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#226
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Sometimes I feel like that myself. I understand how you feel.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#227
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I understand how you feel. I feel like that sometimes myself.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Not much to report about today except for a couple of things. Early this morning, while in bed before getting out, I felt like I had a little bit of vertigo. I felt slightly dizzy and lightheaded early this morning but I got better. It's happened to me before but not very often. Late this afternoon I got a little bit of good news that lifted my spirits a bit. For a while in my life lately I've been feeling like the things I hope and root for don't pan out the way I'd hope. So late this afternoon I felt like something did go my way for a change.
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#229
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Today was a fairly good day. I slept well for the first time in a while. I had trouble sleeping for the past couple of weeks because of blowing my nose for an hour or two.
I had mentioned on a previous post about reading an article saying that there would be stimulus payments coming my way. They haven't come. So this morning I decided to go to the state tax office to inquire. It went well as there was no waiting and spoke with a very nice guy. He looked it up and told me that I will be receiving a debit card in the mail next month. I thought that I had seen that mentioned in the article. So that made me feel a little bit better. After lunch I took a bike ride that was a little bit longer than usual. It seemed like a perfect day for it. I felt better after that bike ride. |
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#231
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I'm feeling depressed but not as depressed as yesterday.
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"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.” – Helen Keller |
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#232
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Feeling up today, back to baseline “normal” coming off a depressive down that lifted yesterday. My depressive episodes, an angry, sad funk, gets triggered by my relationship issues. Then it just lifts within 24 hours.
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#233
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What’s your novel about?
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#234
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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I wish that I had been that lucky.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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Same here... If you learn how, please share here (whether or not it's unique to you). I'll be sure to do so myself, though I don't know my chances.
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#237
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My therapist was impressed with the coping mechanisms I have. These were things I learn here.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#238
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Today was a low day. I just didn't care about anything. I didn't do anything . . . didn't even turn on the TV. Last night's dinner dishes are still in the sink. I'm still in pajamas I put on last evening.
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#239
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I'm still in a funk. I've been waiting for it to blow over. It won't just blow over. I have to get up and do what needs doing . . . wash the dishes for a start. No energy. No interest.
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#240
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I completely understand how you feel.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#241
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This morning I was still stuck in the quicksand. What's disappointing is that I was doing so well for quite a while.
I did start cleaning the kitchen a while ago. Right now I'm taking a break. Once I get my place picked up, I'll probably feel a whole lot better. I have days of unwashed dishes to contend with. I hate when things pile up like that. This depressive episode has lasted the past several days. I wasn't even sad. I just had no motivation to do anything. I'll probably be alright by this evening, now that I've started picking up after myself. I'm so disgusted that this tailspin happened. I want to get back to where I was. |
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#242
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#243
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Hi Friends. This week is a tough one for me. More than 6 years since my divorce and this 24th my eldest turns 13 years old and I will not be able to see her or share her birthday with her. I am trying my best to stay close to them somehow though. It is extremely hard, but somehow I can still write, get up, and do some work. But still not able to thrive again like I once had the chance to, still just surviving one day at a time. And I am thankful for that to God, my fellow friends on this platform, some of you know my story already. Divorce can really destroy someone's life, To be honest, I think God is helping me, I do not know how I would keep going on.
God bless you all. |
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#244
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#245
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Feeling discouraged lately. It feels like I'm on a losing team or something like that. Things that I hope for doesn't seem to materialize. It's like rooting for a team who constantly loses.
I have two new neighbors moving in; one next to me and another two doors down. I've seen them and they don't look like my type. I didn't sleep well last night. There was a lot of noise from a couple moving in two doors down from me. They were constantly moving stuff and banging. It went on until about 11. And then I had back pain on the lower back and going down to my knee. So that kept me awake, too. I did some errands this morning. The stores were pretty crowded. I tend to not like crowds that much. I'm sorry for being so down. I'm feeling like I'll have to somehow re-invent my life, I guess. I don't know if that will work or not. It seems like the place I'm living at is going downhill. That's too bad. |
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#246
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Just in time for Thanksgiving, I wonder why people who never contact me suddenly ask me for money I don't have. Hm...
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#247
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My family does the same thing.
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Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |
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#248
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Am dropping my post here: This has been a day when I wasn't able to use my tools against depression. A new day is coming tomorrow. I have a big hope on being able to do better tomorrow. New start then ...
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#249
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Long continued discouragement leads to depression, which tends to make a person not want to get out of bed. (I speak for myself.) But that's not you, Will. I've been so impressed at how you stick to your routine of bike-riding. When you mention going for a long bike ride, I take my hat off to you. I can just see where that would really pi$$ off any devil hoping to own your soul. It's a kind of "win" that you do have. I know you want more from life, and I'm sad that you are deprived of more fulfillment. But know one thing: cruising along for miles on your bike, you are a person who has not surrendered to that inner demon. Cruise on! Frustrate the enemy, and savor the victory. I took my own bike out of storage and put it on the patio. Needs repair and a tune up . . . maybe new tires. I'll get to it . . . eventually. Kind of cold out right now. I'm so out of shape. I really need the exercise, and not just for my physical health. Sitting here in front of the TV, in my pajamas, I'm letting that devil gain on me. It's time to spit in his face. |
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Well, I'm out of the trough. Two days ago, I started picking up around the house. Washed the dishes, changed the bed sheets. Pretty soon I was humming and singing to myself. I always do that when I start to come out of a tailspin. Now I'm a little over-amped up, and I need to calm down. I go from having no energy to being so psyched up that I don't focus productively. One doctor, a long time ago, said I was bipolar. I think he was on to something.
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