[3rd rock]

I am getting very depressed because I have counted up all the submissions I've sent off on my current novel and it's about 60. 60 submissions and not a single request for the manuscript. I've had a few people read it and they praised it, although I'm not sure it's any good. It's possible the subject matter is too controversial, but I doubt that's it. The easiest and simplest explanation is just that it's a terribly-written book.

[3rd rock]

I wish I had more people to share my work with.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I am getting very depressed because I have counted up all the submissions I've sent off on my current novel and it's about 60. 60 submissions and not a single request for the manuscript. I've had a few people read it and they praised it, although I'm not sure it's any good. It's possible the subject matter is too controversial, but I doubt that's it. The easiest and simplest explanation is just that it's a terribly-written book.

Just keep at it and never give up! It has always seemed like such a random and unpredictable process to me, no matter how good your work is. You never know when someone picks up on it and it starts to snowball.

One prime example might be JK Rowling, who couldn't make ends meet and is now richer than the Queen of England, apparently. Her case may be unique and extreme, but it highlights what's always possible. (And I don't mean authors like James Patterson, who seem to churn out 18 books every month and turned it into a highly orchestrated industry.)

[CANDC]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Physically, I have gotten better and better. Mentally, I've been unmotivated and neglecting everything.

I got some things done today. Maybe I can build on that tomorrow. Mornings are awful. I wake up, stuck in molasses.

@Rose76 glad you are feeling better physically. That is a good sign.

[CANDC]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Physically, I have gotten better and better. Mentally, I've been unmotivated and neglecting everything.

I got some things done today. Maybe I can build on that tomorrow. Mornings are awful. I wake up, stuck in molasses.

@Rose76 glad you are feeling better physically. That is a good sign.

[Mountaindewed]

I don't think I'm depressed I think theres something medically wrong with me. If I were depressed I wouldnt be planning on going to this huge family BBQ out of state on Saturday. Basically I'm tired and worn out and nauseated and not hungry all the time but I'm not sure from what. My pdoc told me he thinks I have cancer. Thanks that makes me feel better and I don't think thats part of his job to be telling me that anyways.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I don't think I'm depressed I think theres something medically wrong with me. If I were depressed I wouldnt be planning on going to this huge family BBQ out of state on Saturday. Basically I'm tired and worn out and nauseated and not hungry all the time but I'm not sure from what. My pdoc told me he thinks I have cancer. Thanks that makes me feel better and I don't think thats part of his job to be telling me that anyways.

What?! That surely is not the pdoc's place. If it's been over a year, go see your PCP and get some bloodwork done. At least find out if your anemic.

Last July I kept wanting to sit down shortly after starting any little bit of housework. I assumed I was depressed, even though I really didn't feel despondent. Then I struggled to carry a few groceries in from the car and had to rest before I could put them in the fridge. I went to the E.R. They found I was "critically" anemic. They ended up giving me a unit of packed red blood cells. What a difference that made! One of my symptoms for days beforehand had been nausea and sudden vomiting. (It seems being under-oxygenated can make you nauseated and needing to throw up.) Six months prior, my bloodwork was all fine. Things can change a lot in a short while.

Hope you feel better. Currently, I'm doing pretty okay.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Rose76

What?! That surely is not the pdoc's place. If it's been over a year, go see your PCP and get some bloodwork done. At least find out if your anemic.

Last July I kept wanting to sit down shortly after starting any little bit of housework. I assumed I was depressed, even though I really didn't feel despondent. Then I struggled to carry a few groceries in from the car and had to rest before I could put them in the fridge. I went to the E.R. They found I was "critically" anemic. They ended up giving me a unit of packed red blood cells. What a difference that made! One of my symptoms for days beforehand had been nausea and sudden vomiting. (It seems being under-oxygenated can make you nauseated and needing to throw up.) Six months prior, my bloodwork was all fine. Things can change a lot in a short while.

Hope you feel better. Currently, I'm doing pretty okay.

I see doctors all the time and I get blood work done regularly and I am showing a lot of symptoms of what hes telling me I have and I have the blood work too that shows it. But yeah theres still other things that can be the cause of it besides cancer like anemia. He just doesn't have a filter sometimes.

I'm glad you are ok right now.

[3rd rock]

I'm looking forward to the weekend. It's a long weekend, and as I normally don't work Fridays I'm getting Thursday off instead. So I'll have a four-day weekend.

[Buffy01]

I feel like I am letting people at home push my buttons which is stressing me out and causing me to feel down.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I am getting very depressed because I have counted up all the submissions I've sent off on my current novel and it's about 60. 60 submissions and not a single request for the manuscript. I've had a few people read it and they praised it, although I'm not sure it's any good. It's possible the subject matter is too controversial, but I doubt that's it. The easiest and simplest explanation is just that it's a terribly-written book.

@3rd rock, I agree with T4bbyCat. And many of our classics & modern favorites (i.e. Harry Potter) were rejected many times before finally accepted. Please don't give up!

[Rose76]

I feel sad.

It will pass. But that doesn't help much, right now.

