Feelings depressed all the time

I been feeling really down and depressed a lot. I tried to go outside for some fresh air and do some exercise. I try to eat healthy. If I try to go out? I feel really bad. I rarely feel good when I go out. Anyone ever feel this way?

There are times when I’ve been so depressed and driving, and am in such a dark, sad place I started an anti anxiety med a few months ago, and those depths have stopped.

I just want to feel good!. I feel like I go into a dark place.

Are you seeing a therapist? Any meds?

Buffy01

I understand how you are feeling. I am having a prolonged spell of feeling this way. I am under a lot of stress and I don't see it being over for at least a few months. I find it hard to pick myself up and catch myself from falling when I am being triggered so much. I have no energy left. And now I have panic rising up in me so many times a day.

It all is trashing my self esteem. I feel really useless and my memories of emotional meltdowns leave me with large doses of toxic shame.

Much respect to you and everyone who is suffering

buffy

I don’t feel shame about my emotional meltdowns. I feel anger about how those ‘loved ones’ who triggered it feel no empathy toward me for it— they even feel resentment toward me for it and I feel they don’t like me for it— shame on THEM!

I’ve noticed some people here seem to have a generalized depression that is not really about any specific issues. For me, it is all due to very specific issues.

Is your depression general or specific issues, Buffy?

I guess the reason I feel shame is because I end up having meltdowns with people other than those really responsible.

I felt anger towards the abusers too, like you say they blame and resent you. I have worked on that using Pete Walkers book, CPTSD From Surviving to Thriving. The triggers still come though. My anger is lessened and I have no contact with family that are not supportive.

You are right, shame on them!

Sending respect and kind thoughts to you

I also agree. Shame on the abusers!!

Respect and kind thoughts to all

I was seeing a therapist last April and hadn't got back in touch with the therapist since. My first session open up wounds that I didn't want open and made me feel really bad.

I been depressed my whole life. I rarely feel good. I live with toxic people in my life. I have a hard time picking myself up on days I feel so down.

I really need a hug.

Can you get away from the toxic people? Can you get back to a therapist?

Sometimes I do feel shame. Sometime I feel angry because I feel depressed. So because no one who I know understand me or they think it something you can get over.

No because the toxic people live with me. The therapist I had stop working with me after one session. We don't have a lot of therapist who are trained everyone is leaving.

Some of it is.

I'm currently trying to get access to a workbook

Shame on the abuser.

Good post. (well put)

I feel anger towards those ''loved ones'' who have no empathy for me. They triggered my melt downs and they blame me and resent me. I think the Shame belongs to them. Grrrrrrrrrrr

Hugs to all

Buffy

Much respect to you dear Thirty shades. You're not useless.


Toxic shame, I hate that feeling

Hugs and respect to all who are suffering

I feel like that all the time.

Thanks for the hugs. I really need a hug today.

I have so much toxic shame. I'm looking for a way to heal.