Originally Posted by mountainstream

Depressed.

I am depressed too. Plus getting panic attacks. It sucks. Life seems to be a standstill.... sigh

[Deilla]

I am doing Okay this afternoon. I've been busy with my art. Need a break now. I feel fine. Calm and relaxed. I did spend some time journaling. I might do some more.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I know why nobody buys my books, it's because I'm an awful writer. Poorly written, incoherent crap.

Is it possible you’re being too hard on yourself? Sending warm wishes.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Is it possible you’re being too hard on yourself? Sending warm wishes.

I don't think so. I've tried everything, changing covers, changing prices, keywords, search engine optimisation, all kinds of paid ads, nothing's worked.

This is the only thing I really have any hope for. It's literally the only thing I've ever been good at, and I'm no good at it. It takes a huge toll to work so hard on something for so many years and to not get anywhere.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I don't think so. I've tried everything, changing covers, changing prices, keywords, search engine optimisation, all kinds of paid ads, nothing's worked.

This is the only thing I really have any hope for. It's literally the only thing I've ever been good at, and I'm no good at it. It takes a huge toll to work so hard on something for so many years and to not get anywhere.

Stay hopeful and keep striving. You'll get there. Just believe in yourself.

[The_Bear]

Feeling a bit depressed. Can't sleep, but really need to as I have a long day at work tomorrow.

Originally Posted by Tkb1966

Thanks for replying. I fall asleep fast usually but I wake up after maybe 2-3 hours later. I have general anxiety. It's constant. It's 3:15am I've been up since 12am. My son (23) came to my house very drunk tonight and said a couple of hurtful things to me and made me cry. He is my baby. Very sweet and good to his mom. So it made me cry and not want to go back to sleep. I'm still really irritable. I don't see a psychiatrist any more because I believe they need a psychiatrist more than I do. I've seen my therapist regularly for almost 13 years now. Really depressed now. My mom, brother and niece are here. I don't know how I'm going to hide this in the morning. I hate the mask we have to hide behind. But it's really not acceptable to tell people your depressed. I even lie about it occasionally to my therapist. I'll try and sleep now. I know it makes it worse when I don't sleep.

I know, people don't like to see us depressed so it's easier to put on a mask. I'm sorry you're struggling. I have a son who is a worry, it's hard being a mom at any age they are. I wish you better days ahead! Hope you slept.

Woke up feeling depressed. Right now I'm just taking a coffee break from cleaning. I'm making good timing. The weather here is nice, but I don't feel all that great.

My friend is going away for a couple of weeks. He and his wife are leaving today. They are going on a Mississippi River cruise. He'll call me but it's not the same as at home.

At least today can be a better day than a week ago today with my neighborhood that got taken over

I've got to remember to chuck the past. I keep thinking, if only or what if.... it doesn't help. Got to work with what I have now. That's all we ever have. But I sure would be best to plan for a future where I don't depend on someone else for anything. Seems an impossiblity now.

[Deilla]

A little bit of a tough day. Just tired and sort of grumpy. I don't think I got enough sleep last night. Trying to relax now. After all, it's the weekend.

so severely depressed and ashamed. I keep thinking about things.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling a bit sad and down today. Missing my daughter for the first time since she left. I’m trying to stay busy and not let it spiral down into full blown depression. Also, getting the house ready for company so I don’t have time to be moping around. Got to stay active.

I’ve got lots of fun and interesting things planned and I packed my schedule to get around my daughter’s absence. It’s just in the down times and it only started today. I’ll see her Labor Day so I’ll try to focus on that.

Got to work with what I have... can't sleep well.... have to do caretaking for a few days and I was looking forward to getting away until I'm interrupted be numerous things and my desire to sleep is just gone to maddening frustration.

[Rose76]

Today was not a good day. I got nothing done. I feel scared.

Today was pretty eventful, but not much social interaction. Went to a church today for the first time in a while. It didn't quite do it for me. So I guess I'll go elsewhere the next time. My friend called me a couple of times today saying it's very hot where he is.

Took a 2 and half hour bike ride today. After that my sister called. It was very nice talking to her.

[3rd rock]

It's literally 32 degrees inside my apartment.

I started my day with just a few hours of sleep. Still, I was eager to get going to give someone some respite from constant care taking. I'm exhausted.

I watched a motivational video this morning. Think positive. You can do anything you want to in life if you change your negative attitude and be grateful. If you're poor, it's your fault.

Sure doesn't seem like it is that simple to me. I guess it should be. How to be thankful while in pain emotionally and physically is still hard for me. Especially when I feel psychiatric medicines ruined my health.

[Deilla]

I'm exhausted and stressed. Too many stressors. I want to try to relax tonight. Maybe I'll just go to bed. I've had 3 naps already today.

I didn't sleep well last night because I was blowing my nose starting at 2AM. And then I was blowing my nose and sneezing all day at work. I don't have a cold, just some kind of allergy.

It was a pretty good day at work. It's too bad that the nose blowing and sneezing all day ruined it. I worked out after work and it went well, much to my surprise. Before working out, I felt tired, blowing my nose, and headaches.

My friend is away and will be going on a Ohio River cruise instead of the Mississippi River cruise. It's too bad for him because he has tried to go on that Mississippi River cruise for two years. He told me that it's no big deal going on the Ohio River because he grew up on it.

[Rose76]

After wasting the morning, I got a few things done. I'm disappointed in myself. I feel just awful for hours in the morning. Then I usually feel much better in the afternoon.

[3rd rock]

I will probably have the third book in my series completed by the end of August. I've wasted 2 and a half years of my life working on a series that hardly anyone has read. This is a totally pointless waste of time. It's not only 2 and a half years, I've been working on writing one thing or another since I was 19. So much time and effort wasted on something for nothing.

I am too desperate and lonely. I must remember to keep my vulnerability to myself. I am not among friends. I don't really know how to make sense of things.

[3rd rock]

Another 2,000 words done, that virtually no one will ever read but me. This is pointless and stupid.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I will probably have the third book in my series completed by the end of August. I've wasted 2 and a half years of my life working on a series that hardly anyone has read. This is a totally pointless waste of time. It's not only 2 and a half years, I've been working on writing one thing or another since I was 19. So much time and effort wasted on something for nothing.

Have you watched the movie The Secret? It's about positive attitude and positive results. It's pretty inspirational. It might help you feel better. (((Hugs)))

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Have you watched the movie The Secret? It's about positive attitude and positive results. It's pretty inspirational. It might help you feel better. (((Hugs)))

I suppose I should be more positive. 8 new sales showed up in my reports last night. So it's like every day that passes is a day that gets me closer to my goal. Or not.

I got a call back from a private psychiatrist's office, saying he'd like to take me as a patient. I'm optimistic about that.