[purplebutterfly]

I just got back from a session with my therapist and im scared - i let go of something i told him something and i dont know where it came from and im scared - i feel like i let my guard down and i can not do that- he brought something up that really hit a nerve with me and i broke down and told him and he had me stay for 30 min after my session to make sure i was okay- and i have to call him in a few hours- i want to put this information back in and bury it deep inside me -why did i do it, it just came out in therapy-

[turquoisesea]

*hugs*

part of what a therapy session is, is to open up and talk about things that are troubling you. I believe there's a code too... that he/she won't tell others what you told him/her.

It's a good thing it came out... it's a place you can vent *hugs*

It's a scary thing letting your guard down... I've had trouble with that too, trusting people. But it's a good thing to do in the case of therapy, I think.

*hugs*
I hope you feel better

[CedarS]

I've had this happen too.

Helps me to treat myself really really well, as if I had a bad case of the flu or something. Comfortable clothing, wrap up in blanket, distracting book or tv, good food time.

[purplebutterfly]

im shaken up bad- and im having a huge anxiety attack i can not breathe- im scared im deeply depressed and i just feel like cutting i cant stop crying

[CedarS]

You'll make it through this. Can you go look at the self injury forum, they have good lists of things to do instead of harming yourself, maybe pick one and do it then write about it?

Can you call your therapist now?

[Sannah]

Hi Purple, I am sorry that you are so distressed. We learn things in childhood that don't apply so much any more when we are adults. Maybe this is one of those things? We can learn in childhood some fears that are really embedded in us. As adults this can get triggered and we have all of that childhood fear upon us full force. What helps you to feel better is to realize that you are an adult now who can protect herself. When we were children we were helpless and didn't really have adult mental capacity when we had to deal with these things. You are a competent and capable adult now. The trick is to convince our minds of this. That fear can be pretty overwhelming.

((((((((((((((((((((((purplebutterfly)))))))))))))))))))))

Breathe hon ..... therapy can and is very scary. What you did today you were ready to let out or you wouldn't have done it. Being trigggered like his is normal but hard non the less. Please take good care of yourself, these are your first steps towards healing and what a lovely T you have being so concerned for you ..... you're rave and stronger than you think, what you did today was a positive thing ...... sending big hugs to you, take care, we are here for you, love, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxo

[DOWNINNATICK]

Hi Purple,
I'm here for you, just PM me and I will talk with you. Turn on some soft music, close your eyes and breath calmly, I'm sitting there with you holding your hand and trying to help you relax.

It's good that you opened up in therapy, the only way you will get better is by opening up to him/her, so he/she can help you. What ever you said to him/her will only be between you and him/her. Don't worry about it, he/she cares and it's a sign that he/she is a good theraist.

If you can, go into a chat room and someone with help with how you are feeling, you are special and crying is just a way to release some of the pain your feeling, but again it was great to release that bottled up problem, now it's a turning point to healing.

[Seamoods]

Hang in there Purple...its a good thing you let loose in therapy! May not seem like it now, buy when you come out the other end of this someday, you'll see it was for the BEST! Call your Therapist if you feel that badly!

Keep posting on this site too if it helps! I also want to add that I think you should tell your therapist how extremely upset you are over what came out in Therapy today and WORK ON IT SOMEMORE!

Seamoods

[nightbird]

sometimes what we think is bad is actually a good thing.

this could be the case.

i'm glad you are seeing someone professional - this is a new beginning.

the best to you on your journey to find inner peace.

peace and light,
night

xoxoxoxo

[nowheretorun]

do not be scared ((purple))) (tho i know it is scary) .. the therapist is there to help you.... remember she/he is also human and may make errors... but the intent is to help us heal...... praying for you...