[Yzen]

I have a headache that started on the 25th and has continued all the way to today. I probably need to talk to my doctor again about these headaches. I know they are stress related.

Originally Posted by Yzen

I have a headache that started on the 25th and has continued all the way to today. I probably need to talk to my doctor again about these headaches. I know they are stress related.

Sorry about your headache. I don't know if I'm of any help or not; there are times I get what I call a "24-hour" headache. It would last that long; and even taking headache relief doesn't help. I'm not a doctor, by all means, but I think you're smart to ask. I hope the doctor can help you.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I have a headache that started on the 25th and has continued all the way to today. I probably need to talk to my doctor again about these headaches. I know they are stress related.

Stress can cause a lot of physical and mental health problems

[Rosi700]

I was able to follow the schedule I made for myself yesterday (Up early, physical exercises, repeating therapy notes, have done relaxation exercises, gone outside for a walk and have had proper meals).

I have pain in my muscles. I will take a paracetamol before bedtime. I will try to use the same schedule for tomorrow.

Another "thing" that has bothered me today is a feeling of sleepiness. I have resisted the urge to lay down.

Fairly busy this morning. Nothing much this afternoon and evening. It's been noisy here as there's remodeling work being done and new fire alarms were put in; and each one tested, which cause the two alarms in my unit to go off. Very loud and piercing with a high-pitched sound.

It's strange how, every day, I feel good between after breakfast and lunch. While I wake up before getting out of bed, my mind is filled with anxious thoughts. After breakfast, I feel pretty good like I've been turned up-side-down. After lunch I feel let down. Then I feel better during and after my bike ride; and feel alright while cooking and eating dinner. The evenings were nice when I used to talk to my friend, but not anymore since I decided to split with him. The last few phone calls we had were getting too intense for me with his criticizing. I miss him, though, and I wish it didn't end up like that.

[Rose76]

I still haven't gotten back to a normal frame of mind. I feel like this is never going to end.

[Rosi700]

Today is one of these "creepy" days, when hopelessness is creeping in over me. I feel that fighting for recovery is not worth it.

"STOP a bit, didn't you tell yesterday that you saw it as a (pre)trigger?" I did and I will use my recovery-tools to come out of this feeling of "nothing is of value" phenomena.

Always Hope

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I was able to follow the schedule I made for myself yesterday (Up early, physical exercises, repeating therapy notes, have done relaxation exercises, gone outside for a walk and have had proper meals).

I have pain in my muscles. I will take a paracetamol before bedtime. I will try to use the same schedule for tomorrow.

Another "thing" that has bothered me today is a feeling of sleepiness. I have resisted the urge to lay down.

That is amazing

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really awful.

[Rosi700]

Well, this has not been one of my best days, but I was able to fill the washing machine, hang up the washed clothes and take a shower. At least something.

Tomorrow I have invited guests. Have to get up early, hoover and visit the grocery store (and lay the table & make the food ready of course). I feel that I will be able to do it! (Hope I am not wrong).

[Rose76]

I have to go to pick up a prescription, and I just dread leaving the house. I do not have agoraphobia. Normally, I love running errands and being out and about. But I've been kind of down and blue. I haven't left my apartment since Xmas eve . . . and I don't want to leave it. It's crazy, and I hate being like this. I just have to do it.

Usually an episode of depression blows over pretty soon, but this is hanging on.

[Breaking Dawn]

It's been pretty rough lately. Oh, well.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really awful and I have been trying to change the ways that I think about myself.

[Rosi700]

I was up early and worked for hours to prepare for my guests. I fixed everything I had planned to fix right in time. The guests were satisfied, and so was I.

I felt so down until a few weeks ago, and now I seem to be okay.

I have had no change in medication. The only thing I have done for myself these weeks have been measuring my progress on chosen items in my daily life and used my knowledge about that I have little energy in the winter months. That means I have bought "heat up pre-made dinners" every day since I started my measurement period. Even if it costs more, it has been well worth it. With the dinners pre-made I could use my inner strength to focus on simple things like lay the table, fill dishwasher and other easy things.