Typical Saturday, even though this one is slightly different. In the last half of this morning, I was halfway done with cleaning my place; and then my internet connection got cut off. I had some music downloaded on a playlist I made and since the connection was cut off, I was not able to get the music. I feel like I have to have music when I do things. I have my CD's but I preferred to hear music that I don't have in my collection. Just something that makes me feel better in this mundane life of mine. From noon and on, the internet was working. I wondered what the problem was?

After lunch, a neighbor came over to tell me that the mail had arrived. I asked him to come in for a little bit, so we talked. We had a pretty good time of meeting of the minds. We spoke for about a half hour.

[Rose76]

My place is a mess. I hired a professional to help me organize the place. That won't be for quite a while. I'm not feeling sad today, just totally lazy.

[Amethyst_Stargazer]

Right now I'm deeply depressed and so many things are going on in my life, I've cried a little bit earlier this week. Now I only feel anxiety and sadness. Even if I want to cry, no tears will come. Grief has put me into a deep depression. My brother killed himself back in 2019 and his anniversary is coming up soon in August, the 26th. Lately I've been waking up and feeling a lot of anxiety and feeling so numb to everything going on. I tried to start a relationship again but he ended up breaking up with me, because he said there's too much going on in his life right now. He was good friends with my brother, which adds more to the confusion and as to why he even persued me in the first place. I wasn't in love with him or anything, but I am heartbroken because I really did like him a lot, and I thought he wanted something with me, but I guess I was wrong. So my week has been really stressful and depressing for me...

[T4bbyCat]

Clock is ticking on me getting kicked out onto the street, so need to jump on the first promising property I find... If only the prices weren't still in the stratosphere (they've been coming down some as this supposed housing slowdown or even crash accelerates, but we'll see if this continues).

[Mountaindewed]

I stayed out of my room all day. So hopefully my sleep contiunes to be good. I wasn't really depressed today. Just kinda low energy which I wouldn't really consider depression.

[Rose76]

I start household chores, but I keep having to sit down with fatigue. Next week I go for pulmonary function tests. Maybe that will shed some light. I never smoked or had any chronic lung disorder, but CT scans show scar tissue in my lungs. My heart rate is unusually fast. I never met anyone else whose heart beats this fast. Last EKG recorded rate of 118/min, and that was with me lying down. It's over 120, when I'm just vacuum cleaning. A sleep study reported I need oxygen at night. To top it off I'm very anemic. I feel best when I'm lying down.

I also know I'm depressed. That makes me not want to do much.

[3rd rock]

My mom's friend died a little while ago and he had two budgies. I've agreed to take them in, as my remaining budgie recently died and I have a big cage perfect for two budgies. One of them is almost hand-tamed already, but the other will require some work. If it ends up happening, that's okay. I don't mind putting in the work. They're wonderful creatures with delightful little personalities. Birds are basically the only source of happiness in my life, so it's a good idea to take them to give them a good home.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

My mom's friend died a little while ago and he had two budgies. I've agreed to take them in, as my remaining budgie recently died and I have a big cage perfect for two budgies. One of them is almost hand-tamed already, but the other will require some work. If it ends up happening, that's okay. I don't mind putting in the work. They're wonderful creatures with delightful little personalities. Birds are basically the only source of happiness in my life, so it's a good idea to take them to give them a good home.

It's meant to be, @3rd rock! And it will be so good for them!

I'm trying to get through the day today. Semi-annually (every six months) there are big holidays. There's Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years and now there's the 4th. Feeling depressed today, so far. I'm not crazy about the 4th just like I'm not crazy about Christmas. Lots of loud noises from people and get- togethers in which I'm not a part of any of it. Looking forward for this day to be over. I tend to not like summer that much either. I like winter better.

[Mountaindewed]

I know theres no just snapping out of depression. But at some point you have to be tired of living that way. So I just forced myself today to get out of the house to an event. I did fine with it. I've been staying out of my room more and staying up longer lately. The only difference is my new stomach med and the nuts I cut out of my diet. So maybe it was medical Or maybe I did just pull my head out of the sand. But I seem to be doing a lot better.

[T4bbyCat]

Happy July 4th to all in the US (and everywhere else as well!) Even despite the bad news on the teevee, I have faith that we'll prevail in the end.

The 4th is over now. Today just seemed like a bad day for me emotionally. I was dreading this day before it came. I have to confess that there was a pot-luck lunch at where I live. I didn't go because I didn't feel like it. Early this evening a woman (she had told me about the pot-luck coming up a week ago) I saw said that I had missed a great time. Maybe, but I don't know if I would have had a good time. I'm not crazy about my neighbors as they are cliquey.

Tonight was the fireworks. First one since three years ago. It was very noisy. I have a difficult time with lots of loud noises.

[Amethyst_Stargazer]

This 4th of July was extremely Depressing for me. I kept crying and missing my brother. Also the guy who broke up with me keeps messaging me and giving me mixed signals. I think I may need to tell him to stop talking to me, it's really messing with me a lot. I'm not gonna get over him, if he continues to message me like this.