As much as I had an unhappy childhood
AS much as I was abused, neglected emotionally
I miss my mum and dad.
I miss them, why?
I want to sit and tell them how I hurt
I want to ask them why....
I really feel it today.
My husband, son, daughter and boyfriend are here.
yet I yearn to see them.
Is this wierd?
I feel, although I'm loved here, by MY family
I need parents too...I'm aching for something
I never had and will never have........
Don't think I'll ever be happy you know, really, maybe don't know how and that terrifies me.

Jin

[jacq10]

aww (((((((((((((Jinny)))))))))))))
I completely understand what you mean. I feel as though the love we receive (or are suppose to receive) from our parents is completely separate from the love we receive elsewhere. You can be the most loved person in other areas (significant others, children, friends, etc), but we can still feel lonely, or insignificant if we don't feel this from our parents.
I know it's probably really complicated and hard, but is there any way that you can talk with your parents? Or if not, talk with your husband about how you feel hurt because of them?
Hugs,
Jacq

I can talk with them, I am having a break from them by my request. They only upset me when I see them, I keep getting urges to call them, but it is very complicated, I think I would just go backwards if I did. I'll think about it, thanks for caring jacq, I know some people would give their right arm to see or have their parents back, I feel guilty about that too, that I should just forget the whole thing, but it's hard.

Jin xxxx

[nowheretorun]

life is so much a rollercoaster ride for us... just try to think about the fun games at the amusement park while you're on the ride...

this mornings flowers... or pure white carpet of snow...

not every game in the show is like the horror of mirrors exhibit...

when you know the corners are dark or scary, run to the lights...

you mean so much to us all here jinny... i wonder if you really know how much?

you're making it sweetie... you're helping me make it too... thanks for being who you are...

[Doh2007]

"The saddest words ever uttered are, 'What might have been.'"

[jacq10]

Try not to worry about feeling "guilty" because you're parents are around ... everyone has a different relationship with their parents, and so you have every right to be feeling the way you do towards them.
I know I often feel that way when i try and rationally think about my situation with my parents (mom especially), and the only way i can try and not focus on the guilt aspect of it (my parents physically being around) is by reminding myself that i do have the right to feel this way .. its just how you decide to deal with your relationship that matters. (Unfortunately thats the hard part!)
I hope it works out for you ...