I cleaned this morning. For some reason, doing it this morning didn't feel the same as before. I felt like some kind of joy I always had in doing it was taken out. I don't know why. Nothing much else to report about. I'm not doing anything tonight except to watch a movie, which I hope will be good. I'm OK about not going out on NYE.

[Rose76]

Happy New Years, Everyone!

[Breaking Dawn]

Indeed, Happy New Year, everyone!

[T4bbyCat]

Amazing if I'm the first of 2023! Best wishes to everyone in finding a solution to this.

As usual, even if I'm invited to someone's place, they all sleep through the countdown (and the hours beforehand). But at least they seemed to think I'd be a part of it (which I'm not)!

Nonetheless, the clock runs out every day on all our problems, one way or another. And that's the real countdown I care about (FWIW).

[Rosi700]

I slept trhrough it all! Woke up early, ate and went to bed again.

I feel better today, so we can say that I have begun the new year "on the go", slowly on my way to a good life.

I wish that we all find good ways to cope with our depressions in this fresh New Year!

Happy 2023!

[Buffy01]

Sometimes the best medicine is positive attitude and make the best of the situation that one can do.

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I have been sick the whole day, so far! Pain in my head, muscles all over the body. I have even problems with my stomach.


What a way to end the year ... and probably begin the new year. So it is. It is what it is and I cannot change it.

But may be the best one can do when one cannot do anything is to lean back and flow with the flow, rest in the now and step into a new "now" when that comes.

When the evening comes, I think I will take paracetamol again and hopefully sleep through the whole fireworks.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Indeed, Happy New Year, everyone!

Happy New Year’s

[Buffy01]

I’m going to try to feel less depressed this year.

This day is early yet, but so much has happened, and on the good side so far in which I'm pleased about. I hope this day will remain good. In a way, this has to be the best day in a year for me because it's my birthday today. I don't mean to brag about it.

So far, it's starting off encouraging. I hope this is an indication that it's going to be a good year. Bear in mind, there are 365 days in a year, so not every single day is going to be great or bad. I got a reply from another discussion board that I forgot about. It was an issue about me possibly moving from where I live. It was a nice reply personally, but no real answer to that problem. That's OK with me.

And I got an email from my ex-friend. He said that he wants to come to my place to bring me a birthday present. He doesn't have to. A couple of years ago, this happened also. At that time, he and I had split up but he brought a present anyways. I could get back together with him but I want some changes from him. I doubt if that's going to happen.

Also, this is a day when I get phone calls from well-wishers. I wish it would happen more often.

[Rosi700]

I still have a headace and tiredness, but I want to start to live so normal as possible tomorrow with regard to the combination of work, other activities and rest.

I will try to give my neck and head some massage later in the evening.

[Rose76]

I feel pretty low.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I still have a headace and tiredness, but I want to start to live so normal as possible tomorrow with regard to the combination of work, other activities and rest.

I will try to give my neck and head some massage later in the evening.

Perhaps the massage might help with the neck and tiredness.

This morning started off nicely, but this afternoon, my feelings sunk. I'm sorry to have to say it. I've already stated about the nice feeling this morning. Before lunch my friend from college called. We had a pretty nice talk. He mentioned about a friend of ours from college who is now going through cognitive decline. Unfortunately, that other friend from college and I had split up. He didn't want anything to do with me anymore.

After lunch was when my feelings sunk. My sister called. It went alright but then she had to suddenly hang up on me because her husband called her out to do something. That happens a lot when she calls. I never liked her husband. After that my ex-friend came with another guy. He gave me a few minor things for my birthday, which was alright. But I wasn't crazy about the guy he was with. That guy talked heavily about himself and was a bore.

Finally, this afternoon, my brother didn't call. I called him last week on Christmas. I don't know why he didn't bother to call me on my birthday. He and I never had a good relationship. So, the afternoon got me down because of other people.

[Aardwolf]

It's all been a bit bland to be honest.

