a mistake...we are not a mistake...we have problems...but we are not a mistake...

and there are ways of easing some of the mental torment...medicines help...
but there also is healthy exercise and healthy eating...these are crucial..
proper nutrition is very difficult now because of all the crap out there..
and don't just count on medicines to do the whole job...usually it takes more..
a lot more...we need connections with FRIENDS not just anybody..

I wish you all well...you can feel better and have some life...

(((((( little turtle ))))))

Thank you!
Lots of Love,

WC

Truth.
Thank you. ❤️

I want to say something here....it will not be said in a religious/church/god/jesus way..
I am trying to follow the golden rule 24/7....with my wife and my friends and especially
with me....I need to start treating myself with respect and understanding...with patience and kindness....I have been to hell and back...and we all have been in some kind of a hell hole...and we need to be very loving to the hurt person who is us...

So true. So so true.

i have found it was important to own my bad and good...me...what I am...
but not to take on what other people have put on me with their judgments and blame..
I have survived to tell my tale....I was addicted to valium and I brokedown but I was a good guy..

little turtle

((((little turtle))))

be good to you always...

Being addicted is not a moral failing it's an illness , its nothing you need to be sorry for or own , do people who wear glasses or hearing aids apologize he'll no nor do they need to, it is What it is your in recovery that you can own , your beating that illness everyday .

Celebrate your victories don't focus on all the crap that went wrong focus on the growth/progress you have made since identifying there was a problem that needed treatment .

I am very glad to be retired....psychiatry was awful....awful...and now it is worse not better...what a responsibility....I just had so much trouble...

First a and I hope your day will be full of wonder and positive things. You are inspirational and your words are therapeutic, thank you for sharing.

I find it to be awful as well. I am stuck in a vicious cycle of what the therapist, CNP and psychiatrist think is best for me and though I am the one in the rabbit hole...no one is listening, I don't think they see me. It makes me very afraid because they are my only hope of finding the right dosage of the many combinations of meds and therapy if there is such a thing....but I press on. I wasn't always like this and perhaps, just perhaps a miracle will come along and rescue me or at least help me through this with minimum scars.

I respect you on the highest level and applaud your courage to come forth with your story. It has impacted my life profoundly and I ponder the options. I am more mindful of my surroundings and situation as well of others to include the medical professionals. Most of my therapist have shared with me how they are survivors of suicide or how they were impacted by a love one taking their own life.

I hope and pray that some small part of my experience will be beneficial to someone else, to be the positive example of what pressing on results look like, to serve a purpose. I hope.

Little Turtle, I just wanted to say that you are a wonderful person! You need to stop beating your self up. You try to help anyone that you are able. And believe me it is greatly accepted. I just wish I were able to give you even a small part of the support you have given me. Stop being so very hard on your self. We are all human!!!!!!!

I am on Citalopram too and i am a lifer on it the doc said, i am also on 10 other meds for life, one of them just started as I was trying to get my Bachelors degree and my doc suggested to lesson the anxiety she gave me xanex. I love how i feel compared to how i used to feel, the xanex really changed me. I am more calm, but still depressed just not as bad.

thank you katydid----you are very kind..

I am now listening on u-tube to dr Joanna Moncrieff about psych drugs..
what a wonderful psychiatrist with a very balanced view of the drugs we are taking...