[Deilla]

Today went better for me. I had a doctor's appointment and I'm proud of myself for making it. I have been relaxing with games and I took a nap.

I feel like ****.

recently, when I was in hospital, their was a woman called olivia on my ward and I really wish I could find out how she is- I obviously can't, I don't know her, and then their's the whole patient confidentiality thing, but still.. I am finding I am missing her and wondering how she is doing

I also just finished a show I have enjoyed for the last well.. week or so. it was only in 5 parts, but it was good

It had been a busy week and mostly with good emotions, though there were times it was down. Last night my internet connection went down around 9 PM. I called tech support and then it was suggested that my computer was a problem and not the Wi-Fi connection. I got a red "X" on the signal bars icon at the lower right of the screen. Went to bed feeling down and worried about having to have my computer repaired. This morning there was no red "X" at the signal bars icon, so It looked hopeful. I called tech support again this morning and this time it worked out. NO HAVING TO TAKE MY COMPUTER IN FOR REPAIRS!

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well tonight. I'm very depressed and I'm anxious. I could try a meditation. I think that will help relax me and get my mind off things.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m getting slight rumbles of night time depression. Now would be a good time to ask my mom to hide my meds for the night.

[Breaking Dawn]

Some problems, but I'm doing ok.

Nothing much going on for most of the day. I had nothing planned. I decided to go on a one hour bike ride instead of the longer ride at an area where I usually go. Today, being a holiday, I didn't want to take a chance riding my bike close to possible drunk drivers.

In the afternoon I made reservations for a trip. I plan to be away from home for a week next month. It's a personal/business trip I had planned for some time. I'm going to that area with a possibility I may want to move there for good. We'll see.

My only friend has done a pretty good job of calling me while he's out of town. He and his wife are on the Columbia River Cruise. It's nice that he's calling me but it's not the same as it is when he's home.

[Rose76]

I've been low all yesterday afternoon and last night.

[Kelly68]

I'm restless and depressed. I used up my opiods too soon. I think I'm having withrawal even from a small dose. I'm trying to believe I'm strong enough not to pick up the next refill. It does nothing but cover up problems... it helps me to feel less pain but at what cost. It's like a merry go round I want off of.
Son is still a big worry. If i knew how to help him I would.

apart from a constant stomach ache, feeling okay.
one of my favorite soap operas came back on today after.. about 3 months?
it's called doctors- I really enjoy it

[Deilla]

I feel sad today. And I don't know what to do with my time. I guess just sleep and do meditations.

I woke up feeling anxious and a bit depressed. I think it's because of thinking about my upcoming trip next month, since I made reservations for it yesterday. Also I had seen a lousy movie last night.

This day has just barely begun and already an event happened before eating breakfast. There's a pedestrian bridge near me and someone had jumped off. When I first got up I was hearing a man yelling (which happens here at times unfortunately). I couldn't see where it was coming from at first but then I was able to see him. He was standing in the middle of the bridge. I could barely see him because of trees obstructing the view. I hadn't seen him jump though. I found out when I saw the police and paramedics in the area a little later on. A police officer told me that he had jumped. He was being carried on a stretcher, uncovered, but looked unconscious.

Nothing planned for today except for a workout and bike ride.

[Deilla]

I'm doing okay today.

I got very upset this morning before getting out of bed. Yea, it was that early! My sister had called to tell me that there's a house for sale near where she lives. I've told her a million times that I am never interested in moving to where she is. She just keeps at it. It seems like lately I am getting so upset with her that I feel like I want to cut ties. It's not about the house thing, it's just that it's constant with her calling and upsetting me. We seem to be arguing a lot.

Other that that I straightened out a misunderstanding with my electric bill. It ended up that I was in the right and they made a mistake. They were going to charge me a fee, but now they decided to waive it.

My only friend is back here in town now, but I doubt if we'll talk tonight. He has to be pretty tired from the trip. Earlier today, he had a fall on some stairs. I'm concerned about him.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel sad but I’m sure it’s because I didn’t eat a lot today.

[Rose76]

Called my provider's office today and await hearing back. I'm not doing well and I need help, if anything can be done to help me . . . which I'm not sure I can even hope for.

[hvert]

I fought with my husband yesterday. Part of it was PMS and part of it was resentment that has been building for months. We did not resolve the issue and probably never will. I am tired of Covid and being trapped together in this house 24/7 but there is no end in sight and just a long, bleak winter ahead.

[jmariah001]

I am not doing good. My therapist recently left and now I don't have anyone. I emailed another provider in my area hoping that they have services available. There is always the 741 text number. I used them once before but they weren't really helpful. I don't know what to do.

[Deilla]

I'm exhausted and stressed and pretty sad.

Spent the morning cleaning, and that's about it. Part of the morning was ruined because of excessive noise outside. There was some kind of sidewalk work being done and cutting up the cement really made a lot of noise. Nothing much for the rest of the day.

[CANDC]

@jmariah001 I am sorry you lost your therapist. It is hard when you have a close relationship to have it disappear from your life. I hope you get another therapist that works for you.

In the meantime, there are some things online that might help if you care to explore them. DBSA Depression Bipolar Support has zoom meetings from the national organization and there may be a local chapter that offers support also.

NAMI also offers some Peer support groups.

Lifestyle changes can help. I do some simple exercises on youtube like 5 minute Tai Chi and Adrienne complete beginner yoga.

I also find the food I eat has a profound affect on how I feel so I am moving from a high carb low protein diet to one with a lot fewer carbs and more veggies and some fruit. I found out my brain works better with protein every few hours, so that has helped me.

Hope you get the support you are looking for.

Been feeling depressed lately. It seems like I should feel excited and euphoric because I have a trip coming up next month. But I have some anxiety about the trip since I'm going by myself. Also, this is more like a business trip than a "fun" trip. The reason I say it's business is because I'm going to the area to see if I want to move there.

The thing I'm feeling the most depressed about is the idea that I have to leave where I am now because things are not going well. It's not going well because: I quit my job three months ago because it went bad, I can't afford to stay, my social life here is nothing much to "write home about", and the state politics is a mess and the voters still support those awful politicians. They just don't get it.

This morning my sister called. Last week I got upset with her because she called me about a house for sale in her area and I was never wanted to move there for various reasons. It's not just that but we've been arguing a lot. She can't understand it when I say "no" on things. So just now I told her that I don't want to continue with the phone calls anymore. I'm just tired of having a lot of stupid arguments. I feel bad about this.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel like my moods are starting to shift and are becoming SAD. But it’s 90 degrees outside and I don’t usually get seasonal depression until it hits the low 60’s or it’s October. So I think my depression today was more situational since I have a lot going on. I have been paying more attention to how earlier it’s been getting dark.

My SAD used to start mid October. Then during the holidays it would go away. Then come back really strong about the 28th of December and would go on until March. But these last couple years it’s been nonstop from October until March and I seem to have lost the holiday spirit.

[Deilla]

I'm doing pretty good today. It's the fourth day I've been back on my Cymbalta.

[3rd rock]

I am deeply depressed because of the failure of my limited attempt to write an erotic novel. I will write one more and I expect to finish it by the end of October. Then I will give up on erotic fiction. I have an idea for a new literary novel, which consists of a group of people narrating their lives through the medium of an internet website. I've been sitting on this idea for a couple of years and after the failure of my erotic books I might try it.