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Old Nov 16, 2022, 04:40 PM
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Had the old familiar feeling last night that I didn't want to go to sleep because there was nothing to get up for, even though I know that's not true.
Sometimes I feel like that myself. I understand how you feel.
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Old Nov 16, 2022, 04:51 PM
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The sleep problem & tiredness makes sad feelings harder to lift. And feeling so disappointed in myself for not fulfilling my goals.
I understand how you feel. I feel like that sometimes myself.
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This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

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Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Nov 17, 2022, 01:06 AM
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Not much to report about today except for a couple of things. Early this morning, while in bed before getting out, I felt like I had a little bit of vertigo. I felt slightly dizzy and lightheaded early this morning but I got better. It's happened to me before but not very often. Late this afternoon I got a little bit of good news that lifted my spirits a bit. For a while in my life lately I've been feeling like the things I hope and root for don't pan out the way I'd hope. So late this afternoon I felt like something did go my way for a change.
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Old Nov 17, 2022, 11:59 AM
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Not much to report about today except for a couple of things. Early this morning, while in bed before getting out, I felt like I had a little bit of vertigo. I felt slightly dizzy and lightheaded early this morning but I got better. It's happened to me before but not very often. Late this afternoon I got a little bit of good news that lifted my spirits a bit. For a while in my life lately I've been feeling like the things I hope and root for don't pan out the way I'd hope. So late this afternoon I felt like something did go my way for a change.
Have you tried doing vertigo exercises? Sometimes crystals we have in our ears can cause vertigo.
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This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Nov 17, 2022, 11:28 PM
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Today was a fairly good day. I slept well for the first time in a while. I had trouble sleeping for the past couple of weeks because of blowing my nose for an hour or two.

I had mentioned on a previous post about reading an article saying that there would be stimulus payments coming my way. They haven't come. So this morning I decided to go to the state tax office to inquire. It went well as there was no waiting and spoke with a very nice guy. He looked it up and told me that I will be receiving a debit card in the mail next month. I thought that I had seen that mentioned in the article. So that made me feel a little bit better.

After lunch I took a bike ride that was a little bit longer than usual. It seemed like a perfect day for it. I felt better after that bike ride.
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Old Nov 18, 2022, 08:41 AM
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I'm feeling depressed but not as depressed as yesterday.
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Old Nov 18, 2022, 09:02 AM
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Feeling up today, back to baseline “normal” coming off a depressive down that lifted yesterday. My depressive episodes, an angry, sad funk, gets triggered by my relationship issues. Then it just lifts within 24 hours.
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Old Nov 18, 2022, 09:14 AM
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I wish I had more people to share my novel with. I've gotten some feedback, which has been valuable, but I wish there was some way to get more people to read it. Continuous form letter rejections are really starting to wear me down.
What’s your novel about?
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Old Nov 18, 2022, 11:17 AM
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Today was a fairly good day. I slept well for the first time in a while. I had trouble sleeping for the past couple of weeks because of blowing my nose for an hour or two.

I had mentioned on a previous post about reading an article saying that there would be stimulus payments coming my way. They haven't come. So this morning I decided to go to the state tax office to inquire. It went well as there was no waiting and spoke with a very nice guy. He looked it up and told me that I will be receiving a debit card in the mail next month. I thought that I had seen that mentioned in the article. So that made me feel a little bit better.

After lunch I took a bike ride that was a little bit longer than usual. It seemed like a perfect day for it. I felt better after that bike ride.
I’m glad that your feeling better. I hope the feeling continues to feel good.
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Nov 18, 2022, 11:18 AM
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I'm feeling depressed but not as depressed as yesterday.
I wish that I had been that lucky.
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Nov 19, 2022, 03:30 PM
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I wish that I knew how to feel better.
Same here... If you learn how, please share here (whether or not it's unique to you). I'll be sure to do so myself, though I don't know my chances.
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Old Nov 19, 2022, 05:57 PM
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Same here... If you learn how, please share here (whether or not it's unique to you). I'll be sure to do so myself, though I don't know my chances.
My therapist was impressed with the coping mechanisms I have. These were things I learn here.
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Nov 19, 2022, 09:27 PM
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Today was a low day. I just didn't care about anything. I didn't do anything . . . didn't even turn on the TV. Last night's dinner dishes are still in the sink. I'm still in pajamas I put on last evening.
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Old Nov 20, 2022, 06:45 PM
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I'm still in a funk. I've been waiting for it to blow over. It won't just blow over. I have to get up and do what needs doing . . . wash the dishes for a start. No energy. No interest.
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Old Nov 20, 2022, 08:07 PM
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I'm still in a funk. I've been waiting for it to blow over. It won't just blow over. I have to get up and do what needs doing . . . wash the dishes for a start. No energy. No interest.
I completely understand how you feel.
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Nov 21, 2022, 04:40 PM
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This morning I was still stuck in the quicksand. What's disappointing is that I was doing so well for quite a while.

I did start cleaning the kitchen a while ago. Right now I'm taking a break. Once I get my place picked up, I'll probably feel a whole lot better. I have days of unwashed dishes to contend with. I hate when things pile up like that.

This depressive episode has lasted the past several days. I wasn't even sad. I just had no motivation to do anything. I'll probably be alright by this evening, now that I've started picking up after myself. I'm so disgusted that this tailspin happened. I want to get back to where I was.
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Old Nov 21, 2022, 07:47 PM
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This morning I was still stuck in the quicksand. What's disappointing is that I was doing so well for quite a while.

I did start cleaning the kitchen a while ago. Right now I'm taking a break. Once I get my place picked up, I'll probably feel a whole lot better. I have days of unwashed dishes to contend with. I hate when things pile up like that.