[Buffy01]

I’m trying to deal with my depression

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

This morning started off nicely, but this afternoon, my feelings sunk. I'm sorry to have to say it. I've already stated about the nice feeling this morning. Before lunch my friend from college called. We had a pretty nice talk. He mentioned about a friend of ours from college who is now going through cognitive decline. Unfortunately, that other friend from college and I had split up. He didn't want anything to do with me anymore.

After lunch was when my feelings sunk. My sister called. It went alright but then she had to suddenly hang up on me because her husband called her out to do something. That happens a lot when she calls. I never liked her husband. After that my ex-friend came with another guy. He gave me a few minor things for my birthday, which was alright. But I wasn't crazy about the guy he was with. That guy talked heavily about himself and was a bore.

Finally, this afternoon, my brother didn't call. I called him last week on Christmas. I don't know why he didn't bother to call me on my birthday. He and I never had a good relationship. So, the afternoon got me down because of other people.

I’m sorry that everything didn’t turn out as well as you had hoped for.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by ACQPL

It's all been a bit bland to be honest.

I’m sorry.

[Rosi700]

I was too optimistic in my belief, yesterday, that I could continue in my preferred coping mood today.

So far the day has been very difficult. I have pain partly in face and head plus stiff muscles. My energy level has been very low. I felt exhausted after visiting the grocery.

Tomorrow I will set the alarm 1 1/2 hour later than today. After breakfast I will try to massage my neck, face and head before I take a short walk (hope to not become exhausted by a short walk). I need to find out how long walks I can go, so it will be possible for me to find the right "dosage" of daily walking ...

For the rest of this day I will try to read. Paracetamol.

I was busy doing a lot of little things. Today seemed like a bit of a rough day for me, not emotionally, but physically. I didn't get to sleep for a while after I went into bed. I finally got to sleep around 1 AM and woke up an hour later. When I woke up I started blowing my nose and it continued until about 4:30. So I didn't get much sleep and then all day I was blowing my nose. It was watery and so were my eyes. I felt that way when I worked out in the late morning and riding my bike for an hour late in the afternoon. Tonight it seems to have subsided but I still feel something. I don't think it's a cold, I think it's an allergy. We had so much rain. It's happened to me before but not in a while.

[Aardwolf]

It's dark here, in the sunlight.
I feel like I'm just walking through memories.
I caused all this.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I was too optimistic in my belief, yesterday, that I could continue in my preferred coping mood today.

So far the day has been very difficult. I have pain partly in face and head plus stiff muscles. My energy level has been very low. I felt exhausted after visiting the grocery.

Tomorrow I will set the alarm 1 1/2 hour later than today. After breakfast I will try to massage my neck, face and head before I take a short walk (hope to not become exhausted by a short walk). I need to find out how long walks I can go, so it will be possible for me to find the right "dosage" of daily walking ...

For the rest of this day I will try to read. Paracetamol.

Give yourself some time it will work out. Start out as small.

[Rosi700]

Today I have given myself all the time I needed to relax. The headace is not so strong. I will set the morning alarm 1 1/2 hour later then I usually get up. I need to lower my expectations for myself, let "things" take the time it takes ...

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Today I have given myself all the time I needed to relax. The headace is not so strong. I will set the morning alarm 1 1/2 hour later then I usually get up. I need to lower my expectations for myself, let "things" take the time it takes ...

Sorry to hear that.

Seems like I've been busy lately and that's a good thing. Today I did a little bit of shopping. I bought a new pair of blue jeans that I wanted since the one I had before had tears in it. Nice fit, comfortable, and it looks good!

Later today I got a little bit of stimulus money from my state in the mail. I had waited and waited for it a long time. It finally came! It's not much but, like I've said before, every little bit helps.

At where I am, we've been having a lot of rain and moisture lately. We need it terribly. The rains can depress me when it goes on too long but it is nice for a change.

[Rose76]

My episode of depression has ended. I felt so good Tues. Now it's early Wed. I got a lot done.