[Rose76]

Guess I'm alright for now. Tomorrow morning I'll have to climb out of the trough like every morning.

Trying to remember...

...that I am tough and dangerous.

I've gotten soft.

I did things to survive. I used to be mean and closed off. I'm still capable of it. But with better clothes this time.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Guess I'm alright for now. Tomorrow morning I'll have to climb out of the trough like every morning.

Hope this morning is not too bad for you!

[nikon]

last night and today so far have been a lot better - a great thing, but slightly worrying (?) because it possibly means house sitting has such a bad effect on my mood at the moment that it's a terrible idea, in which case i potentially have to let down a whole lot of people and lose out on a lot of money - worst case scenario.
but yeah feel much better, sleeping much better, and socialising more regularly than i have for ages. I seem to have little capacity to maintain friendships, let alone close friendships, and don't seem to be able to socialise with multiple people at the same general time, but at the moment i'm regularly hanging out with a friend and her boyfriend and it doesn't feel uncomfortable or like an effort.

[regretful]

Other than my wife, my constant companion is depression...I love the first and loathe the second. I find myself very sad, again and I worked so hard to not be here.

[PsychNitrous]

Feeling very down again today. I'm so tired of going through the same things every day, every week, over and over and over. I'm still waiting on an answer about a job I interviewed for almost a month ago, no one answers my phone calls or emails. I'm tired of things not working out, and I need a break.

Well, heard about the job this afternoon finally. They filled the position on Friday. Couldn't even let me know, I'd still have been wondering if I hadn't called and left a message this morning. I feel so done with life right now.

[Ceara1010]

So I think the workmen finished repairing the hurricane Harvey damage this past weekend, and now I'm trying to recover from the stress of it all. I still feel fairly "blah" and a little depressed. Thankfully, it's gorgeous out--sunny and in the 70s--so hopefully I'll perk up. I'm really sick of feeling like this. I want my upbeat mood back. I'll make a point of getting outside today and doing whatever I can to get rid of these "blahs."

Hang in there everybody.

[Sunflower123]

As I’ve mentioned, my doctor put me on a new med combo that has cleared up my depression and SI. I’m grateful for that. Over all those years of depression and SI, I created a “depressed lifestyle” that is now an ingrained habit. Even though I’m no longer depressed, many days I really struggle to break free of this lifestyle. It’s like I’m learning to walk again and not doing a very good job of it. It’s frustrating and I’m wondering what’s the point.

Sending big hugs for all those who are struggling.

[nikon]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

As I’ve mentioned, my doctor put me on a new med combo that has cleared up my depression and SI. I’m grateful for that. Over all those years of depression and SI, I created a “depressed lifestyle” that is now an ingrained habit. Even though I’m no longer depressed, many days I really struggle to break free of this lifestyle. It’s like I’m learning to walk again and not doing a very good job of it. It’s frustrating and I’m wondering what’s the point.

Sending big hugs for all those who are struggling.

I can really relate to the "depressed lifestyle". during the years when my depression etc was in full swing all the time, i let it take over my entire life and didn't have anything else in my life at all. some things I would do would be endless internet browsing, watching series constantly while doing other stuff, but not much constructive at all. These days I still struggle to get out of those habits, even though I consider myself to be "in recovery" from depression in general (with relapses). I haven't yet shown myself that I'm capable of holding a full time job, because both times I've tried I've ended up in hospital - the debate in my head is whether that is due to actual, real difficulties that cannot be helped (anxiety/difficulty interacting/coping/character traits/easily overwhelmed/whatever), or whether I got so used to isolating myself online or in fantasy worlds that I'm hopelessly incompetent at real life still.

[Rose76]

I need to eat better. Have felt so tired and weak all morning. A good meal might be what's needed.

[952p65823]

Originally Posted by PsychNitrous

Well, heard about the job this afternoon finally. They filled the position on Friday. Couldn't even let me know, I'd still have been wondering if I hadn't called and left a message this morning. I feel so done with life right now.

: ( Been there! I hope you hear some good news very soon.

[952p65823]

Decent day today! The nice fall weather has me feeling happy. Spring, now THAT's a season I dislike.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by PsychNitrous

Feeling very down again today. I'm so tired of going through the same things every day, every week, over and over and over. I'm still waiting on an answer about a job I interviewed for almost a month ago, no one answers my phone calls or emails. I'm tired of things not working out, and I need a break.

Well, heard about the job this afternoon finally. They filled the position on Friday. Couldn't even let me know, I'd still have been wondering if I hadn't called and left a message this morning. I feel so done with life right now.

That's rough, Psych. Very sorry.

[88Butterfly88]

I don't feel human today. I feel like a lifeless blob.

[Rose76]

Well, I see above that others are having tough problems also.

I feel like I'm crackin' up. I can't seem to hardly care about anything.

I was just thinking about going to my PCP and saying I think I've gotten depressed and can't seem to shake it off. Then I think, "What good's that gonna do?"

I had a pretty good day today at work. I worked out after work, despite it being very hot today. It went OK but I felt like I was not really into it because of the heat. Not feeling much depression today. Some days are good that way and some are not. Like a song says, "some days are diamonds, some days are stones".

[Rose76]

I need some mood altering substance. I am desperate. Maybe if I have a drink with some popcorn. Maybe if I take a pain pill.

I probably need to just clean up the place and try to act normal. I think of calling a crisis line. But I feel like I can pretty much predict how that will go. I don't want to go through the predictable sequence of stuff they ask you.

[nikon]

I'm sorry to read how many people are struggling.
Today is good so far, thankfully. saw my psychologist. my psychologist and sponsor think that house sitting is not the actual problem so I'll be doing it, but will have to see how it goes.

Feeling really emotionally raw and tiny these days. Don't know where that comes from. Maybe generally I just carry some unhappiness with me. This should be easy to deal with. I'm not sure why I'm so tired.

I feel fine. It's a beautiful day and I'm happy to be working soon.

[Rose76]

I'm sick this morning. Hung over from too much wine last night. I haven't done that in ages.

[mcrump]

Today I feel numb. I had a major fight with my mother 2 days ago (I live with her still) and we haven't been speaking. So I feel numb and in a lot of physical pain from the stress.

[regretful]

Sometimes as I try so hard not to be depressed, I find ways to convince myself that I am. This illness is a miserable companion, always telling you that you're worthless and no good at anything. I just feel so lost right now...maybe it will get better as the days progress...it did once before. THanks for reading this.

I'm depressed.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Tough day at work today. I survived it, but exhausted now.