Exhausted

What's going on!!?

You need sleep....did you talk to GP?

Yes. Doc cant do anything more.
Brains doing over time.
Getting triggered here there and everywhere.
My heads crammed full of stuff I want to get out, but I can't.
The depressions suffocating me.
I feel like I'm stuck under a mountain of bricks.
Need to breath, need to get out...

...Sorry

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If things don't get better soon, maybe change GP's sweetie. I've had to do that several times to find a GP who will listen and help. Some do want to help (even over here)

love
furry paws

((((((((((( silver moon )))))))))))))))))))))))))

I agree with fuzzybear, it may be time to find another gp, of course I am one to talk my gp is awful and yet I still continue to see her.

Have you tried writing down how you feel like in a journal to let some of that emotion out, I used to find that helpful.

Doc can't do anything more...does he/she know about the med? Have you tried yoga?

maybe I'm cynical but I don't believe the doc. If he "can't" do anything more, should he really be doing that job?
grrrrrrrrrrowl at that doctor. Remember doctors are our employees, they are there to HELP us.
They are never gods, and they are not always right.

What I've found helpful sometimes is writing down how I feel (or some of how I feel) and giving it to the GP to read. And maybe its time to insist on a referral.

Sorry if this is blunt, I've been where you are (more than once) and it sucks.

I've already changed docs to this one... this surgery is great... and the doc I'm seeing is fantastic, she really is. She's done loads. It's not her fault that I don't want to take the meds and she can't make me, she can't sit with me and force me. It's my fault, it's my fault I'm a mess ad it's my fault I can't fix it.
She has already referred me to a therapist... I haven't heard a thing from them yet and she knows that so she chased it up and asked why they hadn't sent anything... they said they would send me the 'questionnaire' within next two weeks (a week and a half ago).

Today was awful... drove somewhere today with dad in car (+ others) and he was just ranting at me and having a go at me and criticising me. Everyone else in the car said I was doing great. I ended up having to pull up because I was crying, it was really hurtful the way he spoke (as always). When we got to where we were going he made me do something I really didn't want to and I'd just given up at that point. I got a lot of triggers too then. I was in a bad way, I wasn't safe! I didn't know what to do... I needed to be safe and I couldn't. I sat in a public place huddled up crying and having suicidal thoughts. I tried visualising, didn't work so I just sat shaking saying "I need to be safe" over and over to myself. I used to be able to text John (about just a random thing, anything to distract me) but I don't even have that now. I'm home now and everyones gone back out. I'm scared and still upset, but feel a bit safer. I have a blanket and heat pads and cushions.
I shouldn't whinge on here, I've no right to... there are people on here a lot worse off than me and I just whinge and moan all the time. I'm sorry.

((((((( Molly )))))))

I'm sorry to sound harsh but you really need to start helping yourself and take your MEDS. You take meds for your physical problems so why not for this? It's no different. The thing is, if you continue to not take the meds prescribed you could end up going to hospital and then being FORCED to take the meds. You don't want that do you?

You know I totally agree with Pegasus, hon. You also I truly care about you. I'm so sorry dad was so very mean to you. Well done on staying safe. I'm proud of you. It's not about you not having the "right" to post here, of course you do--always!! Everyone does. I do agree, though, that you need to start helping yourself. If you don't want to take this particular med, ask to switch to a different one. I won't give you my comparison about this and any other physical condition again, just realize you are hurting yourself and if you do end up in hospital, you will be forced to take them--talk about bad memories out of that one! If you do not hear from the therapy place by Tuesday, call them up yourself and say you are just checking on when the papers went out because you have not received them yet. There is nothing wrong with doing that. If you don't have the contact info, call your doctor. When your bunny was hurt, you didn't sit and wish it got better--you did something for it. You cleaned her wounds, you kept an eye on her. Do the same for you--nothing against bunnies, but you are a tad bit more important than bunnies are!!! Pretty please. (I could be really mean and withhold any more clouds till you do )

I don't think I'm gonna post here anymore. I'm sorry. I know you all want me to take my meds (wether if it's because you care or if you're just sick of me), but I just really don't want to be labeled. I don't want to have to take them... and i don't even think they'll help... I won't be able to cope if I get any side effects and they're not gonna be able to do anything about my dad or help me cope better about my dad.

I'm just sorry. I'm really, really sorry.

Molly, don't stop posting. Meds are offered as way to help because depression is a chemical imbalance. If you are dead-set against meds and will never try them, then you have to start looking at alternative ways...have you considered accupuncture? CBT is a wonderful tool to keep with you and you succeeded at that by telling yourself you are safe. It's a long process and hard to remember to use, as in when your dad was yelling at you. I apologize for urging you to take your meds...you had kept saying you were going to take them. It's important that your doc know you will not consider any medication; that way she can deliver her care appropriately. You know I care so much about you and I would never withhold clouds, I was only trying to make you smile and failed miserably. I apologize. I wish you wouldn't stop posting here. I hope you have a peaceful day. I'm sorry.

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Please don't stop posting, we really do care about you. We encourage you to take your meds because we care and have seen results from meds ourselves. If you are set on not taking any meds, then I agree with cantstopcrying you need to make that very clear to your doctor. There are other methods that you can try, you are right meds wont change the way your dad treats you, in order to do anything about that you need to be in a stable enviroment away from him. I am sorry I don't have any advice on making that possible but it sounds like something that you need to work on.

Because we all care about you and hate to see you suffer.

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Sorry.
I don't know what to say. All over place, can't think and I'm ill today. Sorry.

I need help trying to take them, to get rid of my 'phobia' surrounding all medication, just don't know how. I'm trying, I've tried. I don't know, I'm sorry I'm sorry

MOON

..................I care about you.........

I wish someone IRL cared too

That was really ungrateful, I'm sorry, I'm awful
(((((((((((((((((((((tired))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) you've been a great friend to me thank you