confessions of little turtle with love

I am so sad that the psychiatry system is not interested in patients well-being..
the system is interested in making money$$$$$$$$$$...every 15 minutes...less talk
more drugs...

i have been trying to stop my anti-depressant..
what a problem...I am only on 5 mg celexa...
when I try to cut down I get nervous and I
don't know if it is my fear or withdrawal effects..
or both...I have been on these anti-depressants
for about 45 years...how can that be...
I do not trust these psych drugs anymore...

i wonder how you are all doing today...

Quite weary today, no energy left...

Thank you for asking Little Turtle

How are you today?

I’m also feeling very tired today

How are you little turtle?

I m very tired, like always.

How are you?

I am tired...it is good to hear from my fellow sufferers...

Hello Little Turtle and everyone. I'm sad......

Why are you sad, Calla?

i am afraid this morning....the world is very scary..
people are so violent...extreme competition...
where is the peace...peace of mind

Was Pondering on this last night. Our medical exam focuses on mathematics as well as application. My application's okay (mostly of bio and organic chem) but I am poor at mathematics. I am trying hard to solve the introductory numericals in the syllabi of physics as well as chemistry.

To get a govt seat I've to compete with like 1.3 million aspirants. Not sure what now.

so now I have had 2 weeks of high stress..with family and friends..
I have been thinking about taking a 5 mg valium..
I went back and forth...I decided I needed some rest time...
so I took a 5 mg valium tablet...now I am more calm..
I may take another later this morning...I need some rest time...
I will let you know how this goes for me...

the tlc-----do you use valium..

Nope. I am on betablockers though.

why are you on betablockers...

I am a person that probably shouldn't have gotten married...
and I probably shouldn't have had children...I wasn't a very good husband
or father....

Just a mild existential crisis....

It is all gone. Peace is gone. Peace of mind is nonexistant. A piece of my mind lives in a jar.

I am sorry. I have had many existential crises too. I questioned not only what my life means but what life in the whole universe is pointless too. It does happen due to stress and when everyone points out to you you are "worthless" (as in my case.)

People are @$$holes. That's all I can say. I am still hurt by what happened to me over the whole last academic year, when in my coaching class everyone called me worthless and I wouldn't pass 12th. I went to my coaching class while nobody from my batch came (much to my advantage) for studying, because I was tired of the bullcrap that happens at home every day. A teacher constantly told me not come and that I am just a waste of time, and even going to the extent of telling other teachers not to pay attention at me, as I was asking other teachers there for derivation/integration methods necessary for solving problems in physics. and chemistry.

I do not know, we are "freaks" because of our disability. Still so much stigma, so much "shortcuts" of brain, so many prejudices, so much hatred for things we suffer from....

Beta Blockers, by lowering blood pressure, calm you down. The problem is you get very sleepy and foggy on them. I was on them and stopped.

Those who labelled me as “too sensitive” and a whole bunch of abusive labels can go **** themselves (mad face)

Ursida


Sick and tired of abusive idiots (mad face)
(Not about anyone on pc)



(((((((( little turtle ))))))))

(((((((( Rohag )))))))))

And a “special” to the abusers in the “health” unservices uk

Are they so stupid not to realise that people are dying because of their abuse

I’m constantly reminded of this... I used to think I was “unlucky” with being abused, seems it’s the “norm” over here ( Mad Face)

Thank the stars above I’m “strong” enough to stay far away from these idiots (irl)

If one day I’m not, then I’ll be done

How ****ing ironic, a buncha abusers when people go for “help” ... F.uck

I’m going to find...
Another place to be.......



Everywhere freakin sucks
Sick of this planet

(Not about anyone on pc)

Sure with you here Fuzzy.

If only we had doctors that really listened, cared and treated us respectfully.

We are strong to survive with all our troubles.

Big hug to Fuzzy Bear
Little Turtle
Rohag

I imagine a naturally compassionate caregiver, Little Turtle being one example.

And I imagine the system through which that caregiver gives care shackling their compassion.

caregiver----we need good ones that are honest...
and not out for $$$$$$$$$$...no matter what...
we need to be living by a higher standard...
for all of us here...

It may be true that all doctors are not honest or not fully compassionate, but it's black and white thinking to say "All doctors are evil." Again what can I say or do? I hate to see people disrespecting such an honorable profession.... little turtle, I am not bashing you, I never will, considering your age, your former profession, your personality and your opinion. But as you yourself have gone through med school, don't you remember it takes more than just book smarts to be a doctor?

It takes a fair share of practical skills, compassion for patients, and a noble soul.