[MickeyCheeky]

And why someone should? There's nothing to like about me. I can't do anything and I have no likable qualities.. the only people that actually care about me are here. Probably because they've never met me face to face: otherwise they'd probably see how disgusting I truly am.

I'll be alone for the rest of my life and there's nothing I can do to change that..

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sure you're not disgusting, but I understand, I feel terrible about myself as well. I'm sending gentle hugs

We love you here

[MickeyCheeky]

Thanks, Fuzzy.. but I am. There's nothing to like about me - and I can't change that. I'm so frustrated for this.. I want to cry

[MickeyCheeky]

No, I don't believe her.. you're kind and supportive.. and very strong. You're a great person.. If you really want to see a person with no good things to share at all.. here I am

I know I would like you face to face! I would wager big $ that your parents love you!
You are young, so I think the best way to develop self esteem is to make a goal and work to achieve it. Fitness goals, losing weight, learning a skill, a college degree, finding a job, saving money, etc. When you start realizing some of your dreams, you will love yourself more. For instance, I am proud of being a good cook. I have this skill because I have spent a lot of time cooking and am always trying new recipees or experimenting with what I currently cook. They say it takes 10,000 hours to become really good at something. When you are young, you can find 10,000 hours to work on your goals. Start small and build. You have youth on your side. Don't beat yourself up when you fail. I have a lot of faith in you because you are an awesome person!

[MickeyCheeky]

Thanks, Myst Yeah, I know what you mean.. I don't really know where to start though What can I do? I don't find pleasure in anything... sometimes I barely have any motivation for doing simple things... what goals could I possibly achieve?

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

Thanks, Myst Yeah, I know what you mean.. I don't really know where to start though What can I do? I don't find pleasure in anything... sometimes I barely have any motivation for doing simple things... what goals could I possibly achieve?

I don't know if it's ever been a goal for you but you've already achieved helping me. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one either. I'm not that much older than you and I know this whole "finding yourself" age range sucks. I think if you and I keep searching, we'll get there. Some things might just come to you. I've picked up numerous hobbies.

"Please, take my hand as we travel through snow. Together we go." - T.O.P., "Oh, Ms. Believer"
I'm with you in this.

[MickeyCheeky]

I didn't know I was helpful to you.. I'm glad I was I'm sorry you're going through this, too

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I didn't know I was helpful to you.. I'm glad I was I'm sorry you're going through this, too

You have been on many occasions. Sometimes just with relatable threads like this one. It's not easy, but maybe together we can figure this stuff out.

I did not have a great social life in high school. I was in a very rural area so we were very spread out. I read a lot of novels of all types which helped me. It might help you too. I found some of my closest friends and improved many of my skills by joining the Air Force Reserve Officer Training Corps (ROTC--I joined the military) in college. I loved many of the challenges and the "esprit de corps". During my time in AFROTC and on active duty, I had many great mentors. I found them in non-military jobs too. And of course my spouse has helped me through a lot of tough spots as well. A good mentor helps you see all the ways in which you are worthwhile and encourages you to achieve more.
I hope you find someone encouraging in your future. One of the best ways to find them is by starting a job. Please don't give up. Like Só leigheas said, you are at an awkward age where you are still finding yourself. Myst

[MickeyCheeky]

I don't think I'll be able to find a job... I'm useless at everything and I don't know what I like

Thanks for being so supportive

[Jadenmia1]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

And why someone should? There's nothing to like about me. I can't do anything and I have no likable qualities.. the only people that actually care about me are here. Probably because they've never met me face to face: otherwise they'd probably see how disgusting I truly am.

I'll be alone for the rest of my life and there's nothing I can do to change that..

If anybody didnt love you when they saw your face because of that reason, they have no business being in your life, loving you at all.
Im so sorry youre feeling this way, i know what it feels like to not think you are loveable.. but thats just not true at all. Iv seen nothing but caring posts by you since being here and i, along with many others appreciate you.
Stay strong. Hugs x

[MickeyCheeky]

Thank you so much, Jaden

[MickeyCheeky]

It's getting worse and worse... I don't know what to do anymore I need help... I can't do anything by myself

[annoyedgrunt84]

Start with something really simple, the voice in your head is going to tell you how stupid it is but ignore it. Try growing a plant it is so simple but can be so rewarding, I don't know if you live in a large city or a small town or in a rural area. Go outside or find just a small pot and put some soil in it. Put a flower in it or a vegetable, what ever you want.

