[rhinoinpain]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I can't wait until I finish this novel, then I can get onto writing something that may actually sell.

How cool! You're a writer? And a professional one at that? So awesome.

I love writing myself, and I write short stories mostly but nothing so great that would actually sell if I tried to peddle it to any magazines or whatever.

Keep up the good work with your novel man, you will get it done soon enough and then you can write other things.

Stay strong!

Fairly busy today. I did not sleep well last night because I was blowing my nose almost the whole night. And I felt like my lower back was aching, down to the knee. At work this morning my back was aching, but then I had lunch and it went away. But it came back again in an hour. Went for a bike ride instead of working out. I may try to workout tomorrow if my back is up to it.

I called the place that messed up my modem to send back. The manager, whom I needed to talk to, was out today because of an emergency. Hmmm!

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by rhinoinpain

How cool! You're a writer? And a professional one at that? So awesome.

I love writing myself, and I write short stories mostly but nothing so great that would actually sell if I tried to peddle it to any magazines or whatever.

Keep up the good work with your novel man, you will get it done soon enough and then you can write other things.

Stay strong!

Thank you for your encouragement. I made a sale today, so there's always hope. I'm just tired of poverty. This is the only thing I'm any good at, so I hope to use it.

An alright kind of day. Made a small dent in the problem I had sending back that modem. I worked out today for the first time in eight days. It went very well. No back pain or soreness this time! I feel so much better about myself now.

Other than being very tired and not sleeping much lately, I'm doing okay. Even though I should have slept well, I didn't. I'm feeling some stress about my family. Finances. One day at a time I guess. There's a wedding I promised to go to, it's so far away I'm not looking forward to it. I'll have to just take it a step at a time.

[3rd rock]

I rewrote 5,000 words today. I hope I can finish the current rewrite before the end of the month. Then the final rewrite in September. Then I'll have a ~230,000 word doorstop that no one will read but me.

I'm at a motel. I still can't sleep. I'm so fed up with life. Losing this much sleep and being in this relationship is too much. It's all about him it seems. I'm the bad one. Everything is my fault. I feel so so tired of pleasing him and I'm getting hurt by everything.

He said we would do something for us. Never happened. It's almost all about him seeing his family. His wants and needs.

I mean nothing to him. He's ready to toss me out. Maybe I should get rid of myself soon.

It was a terribly slow day yesterday and the day dragged. Today was much better. More transactions and other things to do to keep me busy. I worked out and it went well.

Originally Posted by will19

I was pretty busy today making reservations for my trip next month. I was able to book the airline, car rental, and lodging. Really looking forward to it. But there are times when I feel a little bit of remorse and even wondering if I'm going to make it until then.

Feeling pretty depressed and down physically. My back is still stiff but getting better. I didn't work out, but I went for a bike ride. Also I felt tired, sore at the back and gassy (it's embarrassing for me to say that).

Where are you going to?

Originally Posted by Desiree2006

Where are you going to?

Next month I'll be spending a week in Minnesota. I have never been there. I've reserved a cabin on the lake front. It's a state with 10,000 lakes.

[happysobercrafter]

Hi, everyone! I am doing okay today. I picked up my crochet hook and some yarn last night and it felt good in my hands. I haven't crafted in forever.

A pretty good day for me. Cleaned my place this morning like I always do. My friend was going to visit me today by taking the bus, but he was not able to renew his bus card. He attempted to renew his bus card yesterday at a supermarket, but the computer systems were down. Well, I decided to go to his place instead. I felt like it was my turn to go to his house anyways. He gave me a rolling suitcase for my trip next month plus I picked out three DVDs out of a pile that he was going to give away. I don't have to go to the library for a while, which is nice. And we had a nice lunch.

Went shopping after that. Nothing exciting for the rest of the day and evening.

[3rd rock]

I'm not sure why I bother with this. My life will never get any better, it will only get worse. Even if I returned to work, all I would be doing is working to keep myself alive until such time as circumstances obviate that need, whether six years or sixty from now.

[3rd rock]

Tomorrow I will go to Tim Hortons and work on my current doorstop of a project over coffee and doughnuts. I refer to it as a doorstop because when the finished product comes out that'll be all it's good for. No one's going to read 230,000 words of crap.

[Deilla]

I'm irritated this morning. Not sure why. I thought I got enough rest. One cats been crying and the other is tearing up the house. I wish they would just sleep. Normally I'm calmer about these things, it's just I've been working on some challenging skills with my art. It's frustrating me. I guess maybe I can try some CBD oil. Maybe that will help me relax. I might want to invest in some valerian root I think. I believe I hear silence now. Perhaps there will be peace for a while.

I just feel so empty and ashamed.

[Sunflower123]

Struggling today. High depression and low motivation. Thoughts of self harm. Hope tomorrow is better.

[3rd rock]

Looking over my notes from earlier drafts, one note on a particular passage says: "rewrite to be better." Thanks, past me, that's very helpful.

Not a good day today. I couldn't sleep at all last night because I got blowing my nose. Got a headache, too. And then I had some trouble being able to login to a bank, so I'll have to try tomorrow. My sister called, but it happened just as I had my lunch ready. And then the lunch was not that good.

Took a bike ride this afternoon. I was on the bike for 2 hours and 45 minutes. It seemed like a miracle since I wasn't feeling that good. Speaking of bike riding, my friend had called while I was gone. He left a message saying that he spoke to someone about a biking event. Believe it or not, those kinds of things don't interest me. I guess it's the crowds and hassle that doesn't appeal to me. My friend is the type that, when he thinks something is a good idea, he'll suggest it for me. And then when I turn it down, he'll argue. But also I feel like I'm in a rut because I seem to avoid things that can be exciting.

[Rose76]

A dark cloud is trying to swallow me up. My thinking is awful. Some hurtful treatment I received in the past from a family member is bothering me a lot.

I can't stand the present, and I see nothing good in the future. I can see bad things in the future. I've got to change something.

A pretty good day today. I slept well last night, no nose blowing. Was fairly busy at work. I had a project that I dreaded this morning, but it worked out OK.

The down side of today was that I had a headache all day. I worked out after work and it went well. Despite having the headache, I worked out with it and it seemed like I had forgotten about the headache while working out.

[3rd rock]

Almost ready to give up. What's even the point of anything?

I'm getting depressed. Another fight. Will he change his mind in the morning? This is too much.

[3rd rock]

I asked a publication if they would be willing to review one of my books, and I finally got a response today. It simply read: "thank you for the email" in its entirety.

Glass half full, at least I got a reply!

[Deilla]

Feeling a little tired and depressed this morning. Not sure if I got enough sleep. I don't want to sleep right now. I want to do things. Might try to doodle for a bit and if the cats go to sleep, I'll paint. I guess now would be a good time to make some gratitude lists and listen to ocean waves.