Confessions of little turtle with love #4

i usually am very fearful of what might happen to me
and others and this world we live in.....

Fear requires fuel.
Fuel is inside and outside.
My experience: Sources of fear-fuel are too numerous to eliminate. Some sources, however, may be limited or cut. Sometimes, fear is very, very appropriate. Sometimes, fear is ... groundless. Sometimes, fear lacks utility.

eating nutritious food will help my brain deal with this fear.....
and i hear certain vegetable oils are very damaging to brain cells...

thanks rohag for good talk...

i am tired of trying to follow lifestyle medicine...
it is a pain in my butt to try and prevent disease and dementia....
i need a valium...

Very good post Rohag, You are very effective at offering support here on pc, and more...

hugs and respect

It can be and often is a pain in the butt, dear little turtle. I understand

much respect to you and all the members on the AS IS bus and to everyone who is reading

i am a broken psychiatrist but not crooked...
i want TRUTH..... i want REALITY...
we are not getting it from psychiatry...

i just lowered my celexa....

little turtle

I have not found professionals to be honest with me irl quite shockingly not honest sometimes (or compassionate

Dear Little Turtle, I wish to focus on this:
Knowing and respecting your experience and honesty, I want to ask you what was the process by which you came to the decision to lower your dosage? Under what conditions or outcomes would you consider reevaluating that decision?

As always, feel free to ignore my question. Thank you for continuing to share your thoughts and wisdom here.

thanks rohag....
i like to be on the lowest dose possible...
back in december i called my psychiatrist...i was going down...
so he increased the dose from 10 to 20....i think i had a PLACEBO effect...
now i want to go back to 10 and see how i do...
i have been practicing mindfulness and staying away from sugar...

LT are we allowed natural sugars from fruit and honey?
I eat a fairly healthy diet.

I am having good days and bad with mindfulness.

i don't think fruit is a problem.....honey i am not sure....
mindfulness takes a lot of work...but it is love work for you...
not for anyone else....

we have posted alot about self love/compassion......very very important..
this is very hard for a lot of us....i am my own worst enemy...
i am trying to do this AS IS thing....to love everything just the way it is now...
we are human beings and we all have failings and traumas and losses and hurts..
and guilts...i am a mess.....a broken down unappreciated by others psychiatrist....
but i will start right now today living with everything wrong and right.....with some PEACE OF MIND......before i am dead....

but remember about anything i post.....i am full of crap....

WE ARE HUMAN BEINGS on the AS IS BUS....thank you

i am sorry for being so direct....but i know some things about the inside of psychiatry..
i am very old now...i never thought i would make it to 88...

please please please
follow lifestyle medicine and nutritional psychiatry and mindfulness...
you will feel better...you will handle better what is going on in real life...
don't wait...start today before it is to late for you...

Wise words Little Turtle.

Thank you for your wisdom and knowledge.

I am trying to love myself more
Practice mindfulness
Eat healthy food, (I still like a glass of wine)

I have good days and bad....
I am trying to be a better human.

I want to learn more assertiveness.
I feel that would be helpful..
Does anyone on the bus have any tips?

Much respect to you and all on the bus

I also wish I could be more aware of my emotional state...

It must have sucked if other Experts did not appreciate you grrrrr. Maybe some of them don't appreciate anyone (unless they feed them in the ''correct'' way...)

I am full of crap too, but so is everyone sometimes Why do you put yourself down little turtle? Because They Train you to, its ''safer'' to put self down sometimes. But this is full of crap what I just said

I think there are some human beings who are evolved enough not to throw out labels unless absolutely necessary. I agree, we are HUMAN BEINGS on the AS IS bus, we are not our illness, our traumas, our failings, our issues.... even the most Judging Expert has many failings... and probably more than most (not about anyone on pc)

Tips for assertiveness? Wondering if our snakes may have wisdom to share? Other than that, idk.. I think its an old term which the mu actually used but she misused ''assertiveness''... I think she was doing something else not assertiveness...

there is one ''technique'' which is to (edit) …(I can tell you in a PM) she used that I guess in some contexts it could be helpful, I've never used it.

Much respect to you and all on the bus

Assertiveness does not come naturally to me. Also, I was not raised to be assertive.
I did manage to develop a capability to act assertive in some contexts.
Time and infirmities have greatly eroded that capacity.
I do better being assertive in writing than in speech.