[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Hopingtrying

Little Turtle--

You are so helpful here that I am confident that you managed to help many of your patients.

When you broke down--it was your turn to be helped (did you get it at the time?) Just like your patients, you deserve help too!

I really do love your POV--philosophically, I would love to be treated by a doctor like you.

Good post, I completley agree

Thank you for posting this self care support thread, Fuzzy!

Today (I struggled, as you know, but...I also...) bought salad from McDonalds. It was really good for McDonalds and I also had coffee which I don't usually have. I think caffeine is my friend. It makes me happier. I went to the gym. And I made plans to buy a new bed.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by starrysky

Thank you for posting this self care support thread, Fuzzy!

Today (I struggled, as you know, but...I also...) bought salad from McDonalds. It was really good for McDonalds and I also had coffee which I don't usually have. I think caffeine is my friend. It makes me happier. I went to the gym. And I made plans to buy a new bed.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Hopingtrying

[little turtle]

fuzzy I have a MENTAL ILLNESS....it is important to me how I am handling it...and how I handled it...it was terrible...but I did pretty good ..and I am still here...I am starting to look at my mental illness as a badge of honor...I am proud that I didn't totally fall apart..

my badge is a MAJOR DEPRESSION DISORDER with a lot of extras thrown in...not mild or moderate depression...it was a very tough awful terrible depression most of my adult life..
but i am still here asking for help and wanting to give help...

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by little turtle

fuzzy I have a MENTAL ILLNESS....it is important to me how I am handling it...and how I handled it...it was terrible...but I did pretty good ..and I am still here...I am starting to look at my mental illness as a badge of honor...I am proud that I didn't totally fall apart..

my badge is a MAJOR DEPRESSION DISORDER with a lot of extras thrown in...not mild or moderate depression...it was a very tough awful terrible depression most of my adult life..
but i am still here asking for help and wanting to give help...

((((((((( little turtle )))))))))

I'm wondering what the medical establishment would "do about" me if I had an official dx
from 3 psychiatrists as MAJOR DEPRESSION DISORDER - I've avoided psychiatrists for some time. With my allergies to ALL the meds they have prescribed, by a psychiatrist and then
general doctors... what would they "do" with this "problem" .

I think I already know there isn't a helpful answer for me other than therapy which isn't sufficient alone for some MAJOR MI?

I'm sorry for ranting. I have to log off for now or I'd edit and tidy up this post.

If you can't answer, it's ok..

Please, I only want an answer from little turtle on this one

The doctors perceive my allergies as relatively trivial. Maybe that's because I haven't gone back there every week or month . I have no answer other than avoiding them . My meds are on repeat prescription. I was prescribed oral steroids once, I didn't take them (the doctor who prescribed these did try to listen and I think knew I didn't take them

I don't think my "problem" is ...

[Fuzzybear]

Hi everyone please feel free to post here, it's just that particular question I want little turtle to reply to if possible

In the meanwhile I'm using my usual self care strategies, I haven't had a shower for an embarrassingly long time either even haven't brushed my fangs the last few nights

[Clara22]

I Am not good at self-care

Struggling tonight with some guilt over a decision I made this last January. I'm trying to forgive myself, as is the theme of this thread.

I decided to be proactive this winter when I was suffering from my usual seasonal difficulties, and signed up to be a volunteer for my local hospice. After taking care of my dying father in 2010, I realized I could handle being around terminally ill people, and since then I've been thinking that I should make myself useful to some people that really need it.

I think I jumped the gun, though. I went through the volunteer training, had my name tag created and laminated, and had the necessary blood tests to qualify. But that whole time, I was quietly getting worse, dealing with my own issues. In the end, I backed down, without so much as an email to the volunteer coordinator (I'm so sorry, Mary).

Thankfully, I was not yet on any schedule, and my not showing up did not cause any disruption what so ever. I'd like to think that, even at my worst, I'd have been more considerate in backing down if I were already taking shifts.

I still don't think it was a fear of being around the ill that stopped me, though I was naturally still a bit nervous about it. Mostly, I was terrified of not being able to set aside my own issues for even a few hours a week. In the end, I felt like I did not have the stability to commit, and I felt ashamed about it.

The thing that bothers me the most is that the volunteer coordinator is the kindest, sweetest lady. She was so pleased to have a male volunteer. She told me my type are rare, and that there were a number of clients who really needed another male to talk to in their final months, and that I was a wonderful human being for doing this. She was so supportive and understanding.

The thing is, I know she is exactly the type who would forgive me if I called her and explained to her my situation. Heck, knowing her, she probably already has forgiven me, without even knowing the details. I know I will contact her again. I may or may not be a volunteer in the future, but I will apologize. Just...not right now. I don't know what's blocking me from doing it. I may sometimes do irresponsible things like this (I've walked out of a few jobs without notice, too), but I try to make it right, even if it takes me forever.

So, I'm trying to go easy on myself. Nobody was inconvenienced by this. Nobody got hurt, just a little disappointed. And I will make it right. My intention was to take care of others, AND myself at the same time, but I couldn't juggle the two. I just need to step back, and have more reasonable expectations of myself. I don't need to dwell on this tonight.

And while we're on the topic of self support, I shouldn't be so self-conscious about how freaking long these posts of mine get.

