Dreaming of depression

Yeah, our anxieties from the real world get us I think, moreso in dreams. I get anxious about the future instead of figuring out what I want right this minute. It's the cross currents that get us, the mixed messages to ourselves. We have to commit to something and work at that without constantly wishing for other things.

Can you do little things a bit at a time on the house wickedwings? I understand about houses; I instigated a move after 20 years because the house and yard were too much for me and we moved to a "new", smaller place that I thought I could manage. Already though after two years it's making me anxious though, LOL.

Yeah I definitely think our anxieties or feelings can "get to us" through our dreams - not always, but sometimes.

Yesterday actually, i had a really big Ringette game and when i woke up this morning I realised that my whole body was sore (probably from not stretching!) Anyhow - last night i dreamt that i was being chased and got into a fight. i ended up waking up in the middle of the night, and I felt all my muscles being sore from the Ringette game, but didn't make that connection, and in my half-sleep state, actually convinced myself for a second that i had gotten into a fight because I was physically sore.

My point being, that sometimes i think we can take things in from "reality" whether that be physically, or emotionally, and they can somehow get incorporated into our dreams. I think that on some level, dreams are a way for us to express things that we wouldn't necessarily do otherwise. So as for your dream about depression? Maybe it was just a fear that you would feel that way ... somehow doubting your emotional state now? Or it could just be a reflection on how you've felt in the past?

I also have dreams where i'm trying to fix something .. or sort some problem out. Depending on the dream, i sometimes feel like it's my "mind's" way of fixing some part of me ... whether that be some anxiety, or wishful thought ...

Then again, there is the theory that dreams are just a bunch of neurological matter, trying to process random thoughts at once.

I for one though, believe they have some sort of underlying significance, but i try and not take that too literally in some cases!

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Perna said:
Has anyone dreamed they were depressed?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Yes. Mine are metaphorical. One was about scuba diving with my husband. I didn't know how to scuba dive and we were assigned the task of finding a certain object underwater. We were given an undersea map. But I didn't know how to read it and navigate underwater, much less handle the diving apparatus. We swam aimlessly. I thought I would drown or get the bends. I had no directional point of reference so the map was useless. My air was running out. Deep sea creatures kept trying to get me as I swam by their caves. I didn't care. My husband went off in what I felt was the wrong direction, but I wasn't completely sure. My air was running out and I hadn't found the object. Went on and on. Lots of feelings of helplessness and doom and don't care and of being unable to accomplish anything (I will never find the object). Depression. Anxiety.

Darrel and Perna... I'm unsure as to whether you saw it posted here or not.

Darrel, your question... Yes, quite often I AM trapped in my life, either emotionally of physically. My spirit isn't nearly as desabled or as old as my body. There are things I would like to do, to accomplish and the mere lack of not having my own transportation stops me. There are quite a few things that stop me from doing what I WANT to do.

My T told me that a vehicle or a building symbolize your life. Food for thought.

Wickedwings I have absolutely loads of dreams which involve my house falling apart, the roof is always open and there are holes in the floor, once I dreampt it was full of dirty, muddy water and things were floating in it, woo, furniture etc.

strange...sometimes I know it's my house in the dream ut it is bigger/looks nothing like it????

Jin xxx

gotta run to work... one question )i hope its ok Perna, your thread?)

a similarity i'm catching in these dreams is the feeling of "stuckness"...

could that concsious thought be replaying itself in your dream... as in... do any of you feel deeply that you are powerless IRL? dont mean to poke or prod.. just dont answer if its uncomfortable... love to all..

sorry Tomi, i havent much time this morning... re-read your post.. ok, so you admit some stuckness... i like this... we can move stuff sometimes, ya know?

i know you do work on removing blocks IRL.. seems that would play over into your subconscious wouldnt it?

so, next question, wht isnt it working like that?

need more time maybe for it to soak in good... maybe meditate on those changes you believe you/ve made, like give the thought some extra boost? maybe just meditate (write mantras, affitmations) with good strong focus for one week... 15 mins a day... see what changes? maybe do the meditation longer or shorter period of time, more or less what suits you... i'm very curios to hear of the result...

and it may not work for you... but i believe with any self-help, sincerity and honest effort can make the difference...

and it is also true... in reality, some of us are limited as to the changes we can make.. my mom is an example.. physically habdicapped... she may want to run and dance... but, she's faced it... no more... sad....

