Help me, please help ,mw

you're a great friend

I promise.... for now I will keep myself as occupied as I can and tonight I will start my meds
it's 2.28pm here

Ok, I will poke you at about 9:00 your time (any later and I'll be sitting at karate with no internet.) You are awesome and we'll all get through this!

((molly)))) you can love again... give yourself time to heal some, k? dont give up on you or the value of who you very much still are.... we will keep supporting you... you can do this if you choose to!

i know you know that now is a better time than later... dont let the bullies win, k? you are a survivor and you can make it... sending lots of hugs for you in your hard times now... never give up on you..

(((Molly)))

There s no shame in needing extra support.
Please do as Peg says.
You are overwhelmed.
You will make it through.
You need extra help right now, is all.
So good of cantstopcrying, she is your friend and fighting for you -
Do call in more support thru your GP.

Please do as you are being asked to do.

With Love,
night

thanks (((((((nowheretorun)))))))) ((((((((((night)))))))
I will talk to my doctor again, but the only thing she can do now is 1. up my medication 2. send me to hospital
I can't see a therapist for another 8 months... she does ask me to go to the surgery once a week to do a CBT thing on the computer, but it's not really helping and even my doc said she wouldn't normally advise someone in 'my situation' to do that, but she wanted there to be some kind of help there whilst I'm waiting to see a therapist. She also asks me to go in to see her every week.

I'm just so alone, I have my mum... that's it apart from my doc IRL... so it's making it harder... my dad also makes it harder too

And have you gone in to see her? You really should.

not today... I saw her yesterday and don't have another appointment until next Tuesday...

Molly...this is your friendly nagger talking to you....take your medication!!!

I can't do this I miss John... I'm in agony. It's gone from talking to him everyday, from being loved to nothing and I can't handle it. Right noe he'll br gryying on with hid lige, not hurting... bring ok!!!! and I'm just a total mess and don't knoe hoe to hsndle it. I know this is a horriblr horrible horrible thing to say and i'm such an awful person for saying it, but it'd be easier if he were acyually dead... at lwast then i'd know that i could never talk or see him again and i could grieve properly oh i'm such a horrible person.
I'm just so confued, I'm scared of talking to him again incase i get worse... buy e's gone I CAN'T DO THIS, I DON'T WA//NT tO DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why does everyone hate ne, why does noone wanna know me

((molly))) choose to have a good day today, k? think good thoughts, go outdoors... do something positive for yourself like going to the library and meeting someone new.. just walk right up and start talking to them, maybe the librarian.. you need to make positive contact with others IRL as much as possible... we can support you here on a limited basis but you are going thru some things that need IRL attn now... be healthy for you, and you knew it, avoid unhealthy thinking, k?

(((silver moon))))))))))))))))))) CAn you call your T
I agree with getting out of the house. Alot of times if i am so stressed i am not sure what to do....going outside even to the store helps alot. A whole new look on things...
I doubt you wish him gone...awwww
can you call a friend? or your T?
remember self care and take care of you
muffy

nooo, I don't wish him gone at all.... but it's so hard 'cause I want him in my life more than anything... but I know there's no way I could just be friends with him 'cause I still want more than that. He still wants to be friends too, said I was still the most important person in his life.
But.... I can't stand it, haven't talked to him in a week 'cause I thought it would be best to try and forget about him all together, but I know I'm not gonna be able to... either way, whatever I do it's going to be really really really difficult for me. I'm so torn and such a mess.

I don't have any friends IRL anymore and believe me I try (not in a desperate way)
and I don't have a T yet
in 15 minutes or so I'm going to an appointment with someone who's meant to be helping me build my confidence up to get back to education/work

I have been trying to keep myself busy... done 3 big jigsaws this week lol, keep asking mum to go driving with me (I'm learning)

I know I need to see people IRL... and I have made a point of going out everyday...

go again molly, feel the clean air around you, look at the colors of leaves, watch the children play on swings... think up a new poem about hope for yourself.. take some time and be gentle to you.... see the doc if you need to, k? dont think depressing thoughts or let yourself spiral into nothingness... you have healthy options, please use them for all of us.. we never want to see one of our own go down.... be wise and your own best friend... (((molly))))