[MatBell]

What do you do when you’re very suicidal - thinking about it all day?

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When I'm feeling that way the first thing I do is check myself to see if I've eaten or drunk something lately. A glass of water and a small snack help.

I try to remove myself from my current environment. That's been my apartment lately, so I'll either take my pups for a walk or take a drive. Because it's been hot here lately, when I walk the pups we'll find a shady spot for them to lie in for 30 minutes or so. If I'm driving, I'll find a place to park and sit for a while. Anything that keeps me away from my place for a while.

I'll listen to some music. Sometimes really sad songs actually make me feel better, because I can get a good cry out of it. Sometimes I need up tempo music. Whatever works in the moment.

I'll watch TV programs that I like. There are some that I've seen a dozen times over the last few years, simply because they are comforting. They still make me laugh or smile.

I have a handful of YouTube videos that I will watch. I'm a fan of Douglas Bloch's videos. He's calming and comforting.

I may even do a few things I don't like doing. Chores or exercising. Feeling like I've accomplished even some small task will help.

For me, I simply try to get through each minute as best as I can. Distraction works for me usually. I find that trying to "feel better" by thinking my way out of my mood never works. I have to find ways to shut out "the voice."

I won't try to tell you that your life is worth living and you should look on the bright side. I hate when people do that to me. All I can say is, try not to think about getting through the day, just get through the next minute, in any way you can.

I wish you well with this struggle, I very much understand.

[Alive99]

1. Remind myself I can always ask for and take medication to make me a zombie, no pain, no problems

2. Start thinking about where I've put the crisis centre's contact details (phone number/address)

3. "Come out" in front of loving family members about being suicidal


I've not had suicidal thoughts/feelings in a while but I promised myself these are the things I will think of right away if I am ever acutely suicidal

it helps me to

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write a suicide note

to see down on paper why you are suicidal, and how you got their really helps
I tear the mote up straight afterwards but it defenetly gives me some perspective and reasurance that their is a reason for these thoughts, and I'm not crazy

something else I do is think about what happened last time I

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attempted it

and think do I really want to end up their again?. probably not, all things considered

[Nammu]

Depends. If it’s just non anxiety ruminating I ignore it and find distracting things to do. If I’m highly anxious and impulsive then I call a crisis line to have someone else input to my safety

[MickeyCheeky]

So Sorry you're struggling! Please do not give up! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about finding distractions and asking for Help if necessary, There is no shame in admitting we need Help so don't hesitate to contact an Hospital if necessary. Contact Friends and Family as well if that is possible. Try to keep yourself Safe and your mind busy too. You deserve to Live like everyone else does. i Apologize i am late and if this post isn't really helpful either. Hope you're feeling a bit better. Keep us updated if possible. Try to do your best. Hugs. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @MatBell, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHA THAPPENS, OK?!

[Sweetshysarah]

I try in have empathy for those I'd leave behind

[MatBell]

Thanks a lot for all your answers.
Still struggling badly at the moment.

I chatted with a crises hotline yesterday. Told me to inform my doctor of how I was. Should I?
She already knows of my situation (in contact some weeks ago) and don’t want to raise alarm bells too much. I don’t know….

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[mssweatypalms]

I'm sorry you're facing such a tough situation. In my case, I write my feelings in my notebook first. Then, I drink a glass of water and just sit until I finish the whole glass. After that, if I can stop crying, I try to walk around my neighborhood. If I don't have the energy to go out, I listen to music. I also try to text a friend and talk about something. I don't usually tell them I'm suicidal. Or it's more like I can't say anything about how I feel when I'm in that state.


I hope you'll be able to get through this.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MatBell

What do you do when you’re very suicidal - thinking about it all day?

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I go to YouTube and watch Teal Swan what yo do when your feeling suicidal, Kati Morton suicide prevention, Lisa A Romano suicide they help me by listening to them because they describe how I am feeling. Kati Morton has a suicide prevention workbook that is found on Google or you can watch her video on prevention. Sometime I call the crisis center.

I hope this help you out.

[zapatoes]

It varies and today it helped to read website about survivors who considered or attempted suicide in the past.

[Werewoman]

The nuthouse. It's less that a mile for my house.

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you've been having such a difficult time. Hopefully you've begun feeling better since you posted this. (As I've written a number of times here on MSF) routine is very important to me. So mostly I just acknowledge my suicidal feelings are there, keep doing whatever comes next in my routine, and wait for the feelings to pass. Like raging vortex, though, I do also sometimes think of what happened when I tried before & where I ended up. I probably don't want to end up back there again either.

[Merlin]

Do you have a safety plan?

I have one with plans of activities to do to distract and enjoy as well as people and hotlines I can well.

Originally Posted by Merlin

Do you have a safety plan?

I have one with plans of activities to do to distract and enjoy as well as people and hotlines I can well.

I can still remember when someone did one with me

but I think it's high time it got updated

hmmm