Bjornen, I love your posts specially if they are long. I dont join volunteer work coz I know I am not stable enough and struggling with my own depression and won't be able to keep the commitment. But you didn't even start it and like you said you were not on any schedule. So you should not feel guilty. Your health issues are also imp, i know how difficult it is to take up a responsibility when you are unwell yourself. So please don't feel bad. Hugs to you.

[little turtle]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

((((((((( little turtle )))))))))

I'm wondering what the medical establishment would "do about" me if I had an official dx
from 3 psychiatrists as MAJOR DEPRESSION DISORDER - I've avoided psychiatrists for some time. With my allergies to ALL the meds they have prescribed, by a psychiatrist and then
general doctors... what would they "do" with this "problem" .

I think I already know there isn't a helpful answer for me other than therapy which isn't sufficient alone for some MAJOR MI?

I'm sorry for ranting. I have to log off for now or I'd edit and tidy up this post.

If you can't answer, it's ok..

Please, I only want an answer from little turtle on this one

The doctors perceive my allergies as relatively trivial. Maybe that's because I haven't gone back there every week or month . I have no answer other than avoiding them . My meds are on repeat prescription. I was prescribed oral steroids once, I didn't take them (the doctor who prescribed these did try to listen and I think knew I didn't take them

I don't think my "problem" is ...

fuzzy I just don't know what to say...I will think about this and try to help if I can...
I don't even know for myself whether medicines were more help than harm..
I thought valium was really helpful for me but now I am not so sure...but I am still here..
for myself I am studying nutritional psychiatry to see if there is help there...

[cryingontheinside]

Hello fuzzy bear!

Yes I'm struggling with self care and motivation . I'm also bored , and lonely. I've started taking my medication again but its not working yet . I think it takes 6 weeks . I've been taking it for about 3 weeks this time so far .

[mountainstream]

(((((Fuzzybear)))))
I struggle with self care.

[Fuzzybear]

Thank you everyone..



I send my love to all in this thread

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by little turtle

fuzzy I just don't know what to say...I will think about this and try to help if I can...
I don't even know for myself whether medicines were more help than harm..
I thought valium was really helpful for me but now I am not so sure...but I am still here..
for myself I am studying nutritional psychiatry to see if there is help there...

Thank you little turtle

I have booked a doctors appointment, here in my area in the UK we sometimes have to wait 3 to 4 weeks if it isn't an immediate emergency and if we prefer to have some option as to which doctor we see

[Fuzzybear]

Really struggling to be kind to the bear

Allergies and anxiety off the charts

I'm here with you. Self kindness is the hardest type. I hear you. It's hard, hard work.

[little turtle]

Originally Posted by little turtle

fuzzy I just don't know what to say...I will think about this and try to help if I can...
I don't even know for myself whether medicines were more help than harm..
I thought valium was really helpful for me but now I am not so sure...but I am still here..
for myself I am studying nutritional psychiatry to see if there is help there...

fuzzy bear---I have been thinking about your allergies...maybe you have the metabolic syndrome

I think for me, the thing I need to most do is stop feeling so sorry for myself and treat myself better

in sted of sitting at my desk, stuffing myself with candy and complaining their's nothing to do and i'm not being productive, get up and actually work on stuff around the house, work on a jigsaw puzzle, phone someone or invite someone over, what ever.

I have the means to do it (I have 2 legs, I have a phone, I usually have lots of stuff left unattended), it's the motivation I need to work on

but well, blame the depression. it's a harsh mistress

I was able to shower today (my first in 7 days)

it was hard to actually come to the decision to do it, but I did it

I am having a terrible time with severe depression and anxiety. Getting out of bed is becoming a problem specially in the morn and early aft. Losing hope and sometimes the wish to live. Can't struggle any more though I have not given up completely yet.

[little turtle]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Hello Depression Community,

I think many of us struggle with self care. I know I do.

This thread isn't in "competition" with the "Depression support thread" but in addition to it. I'm hoping to participate in both threads.

I personally can't tolerate meds, so this isn't one of my self care tools.

I'm hoping we can create a healthy supportive and safe environment in this thread, I know some of us, including me, have not had many safe places in our lives. I'm hoping that we can change this, one day at a time.

fuzzy----------self care is vital...each one of us is different...
the symptoms and signs of depression are similar but the causes are many..
each person here needs to find out what is causing THEIR DEPRESSION..
and then you start working on how you will recover...progress not perfection..
taking a psych drug may help you feel better but it may do nothing about what is causing your depression...taking alcohol at night helps me feel better
but the next day I have to deal with the stuff in my life...what I encountered in life broke me down 3 different times ....benzos really helped me but it was tough going off of my valium..the anti-depressants that I took over the many years ....I am not sure about...and I cant get off of that damn celexa right now...

fuzzy--- is it ok to talk like this on this support thread....

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by little turtle

fuzzy----------self care is vital...each one of us is different...
the symptoms and signs of depression are similar but the causes are many..
each person here needs to find out what is causing THEIR DEPRESSION..
and then you start working on how you will recover...progress not perfection..
taking a psych drug may help you feel better but it may do nothing about what is causing your depression...taking alcohol at night helps me feel better
but the next day I have to deal with the stuff in my life...what I encountered in life broke me down 3 different times ....benzos really helped me but it was tough going off of my valium..the anti-depressants that I took over the many years ....I am not sure about...and I cant get off of that damn celexa right now...

fuzzy--- is it ok to talk like this on this support thread....

Thank you little turtle

[mountainstream]

[Fuzzybear]