confessions of little turtle with love

You were a psychiatrist in the United States yet you were still discriminated against for being a psychiatrist?

actually I was my own worst enemy....I took me down more than anyone in the real world...

I feel you. I am stuck in between

1) Doing nothing and living like this
2) Studying for the entrance exam and try to turn my life around

All with this terrible, terrible feeling of nothingness, while I keep getting images of myself riding a Royal Enfield bike of my choice. Going outside and having fun. But the time for learning to socialize is gone now.

lonely chemist...we both want to be doctors...I am a doctor but I can be more of a doctor...and you can start right now being a doctor...we can help out right here now...
I will start...eating healthy and exercising healthy every day will improve brain function..most of the things you like to eat are not good for you...now lonely chemist will you take a turn...



and I need to add--------a good doctor is a good person...and you need to keep thinking---DO NO HARM...

little turtle, if I manage to save my life from falling apart, I will save lives of tens of thousands of people in my life from falling apart... the oath of Hippocrates, I have around six long years before I finally take it, but I will try from tomorrow to be more of a doctor. I don't know how I will end up, but I have a target. That target is to get 500+ marks in NEET, out of 720.

I will make sure to exercise tomorrow a little.

I’m trying to eat healthier and exercise a bit too..and some other things I’ve been neglecting

DO NO HARM - I agree, a good doctor (and also a “good therapist”) is a good person.

but how do I get out of this emotion? It's like I've witnessed a horrific event or that I am suffering from depersonalization/derealization.

I see dead children

Erti, I feel sorry for you... all I can say is try to talk to your doctor ASAP.

ill be alright. I'm a bit confused tho

What are you confused about?

Wondering why spirits talk to me.

Spirits do not exist. You're having a neuropsychological problem.

Seems so real

But they aren't, you'll understand in future.

The future is now... People don't know the truth...the truth is the inner.... The inner is lies.

Truth is not subjective. It's objective. Science (physics to be more precise) has not found any evidence for spirits and the like, including the scientific evidence for God. I don't see a reason to believe what you see and most importantly what others cannot see is real.

I'm the chosen one

That's what "they" tell you, isn't it? The fact is that "they" are a distortion of your mind, a delusion. You have faced child abuse, just like me, and you have a chemical imbalance in your brain along with some developmental abnormalities (some areas could have -- possibly -- become malfunctioning) which leads you to hear and see and believe things which aren't real.

I have come through that. It hurt me when I realized that the whole city's doctors are not "on my side." I had delusions that they watched me grow up, and will become threat to me unless I become their colleague (a doctor.) I was like, "Yay! I'll get killed if I don't become a doctor." Turns out they don't give a crap.

I'm just glad demons aren't following me.

My mind is racing.

It's better for you to seek professional help because I am not a professional (yet?) and I cannot help you over the internet. Demons, do not exist.

Thanks for trying to help

.....omg!

The fact is that she isn't, but it's unfortunate because her brain cells trick her to believe she is. And the brain cells themselves were tricked by early experiences.

well we tried to help....I hope we did not harm...if I did please tell me...I want to do better...I will say right now i believe that these psych drugs can be dangerous...and it is probably better to be on as few drugs as possible...and to get off of them if you can do that without making your condition worse...staying on my drugs for a lifetime was not the best way for me to go...and remember I am no longer licensed to practice medicine....I am here as a patient but I still am going to say what I think...
you are my friends and I don't want you to be hurt ....we certainly need to talk about our own little lives and what hurts...