[Violetta75]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I got my blood pressure measured today. It's 179/119 and my pulse is 118 beats per minute. I gather this is very bad. I don't want to go onto medication to control it but I also don't want to have a heart attack or whatever.

I hope you do let the doctors treat your high blood pressure. I'm no doctor but that's not a good number. I wish you better health!

[Violetta75]

I feel crappy. I haven't taken much for pain for a couple days to see how I do. I definitely have arthritis and other things. The weather is dark rainy and gloomy and the days are short. Winters are far too long where I live. Hugs to all here struggling.

[3rd rock]

This past week was sort of a disaster for me. On Monday, on my way to work, someone hit my car with theirs. And then he drove off without giving me his information. So now I have to report to my insurer a hit and run, and hope they find in my favor ultimately. The depressive in me thinks they might find I'm at fault, even though I was 100% not. And then at work, although I had a good week for the most part, one of my better work friends was suspended indefinitely pending an investigation, which usually means termination. And that's got me really down. On the plus side, I've been able to get some writing done. Not a lot, but some. And I still have all my pet birds to keep me company, they're great companions and they love me very much. I just have to take everything day by day, for the most part.

[hiddenaway]

My back is stiff enough to need my heating pad today and I need more coffee, but other than that, I seem to be having an okay day.

I did my cleaning today. My back became sore from cleaning and I'm recovering from it. It's always a nice feeling to clean, rock out with the music, and the way my place looks & smells after it's done. Nothing much after the cleaning and lunch. Nothing much for tonight.

[Samicat]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

This past week was sort of a disaster for me. On Monday, on my way to work, someone hit my car with theirs. And then he drove off without giving me his information. So now I have to report to my insurer a hit and run, and hope they find in my favor ultimately. The depressive in me thinks they might find I'm at fault, even though I was 100% not. And then at work, although I had a good week for the most part, one of my better work friends was suspended indefinitely pending an investigation, which usually means termination. And that's got me really down. On the plus side, I've been able to get some writing done. Not a lot, but some. And I still have all my pet birds to keep me company, they're great companions and they love me very much. I just have to take everything day by day, for the most part.

I worked in car insurance claims for many years and one of my jobs was the determination of fault for collisions. If you would like to PM me the details, I can tell you what the usual determination would be. Some things like rear-enders are always the fault of the rear vehicle, unless there is an independent witness who says the front vehicle was reversing. Side collisions can be contentious unless one vehicle had the right of way. I assume you have no witness or dashcam. Leaving the scene of the collision without providing information is usually against the law and reason to call the police.

[Samicat]

I'm doing really well despite intense financial stress right now. The philosophy of Stoicism is really helping me, and having left my toxic job. I don't know what the future holds and I don't have enough funds to retire, but I'm okay. I am enjoying writing, and about to work out.

[Buffy01]

I wish that I was no longer depressed

[hiddenaway]

Today isn't my day at all.

First of all, there was a mandatory smoke detector inspection at my apartment earlier and I'm still shaken from that.

On top of that, Drew didn't say 'I love you' at the end of today's episode and I feel lost. Honestly, I need those 'I love yous' the way I need my coffee - every day or else I get cranky.

If anyone needs me, I'll be curled up with my earbuds in.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm in between thinking something is up physically and then thinking I just need to find a job and a hobby. I'm working on all that right now.

[Mountaindewed]

I just ate a happy meal and it did actually make me happy. Probably because I didn't eat a whole lot today and I got a cool Groot figure

My bike is out of commission for a while. I'm needing repair that's going to tie it up for at least a couple more days. I miss my bike when I can't use it. It's got me depressed a lot. I'm taking walks instead. It's nice but it's not the same for me.

There's only two more months to go of 2023. It hasn't been that great of a year for me as there were quite a few setbacks and takeaways. More than what I've experienced in previous years.

[Rose76]

I've been feeling quite well. I do have trouble falling asleep. I stay up too late. Then I'm tired in the morning.

[Buffy01]

I wish that I could be happy

[iscreamparty]

I am currently looking at jobs in Minnesota. Big move! Exactly what I need.

Feeling anxious and depressed now. My bike is supposed to be ready by the end of the day today. I hope it will be. I miss not using it. I've taken walks instead. It's nice but it's not the same. For some strange reason I get the feeling that the bike is not going to be ready today. I know I should get out of negative thinking. Some have told me that, when I get into negative thinking, then what ever I think negatively about can come true.

I went shopping early this morning. I didn't have enough cash in wallet to get everything, so I had to charge the rest. That rarely happens to me. I felt humiliated. Well, I should get used to that humiliation feeling because that's what this year, since January, has been all about.

[hiddenaway]

I wish I hadn't gotten up today. I know I can just go back to bed, but somehow that seems worse than staying up.

[Rose76]

Another do-nothing day. Though I'm not despondent, I am depressed. Like I have no gas in my tank.

[3rd rock]

I called in to work Monday night because I was so sick I could hardly move. I threw up repeatedly and couldn't keep even water down. However, I'm feeling better now. I'm going to be able to go to work tomorrow. I am missing too much work.

[hiddenaway]

That feeling when you're not sure if you actually have a crush on somebody or whether you're just lonely for somebody to hold.

[Rose76]

I am depressed. Had no interest in doing anything productive all day. I haven't even reset all my clocks to the new time. For days I been in this funk. Spent the day in pajamas.

I'm going to have to just force myself to start doing things. I don't want to be down over the holidays.

[Exoskeleton]

My depression is so bad again. I have other diagnoses besides MDD, but it's the MDD that is really kicking my butt right now. My self-esteem is currently zero. Actually, less than zero. I want to crawl under a rock until my mood lifts again, but this is not a good time for me to have another major depressive episode.

I was doing okish with my new add on medication but then something in real life happened to cause my depression to flare up badly again. I've given up trying to explain the soul-crushing experience that is MDD to anyone that hasn't gone through it themselves, but I'm also sick of trying to pretend that I'm fine when I'm so very far from it. Now, if anyone asks I just say I'm unwell and leave it at that. lt's true after all.

Grateful to have a place here to express how I feel without having to explain or justify it. Thank you.

It seems like it's been a fairly good week for me. I've been busy lately and had some services on my car and bike. Between the car and the bike, those services didn't cost me much and the works were well needed.

[Samicat]

In a waiting game, so the days are dragging. Really wanting to start the next chapter of my life but it won't be possible until at least December 1st.


My evening depression (Atypical depression) has been really bad. I'm okay most of the day but slump around 8pm when I start to get tired. Unfortunately if I just go to bed then, I wake up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep for hours.

[Rose76]

I'm going to make today better. I've been depressed past few days. If I get some things done today, I'll feel much better.