[Shaymus]

Im beginning to lose my mind i think. It seems like im falling down a long horrible nightmare black tunnel straight to hell. I was horrible last night as well and then today i climbed out with help from a great friend and was like hitting my head on clouds my head was so high. Then i needed to drive my girlfriend to her store so she could pick something up and blamo! As im driving home my car makes noises like its about to cough and die and splutter and my power stearing seems to be gone when i turn real sharp and the cars interior lights kept getting dimmer and dimmer and as i pulled in it basically died on its own. I tried starting it up and the engine didnt even turn over or even try to or even make a clicking noise. One thing after another lines up against me and drops me to the dirt and im so sick of getting up. Now my day tomorrow is filled solid with crap to do and i dont even want to think about it but my brain is "ON" that right now. So many things have been going wrong lately its hard to take or understand. We are poor as sin and now we have even more bills. Our landlady just threatened to kick us out cause we were behind and then we set up a payment plan so we wouldnt get kicked out and now this! I really dont understand why i keep getting up when i know im going to be knocked back down within the next week with some horrible new thing. Seems to come every other day lately just when i finally get back up. If i dont get up will it stop happening? I just want to lay there and pretend it won and see if it goes away.

[PlanningtoLive]

Oh how well I can relate. And when it comes to knock you down, you never see it till it's too late.

I'm sorry Shaymus. It seems like life really does suck, doesn't it? It does get better though - in time. I'm trying to hang on to that thought as well.

I hope things get better for you. Please hang in there.

[mechsgal]

I get upset or mad on every little thing. For example, my mother-in-law would leave butter out and too fat and lazy to put it away. I have to close the lid, and out in the fridge, and then place the butter knife in the sink. I mean, how hard is it to do it. Also another thing, she would get her food made and her 16 oz. coffee, but she never shuts off the lights, after she leaves the kitchen. I have to get my butt off the couch and shut it off for her. I HATE IT!! What's next wiping her *** alot.

Ugh!! Money problems are the pits! I'm quite familiar with the situation, having just picked up my car from the mechanic, and knowing the poor girl has to go back soon for more work.

Please hang onto hope Shaymus. One small ray of light....it's there. You just have to look for it. It's in different places for different people. For me, I can find it in a happy dogs eyes, or in the leaves blown by the wind, or the sun on grass. Maybe for you it's in the curve of your girl's shoulder, or the smell of fried eggs. Look for one thing that can bring you a sense of calm, or warm your heart. It takes effort - it may not just fall in your lap. Getting better won't just happen. It takes work pookie. Posting here is definately part of that work! See....we snuck in and made you work at it! :-)

Hugs to you Shaymus. emmy

[Wants2Fly]

I'm sorry to say that I feel exactly the same, Shaymus. I've been doing everything I can for the past year and a half to get a job, and I have my own list of disappointments, fears, and loss, and people keep saying,"Oh, just hang in there." How the heck long is one supposed to hang in before giving up?

Sorry about the car. Do youn suppose it could be the battery, with the lights and electric system going out?

No solutions, only questions from me. I wish I could help.

((((((((Shaymus))))))))))

[Shaymus]

I got up off the ground again. I called my dad and he said altho we wouldnt be able to fix it til monday that he would pay for it. Dunno how the girlfriend is getting home from work today but that seems like a much smaller problem and one that can be worked out easier than a busted car. Today the lights work on the car and it clicks but it can be jumped so at least i dont have to tow it. Thanks for all the support everyone. I know i get panicky so easily and then fall but im working on it.

[wisewoman]

Shaymus, sounds like an alternator so do not drive it very far at all or it will die again. Or, make sure someone with cables is following you and do it during day light. Alternator not usually big deal. Good luck.

[Wants2Fly]

Okay, I'm not car talk, but I've also had clicking when ignition be a starter. Also not major. Of course, even buying a new pair of shoes is major when we are broke!

[wisewoman]

Ain't that the truth! I just meant it's a quick fix, actually either if them.

[saudade]

(((((((SHAYMUS)))))))

Sure ya got enuf wiper fluid? That's all I know to check! :-) Hugs to you.

Emmy

[blackdragon]

shaymus im sorry ur car died... i bee nthrew three cars... My advice get a toyota.. the body will rust out like crazy but the engine is bult to last forever.. they never freaken die... Ished some light on that tunnel.. and about toyotas, they are dirt cheap like fords only fords are built to die in a year or so... And if everything gets to bad come up to twin valley and move in with me when i get my apartment.. i make like 350 a hour....... .. hope this sheds some light on ya...

blacky