Stuckness can come and go too. I don't think it has to be a big deal, it can be lots of little deals that aren't big :-) I'm often stuck in not doing "chores" and things around the house I wish I'd do. There's some galactic stuckness issues there for me, "resistance" to having to do something; leftover stepmother issues but mostly it's just my habit of allowing myself to be stuck and think about stuck instead of doing unstuck :-)

Oh, ditto!!!! Having to do things... left overs from childhood! Nobody, but NOBODY tells me what to do! Yet, I find myself having to modify that thought quite often to telling myself, "you can't do that because...". Also, needing to depend on others for some things can be extremely frustrating! A lot of the trapped feeling comes from that, too.

I know what my blocks are in my personal life. I know what I need to do for myself. The tradeoff isn't worth it to me, Darrel.

I've been offered suggestions to keep both "the block" but not let it be one. Not sure I'm making sense here. The way around the block, instead of removing it, again... it's not worth it to me. I'm not willing to make the necessary changes. This could well be a stubborness on my part, I'm aware of it, but for whatever reason, I don't take those options.

I'll certainly give your words a lot more thought, though.

Way around the block while keeping it? I think I did that this afternoon. I had a long morning and was tired and wanted to go home but I had put off getting my prescriptions picked up at the drugstore and grocery shopping. I decided I would do them later this afternoon or this evening but then figured I'd just slog through it and get it all done and over with.

As I was driving home from the grocery store finally, a couple hours later, I was thinking about that and realized that putting things off. . . one isn't going to want to do them anymore/less at a later time than one wants to now? So there's really no reason to put them off. It's the old eat-the-vegetables-and-get-them-out-of-the-way trick; no matter what you're going to have to eat them so just do it so you don't have to think about it or waste any more energy on the whole darn "problem".

absolutely, jinny. seems like we're sharing our dreams, doesn't it? lol

oh, hey, leftover stuff from childhood? gee, i know that one. lol. i had an overbearing, controlling teacher most of my school life (from elementary to high school - she was a resource teacher for the hearing impaired). she was a nightmare to be reckoned with. when i graduated from high school, it was as if i was finally free from prison, literally. anyway, i get dreams about her. it doesn't bother me, but it drives me silly because she no longer has any control over me. it sure is funny.

The "overbearing and controlling" person in my growing up years was my mother. Didn't trust me and wanted me with my nose stuck in a school book 24/7... just like she had been. That wasn't ME! She wouldn't let me do what normal teenagers were doing at the time. Caused me to rebel rather loudly and even to the point of just walking out of the house and doing just what I wanted to do. I knew it wasn't "bad."

But when I married the first time, I jumped from the frying pan into the fire. Lord have mercy!!! The second time, I felt uncared for and unloved because I wasn't controlled. I finally learned the difference between control and love. So why do I end up putting those controls on myself???? My copout is, I don't want to do some things by myself! I want company! Otherwise, it's not enjoyable! And who preaches "where there's a will, there's a way"?? You got it! Me! Oy vey!

Perna, you must know what it feels like to have depression... with your GAD. What does depression mean to you? Isn't it some sort of a trap... a block... an inability to do things you need/want to do?

Is there something you want/need to do that you're not getting done?

When I have a new chapter of my nightmare, I already know that I'm feeling trapped. Why my subconscience feels it needs to tell me is beyond me. LOL

Lately, I've been dreaming that I've lost my cell phone. Last night, I dreamt that I had lost the joystick on my electric chair. Loss of communication and loss of control over what has been happening in my personal life. No, really??? LOL

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wickedwings said:
when i graduated from high school, it was as if i was finally free from prison, literally. anyway, i get dreams about her. it doesn't bother me, but it drives me silly because she no longer has any control over me. it sure is funny.

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Yeah, my therapist said when my stepmother died it would be different for me and it was, very freeing feeling. I went around singing "Ding dong the witch is dead" from Wizard of Oz with a grin on my face for a long time :-)

Nah, I've been depressed before, in my 20s but the anxiety of my 40's didn't have any sadness to it, just terror :-) I was a surly teen but once I met my husband (34-35) my naturally pleasant attitude you see before you today was the usual state of affairs :-) I'm just not always a "calm" person. But that's what my T helped me with most, she and my husband are both calm people and I learned not to feel/respond quite so much like Chicken Little anymore.

Well, it was just a thought, anyway. Hope you're feeling better now.