[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rose76

My episode of depression has ended. I felt so good Tues. Now it's early Wed. I got a lot done.

So good to hear!

[Rosi700]

I woke up one hour after my usually get up time. Feel okay with that! Headache low an no Parasethamol. I gave myself a good time with the breakfast table and newspaper (have to go through my economy this month to find of if I can continue my subscription on all the newspapers I want to read).

After breakfast I did my usual physical exercises and then I repeated my notes from former therapy. I found out that schedules are not only for those with bipolar disorder, but is highly recommended for all types of depressions. A schedule helps us to stay focused and not ponder so much on old difficult stuff. It helps the brain to focus on the now. (I have experienced that myself).

I went 2/3 of the distance I usually walk in the mornings. After that I was at a café (ohhh, have to think about if such experiences shall be allowed now with the higher food prices). Have bought food on my way home.

I will rest a bit before I make dinner. After dinner I will decide if I shall work for an hour today or only relax with a book.

It is wonderful to feel that life is on it's way back to normal after Christmas and the New Year eve.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by TheGal

Hi Dawn,

I'm down today. I want to cry, but I can't... the tears just won't come... I am so overloaded that I've shut down. Even the sun and the natural beauty around me doesn't reach me... I'm so distant and far away.....

So I'm listening to REM and picking my nails...

How are you doing/

I’m sorry that your feeling down. I have shutdown my. Don’t give up.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MimiBhaduri0

I am not well. I hope...I wish I see better days soon, very soon....I cant go on like this any more.

Don’t give up on yourself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I'm making good progress on rewrites of my novel. I rewrote the first chapter, in the hopes that this will 'hook' an editor and/or agent better. They always request you send in a sample, usually of the first ten pages or the first chapter, so it's important to have a good first chapter.

That is amazing

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

It's been pretty hot and humid where I am, so my spirits are lower. I don't do hot weather well. And this is my least favorite time of year. I have one little thing to look forward to for a change! Tomorrow I to to the dentist to get my permanent crown put in. I am sick of the temporary crown that I have now and having to chew on one side.

Good luck with your dentist.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Just signing on to the new thread. I'm doing way better. Not even depressed at the moment.

Wish I had been lucky to not feel depressed.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

I have quit caffeine so am tired and cranky. I hope I get over the withdrawals soon.

I live off of caffeine.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I wish I had more people to share my novel with. I've gotten some feedback, which has been valuable, but I wish there was some way to get more people to read it. Continuous form letter rejections are really starting to wear me down.

Awesome. I hope your book gets published

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

i feel like crap.

so this morning, I found out that

Possible trigger:

a close friend died of alcahol abuse

but that's not what upset me

she then said to me, (the person who told me), well, 49, it's not old at all... a life wasted- life is short. you need to grab life every day

and I know I've not done that- and though I thought it would be a wake up call to actually do something, what it's made me realise is... that no, I don't want to do something- I'm done.

and that's sad. especially seeing as I'm younger than 49 and believe I've not begun to live

I’m sorry for your loss.

[Buffy01]

My family cause me to feel depressed all the time.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

So good to hear!

That is awesome.

[Aardwolf]

Last few days have been really hard. Today is a bit better. A bit more normal.

Today was not as busy as other days, but still it's enough for me. I worked out a little bit in the morning. In the early afternoon I had a phone consultation with my Urologist. It went well.

After dinner I felt very tired. I don't know why. I slept OK last night. It didn't rain today for the first time in a few days but it's supposed rain a lot on Thursday. The nice thing about having all of the rain is that there's so much lush greenery out there, which doesn't happen at where I live often. I love looking at it. It will be sad to see it go.

[Rose76]

I'm feeling upbeat. I'm completely over my recent depressive episode. I don't know how that happened. I guess enough time passed and it just blew over, like how a bad cold just runs its course and then ends.

[cool09]

Horrible mood when I woke up, couldn't get out of bed until 11:00. Six mths ago I was getting out of bed at 8 AM. Don't know what's going on.

I'm not feeling well today. Yesterday I mentioned that I felt tired after dinner. I'm thinking something's up. I didn't sleep well last night because i felt too wound up. I did my laundry at 6 this morning and it was dark, cold, and moist. It's a wonder that I've been able to do it because of not sleeping and feeling well. I think I might have the flu. It came on suddenly. Also, my thermometer to put in my mouth to see if I have a fever, didn't work. It's a digital kind.

After folding the laundry I went to my sofa and slept all morning. That's rare for me. I had trouble being able to nap because my neighbors next door had company and they were loud. And the jets, from the airlines and airport, were taking off in the opposite direction making it noisy as they are taking off over my place.

[Rosi700]

This day started with me wanting to see parts of the funeral of former pope Benedict. First I overslept. Then I found out at the breakfast table that the funeral started earlier then I had thought.

I missed the opportunity to do my physical exercises for my body and I missed my time repeating old therapy notes and using a CBT/DBT book. These two are my most important morning rituals and can help me to stay on track for the rest of the day.

I wasn't able to continue my day.

I'll start fresh again tomorrow. A setback is no catastrophe.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm not feeling well today. (...)

After folding the laundry I went to my sofa and slept all morning. That's rare for me

I hope you feel better tomorrow!

[Buffy01]

My brother started yelling and blaming me for the verbal abuse that my sister unintentionally caused that had led her daughter our niece and her boyfriend did on the phone that causing me to feel really down, depressed, hurt

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by ACQPL

Last few days have been really hard. Today is a bit better. A bit more normal.

That is amazing

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I woke up one hour after my usually get up time. Feel okay with that! Headache low an no Parasethamol. I gave myself a good time with the breakfast table and newspaper (have to go through my economy this month to find of if I can continue my subscription on all the newspapers I want to read).

After breakfast I did my usual physical exercises and then I repeated my notes from former therapy. I found out that schedules are not only for those with bipolar disorder, but is highly recommended for all types of depressions. A schedule helps us to stay focused and not ponder so much on old difficult stuff. It helps the brain to focus on the now. (I have experienced that myself).

I went 2/3 of the distance I usually walk in the mornings. After that I was at a café (ohhh, have to think about if such experiences shall be allowed now with the higher food prices). Have bought food on my way home.

I will rest a bit before I make dinner. After dinner I will decide if I shall work for an hour today or only relax with a book.

It is wonderful to feel that life is on it's way back to normal after Christmas and the New Year eve.

I’m glad that everything went well today

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Today was not as busy as other days, but still it's enough for me. I worked out a little bit in the morning. In the early afternoon I had a phone consultation with my Urologist. It went well.

After dinner I felt very tired. I don't know why. I slept OK last night. It didn't rain today for the first time in a few days but it's supposed rain a lot on Thursday. The nice thing about having all of the rain is that there's so much lush greenery out there, which doesn't happen at where I live often. I love looking at it. It will be sad to see it go.

I’m glad that everything went well at your urology appointment.

[Aardwolf]

My partner isn't doing well at all, and might have to be going inpatient soon.. other than that, I'm doing okay I think.
Did an actual shop for food to cook with yesterday so that's a bonus I guess

[Rosi700]

I have had some trouble with my stomach lately. I think it is all the pre-made dinners I have used during this dark time of the year that is to blame.

Today I feel heavy in my body and some "I don't want to go on" feelings. I have overslept again ...

So I tell myself that I have to fight! My underlying depression is always there. I cannot let the depression win. This is my life. There is no escape route.

Then I decide to do three "things".
a) Do my morning gym.
b) Repeat my notes from former therapy.
c) Do my relaxation exercises.

Hope these three doings will put me into my ordinary schedule again. To fight depression can be hard work sometimes ...

I am on my way!