Help me, please help ,mw

there's noone I've noone... I can't do this
but I can't go to hospital
I don't know what to do
I can't breath, just crying and creaming my eyes out
I can't do thid, I don't know what to do

but why am I askigm noone else can hlppp me

Molly, breathe deeply right now. Go get some water and breathe. I'm guessing you still haven't started the medication you were given? You say no one can help you, but honey you have to help us help you, help yourself. Take the medication and see how you feel. Or go to the hospital.

the dose is too ow to help me, I don't awnt to up it though
up until a few weeks ago I qas loved, I was oping and its been just turned on its head in what was just a matter of seconds... went from knowing he loved me to finding out...... oh i can't do this

I know you can do it, you've been doing it. I know how desperate you feel, but you can hang on, you can pull through. Continue to breathe long deep breathes. Cry and cry and cry. While you're crying, though, think about a place that is beautiful and calm and makes you happy. For every bad thought you have, try to think of that place, or think of something that makes you smile--your bunnies, something to settle your mind. You CAN do it.

Yes you can. You don't want to, but you can. The dose is too low--how long did you take it for? Call the physician who prescribed it and ask them about upping it. You don't want to up it but do you want to feel like this? You are still loved, just not by the person you want. It hurts. It hurts like hell to have your world turned upside down. But you can turn it--not back to where it was before but turn it to a better place. You can.

Please ring your GP and let them know that you are not coping and need extra support.

((((((( Molly ))))))) Do it now!

but I can't I KNOW I can't because he's gone
he said he loves me and wants to be friends and I don't want him out of my life, but I can't be friends, I can't be friends when I wan't more, but now I've lost my boyfriend and a best friend (only friend) and I need my best friend to help me. How can I ever talk to him again I can't and I can't live like that... I know I'm gonna get told I can but I CAN'T

but I haven't taken this dose 'cause I'm too scared, I think I'm gonna have to take it now, but I'm scared of highering the dose

I've been told to take 0.5ml of mirtazapine.... that's nothing??

Molly, you need to call someone--your family doctor or whomever wrote the prescription. Your value as a person is NOT dependent on John. I know it feels like it is but it isn't. You were alive before him, you had a wonderful, full and happy time with him, you will be alive after him. Though it doesn't feel like it. You have too much to give to the world to let your life and the value of your life be ruined by this. Remember that human life raft? This is your time to wear the life jacket and we'll support you, but you have to kick your feet once in a while (which means you have to believe you'll come through this and you have to call your doctor!)

I can't even start taking it yet anyway so at the time where I'm meant to be taking it, what if I can't!
I'm meant to take it 30 mins before I want to sleep... it's 1.40pm

I'm not depending on him, I know it seems like it... I just want him in my lif and he's letting me... he want me in his life..... but I can't do this, I don't know what to d o or hpow to cope

For all now, right now he's ine and getting on woth his lfe and I can't bear that.... I wan't my best friend back

From the insert of the package: The usual starting dose for mirtazapine is 15mg once daily, usually at bedtime (because of its sedative nature and the possibility of disturbed visual perception). Doses may be increased, following medical advice, every 1-2 weeks up to a dose of 45mg. It may be taken with or without food. Dispersible tablets (SolTab orally disintegrating tablets) can be taken without water.

Make sure you follow directions for taking at night. Ask if there is a different one if you aren't comfortable with this one.

Then you need to make clear to him that you want to be in his life, but because of your strong feelings for him, you can't be in his life and watch him date others and if he truely respected you he wouldn't ask that of you. Do you really want him in your life, or do you want the him you fell in love with. They may not be the same, honey. And it hurts. So bad it hurts. If you can seperate the love from the friend, at that point you can have him in your life. But this is not healthy for you.

But that's the thing though, I aren't comfortable with any.
My doc put me on this one because she say's the calming and sedative effect will work straight away... and I need to sleep
but she asked me to take 0.5ml, just because of my anxiety about it
I'll take it tonight
but I know I'm never gonna get better whilst thinking about John.. but I can never stop

but your happiness is depending on him. You can be happy by you, with you and for you. It doesn't matter if it's 2 in the afternoon, if you need rest, you need rest. Take it and go to sleep.

I love him so badly, but I know that because I love him so much I can't 'just' be friends with him... but I can't let him go... I can't
I've managed to not talk to him at all for about a week... but it's fnally hitting me that I may never ever talk to him again

I'm not sure if even the sedative part of the med will work at that dose, my doc had doubts about that, the whole idea was to get me used to taking it

well.... ive stopped crying..... still feel absolutely rotten and like i've been hit by a bus though

But your doc is right, get you comfortable taking it, get your body used to it, then the dose can be upped to a therapeutic dose that will help you. Molly--are you sure you are English and not Irish? You're awful stubborn.

BTW, did you ever paint anything like you were going to try to do?

I'll say this one more time!

Go ring your GP and tell them that you are not coping and need extra support. Go do it now!

(((((( Molly ))))))

Please don't ignore my advice.

Molly, pegasus is starting to use bigger, taller letters. GO DO IT NOW before the letters get really, really big!!

((((((((((((((silvermoon))))))))))))
Listen to Pegasus.......get some support IRL.

ktgirl

I like the Irish, love the accent
I know I'm stubborn.... sorry

No I didn't... maybe that's something I can try and do now
Thanks for helping..... I don't think that's the end of it though (the tears, pain, wanting john and not having a clue what to do!... generally being stubborn ....just lying dormant for now, but still bubbling)

I'm not ignoring your advice Pegasus (well, I am technically) like cantstop said... I'm stubborn and I'm also stupidly anxious... I go to my doc and she's saying she's doing all she can... I jut need to take my meds... but that's not her fault I'm not taking them... if it was up to her I'd be on a much higher dose. Other than that I'll end up in hospital one day and I can't... so I'm gonna take my meds... I promise... tonight I'll take my meds


you make me smile

Lets see, it's 10:22 a.m. Tuesday here, what time is it there? Because I will poke you at bedtime to take them. (Ask christina, I'm a really poker and nagger!!) Do something productive until then..paint or bake a cake or go for a walk, or play cards with your mom.