This depressive episode has lasted the past several days. I wasn't even sad. I just had no motivation to do anything. I'll probably be alright by this evening, now that I've started picking up after myself. I'm so disgusted that this tailspin happened. I want to get back to where I was.
I feel like that all the time now.
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Hi Friends. This week is a tough one for me. More than 6 years since my divorce and this 24th my eldest turns 13 years old and I will not be able to see her or share her birthday with her. I am trying my best to stay close to them somehow though. It is extremely hard, but somehow I can still write, get up, and do some work. But still not able to thrive again like I once had the chance to, still just surviving one day at a time. And I am thankful for that to God, my fellow friends on this platform, some of you know my story already. Divorce can really destroy someone's life, To be honest, I think God is helping me, I do not know how I would keep going on.
God bless you all.
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Old Nov 22, 2022, 10:42 AM
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Hi Friends. This week is a tough one for me. More than 6 years since my divorce and this 24th my eldest turns 13 years old and I will not be able to see her or share her birthday with her. I am trying my best to stay close to them somehow though. It is extremely hard, but somehow I can still write, get up, and do some work. But still not able to thrive again like I once had the chance to, still just surviving one day at a time. And I am thankful for that to God, my fellow friends on this platform, some of you know my story already. Divorce can really destroy someone's life, To be honest, I think God is helping me, I do not know how I would keep going on.
God bless you all.
Hang in there. Your doing amazing.
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Old Nov 22, 2022, 02:05 PM
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Feeling discouraged lately. It feels like I'm on a losing team or something like that. Things that I hope for doesn't seem to materialize. It's like rooting for a team who constantly loses.

I have two new neighbors moving in; one next to me and another two doors down. I've seen them and they don't look like my type.

I didn't sleep well last night. There was a lot of noise from a couple moving in two doors down from me. They were constantly moving stuff and banging. It went on until about 11. And then I had back pain on the lower back and going down to my knee. So that kept me awake, too.

I did some errands this morning. The stores were pretty crowded. I tend to not like crowds that much.

I'm sorry for being so down. I'm feeling like I'll have to somehow re-invent my life, I guess. I don't know if that will work or not. It seems like the place I'm living at is going downhill. That's too bad.
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Just in time for Thanksgiving, I wonder why people who never contact me suddenly ask me for money I don't have. Hm...
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Just in time for Thanksgiving, I wonder why people who never contact me suddenly ask me for money I don't have. Hm...
My family does the same thing.
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Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live.

This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak.

In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living.

Like love, it's how we know we're alive.

And life goes on.

That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries
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Am dropping my post here: This has been a day when I wasn't able to use my tools against depression. A new day is coming tomorrow. I have a big hope on being able to do better tomorrow. New start then ...
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Old Nov 23, 2022, 03:54 PM
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Feeling discouraged lately. It feels like I'm on a losing team or something like that. Things that I hope for doesn't seem to materialize. It's like rooting for a team who constantly loses.

I have two new neighbors moving in; one next to me and another two doors down. I've seen them and they don't look like my type.

I didn't sleep well last night. There was a lot of noise from a couple moving in two doors down from me. They were constantly moving stuff and banging. It went on until about 11. And then I had back pain on the lower back and going down to my knee. So that kept me awake, too.

I did some errands this morning. The stores were pretty crowded. I tend to not like crowds that much.

I'm sorry for being so down. I'm feeling like I'll have to somehow re-invent my life, I guess. I don't know if that will work or not. It seems like the place I'm living at is going downhill. That's too bad.
Hi @will19. I'm sorry for how you are struggling and feeling like you are struggling in vain. I once read an allegory about the devil. The devil was telling the narrator about the strategies he uses to undermine human beings. He was showing off the various tools he had in his work shed. He pointed to a table and said the tool on that table was his absolute most favorite tool to employ when he wanted to ruin a human life. The tool was labeled "DISCOURAGEMENT." This story resonated with me because I've had a long history of battling depressive episodes, and those episodes tend to be dripping with strong feelings of being very discouraged. I don't think I give up easily. That's what gets so discouraging. If you put in a lot of sustained effort and have little satisfaction to show for it, you get demoralized. I don't know what is the antidote for that, so I'm not offering you any advice. My point is just that discouragement really eats away at a person's soul. I can totally see where "the devil" must get a real kick out of it. I'm not pushing any religious point of view. I'm not into that, and I see the devil as a fictitious character. That's why I describe the story above as an "allegory." It may be a "fable" - like Aesop's fables - but one can find some truth in fables. I did in this one.

Long continued discouragement leads to depression, which tends to make a person not want to get out of bed. (I speak for myself.) But that's not you, Will. I've been so impressed at how you stick to your routine of bike-riding. When you mention going for a long bike ride, I take my hat off to you. I can just see where that would really pi$$ off any devil hoping to own your soul. It's a kind of "win" that you do have. I know you want more from life, and I'm sad that you are deprived of more fulfillment. But know one thing: cruising along for miles on your bike, you are a person who has not surrendered to that inner demon. Cruise on! Frustrate the enemy, and savor the victory.

I took my own bike out of storage and put it on the patio. Needs repair and a tune up . . . maybe new tires. I'll get to it . . . eventually. Kind of cold out right now. I'm so out of shape. I really need the exercise, and not just for my physical health. Sitting here in front of the TV, in my pajamas, I'm letting that devil gain on me. It's time to spit in his face.
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Old Nov 23, 2022, 04:09 PM
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Well, I'm out of the trough. Two days ago, I started picking up around the house. Washed the dishes, changed the bed sheets. Pretty soon I was humming and singing to myself. I always do that when I start to come out of a tailspin. Now I'm a little over-amped up, and I need to calm down. I go from having no energy to being so psyched up that I don't focus productively. One doctor, a long time ago, said I was bipolar. I think he was on to something.
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