When one chose to use an app, the app reinforce "good behavior" and one becomes more and more eager to want to make it. As an example it has become more and more easy to jump up after dinner to put the dirty plate in the dishwasher. This has been reinforced by the use of the app, I suppose.

I want to give myself a reward for making it today. I hope the success will continue . A little setback now and then is alright as long as it doesn't last for many days in a row ... (By the way. There has been one more thing I have used: affirmations. "I can do this!")

A long and draggy day. This morning at 6 AM I did my laundry. I thought it was insane of me to do it that early. I didn't have anything else I had to do after the laundry was done, so I had the whole day that I could have done it. I've been in the habit of doing the laundry that early. At least no one else were using the machines at that time, so that was nice. Those long draggy days get me down.

[Rose76]

I'm better today that I was yesterday. It's a start.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm better today that I was yesterday. It's a start.

Hope that your start will grow (slowly, but forward).

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I was up early and worked for hours to prepare for my guests. I fixed everything I had planned to fix right in time. The guests were satisfied, and so was I.

I felt so down until a few weeks ago, and now I seem to be okay.

I have had no change in medication. The only thing I have done for myself these weeks have been measuring my progress on chosen items in my daily life and used my knowledge about that I have little energy in the winter months. That means I have bought "heat up pre-made dinners" every day since I started my measurement period. Even if it costs more, it has been well worth it. With the dinners pre-made I could use my inner strength to focus on simple things like lay the table, fill dishwasher and other easy things.

When one chose to use an app, the app reinforce "good behavior" and one becomes more and more eager to want to make it. As an example it has become more and more easy to jump up after dinner to put the dirty plate in the dishwasher. This has been reinforced by the use of the app, I suppose.

I want to give myself a reward for making it today. I hope the success will continue . A little setback now and then is alright as long as it doesn't last for many days in a row ... (By the way. There has been one more thing I have used: affirmations. "I can do this!")

Sounds amazing

[Buffy01]

I need to get of being depressed all the time.

[Rosi700]

Tomorrow is the last day of 2022 and at midnight 2023 begins.

I have no plans for tomorrow other then to stay in my own company. I think it will be good for me to have the opportunity to think through how this year was and how I want my life to become in 2023. May be I'll read a book or perhaps I will watch television.

I have food and drink in the house, so nutition will be okay!

I do not dread being alone tomorrow and I look foward to a whole New Year with new opertunities.

Like usual, I felt alright this morning after breakfast. I went grocery shopping and much to my surprise it wasn't crowded like a week ago. So that was nice. i felt depressed this afternoon. I didn't do much and it was gloomy and wet outside. What's worse with my depression is that, lately, I'm coming across people who are reminding me that I've been doing my life all wrong. And, somehow, they've done it better than I have.

[Rosi700]

Ohhh, pain in head, neck and one upper arm. Well, so it is. Life has its nuances...

I will take paracetamol and lay down at my sofa. Hope I will become better later this day.

[Buffy01]

I have been going emotionally numb and my sister said I come off as being rude. I have to much emotional pain than I can go through.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Ohhh, pain in head, neck and one upper arm. Well, so it is. Life has its nuances...

I will take paracetamol and lay down at my sofa. Hope I will become better later this day.

I’m so sorry. I hope the pain ease up.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I’m so sorry. I hope the pain ease up.

I have been sick the whole day, so far! Pain in my head, muscles all over the body. I have even problems with my stomach.


What a way to end the year ... and probably begin the new year. So it is. It is what it is and I cannot change it.

But may be the best one can do when one cannot do anything is to lean back and flow with the flow, rest in the now and step into a new "now" when that comes.

When the evening comes, I think I will take paracetamol again and hopefully sleep through the whole fireworks.