Try watching this video as well it brings me comfort when I'm feeling down

[MickeyCheeky]

I don't know... what "simple" thing I could do? I don't know Nothing comes in my mind..

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I don't know... what "simple" thing I could do? I don't know Nothing comes in my mind..

Do five push-ups. If you can't do full ones, do halves. Work on it every day until you can complete five whole ones. After that, keep going up in number.

Growing a plant sounds like a pretty good start, as well. Learn a bit about the process and try it out.

Reorganize your room or house in some creative way.

These are a ideas if you'd like to try them.

[MickeyCheeky]

Thanks I'll try some of these... Don't think they will matter in the long run but it doesn't hurt to try, I guess..

I've been feeling that way myself; especially lately. I have posted on here recently about my friend and my sister dwindling away from me (as you might have seen). They are very precious in my life, even though they can get on my nerves at times. But it hurts to have them fade away.

[Hopeofreedom]

I wish I could make you feel better. I so know how you feel! Loneliness is the worst! But you have all of us to vent to 😘

[MickeyCheeky]

I know I always say this, but I just can't do it anymore I don't have friends at all, I'm always alone, even here at PC I barely have any friends. I have never someone to talk to and that makes me mad I don't enjoy anything at all, the only thing I do all day is sit my *** on a computer and do nothing, because that's all I can do; I hate my school, I hate my teachers, my classmates and my subjects and I can't do anything because it's my last year; I have no idea what to do in collegere because I have zero interests at all; my self esteem is below zero for all of these reasons and the therapist I'm seeing is not helpful at all and I feel like I'm just wasting time and money with her; and my parents won't let me change because they prefer to put the blame on me if it's not working out. This means things will never change and I'll be sad for the rest of my life

I just don't know what to do anymore..

MickeyCheeky, I do not have all the answers because you are depressed but you need to limit your computer (or smartphone) time and get outside more. Force yourself. H and I have been walking 4.5 hours per day and now when we see certain neighbors, we always stop and talk. Some people just lift my spirits. You do that for me too. But it is better for your depression when you get face to face interaction. I told you that my sister visits Italy in the summers. The little town she goes to is set up so that she has to walk everywhere. She says that there are some people (older ladies) who expect here to stop and talk to her everytime she walks by. If she doesn't say "Hi", they ask why. If you don't know what to study then maybe pick a college in a town in Italy that has a reputation for having a lot of things to do? But mostly, I love PC but don't spend all day here. Being addicted to a social media place like this is easy to do when we are depressed. Do we spend all day long here because we are depressed? Or does spending time here all day long make us depressed? They may reinforce each other. Limit your time here. I check in everyday to follow certain people like you. I have grown to like many people here but I am trying to limit my time to 1 hour a day in order to continue to improve my life. MickeyCheeky, you are sweet! Keep trying to improve your depression. Sincerely, Myst

[avlady]

yes, could you find an easy job? at least it will keep you busy. you can meet new people too. i know it may sound impossible right now but you could at least try your hand at it.good luck

[MickeyCheeky]

Thank you for replying, guys

Maybe Myst is right... I should cut off the time I spend here I'll try to... I'll do my best. I hope I can make it..

What do I do in my free time though? I've already tried walking in the past and it didn't work out at all... never had a face-to-face interaction

Finding a job? Idk.. there are no jobs around my zone, and it's hard to get one here anyway That's also one of the reasons I'm so hopeless about my future..
I don't even know what job I'm good at, or what job I'd like to do..

But anyway, thank you for your support. I'm grateful

The terrible world wide economy (high unemployment) is hurting countless young people these days. It has effected my children badly and according to news I read, things are even worse in Europe than they are in the US. Try not to torture yourself if you can help it. You are an awesome young man!