[celeste123]

Always i was told not to tell people what was going on at home, never to share my feelings with anyone.
As long as I can remember I kept my feelings to myself and just got on with looking after my mum and dad and being their shoulder to cry on.
Things have happened to me that have caused so much pain inside. But i don't know how to share it with others.
I'm so good at covering everything up and pretending all is ok. But 3 years ago i broke down couldn't take anymore of the pain that was throbbing inside.
Since then i haven't stopped being miserable, why did i ever bother to let out my feelings. I feel so much worse now.
The flow of feelings just can't be stopped and i can't control them anymore. I'm feeling low again i let down most people that i know. I feel so not worthy enough around other people.
And i'm so used to bottling things up that although the tears are always flowing i just can't talk to people about it. I want to talk but i just can't
Why can't i just talk to someone i'm such a failure of life

[Junerain]

You're the opposite of a failure- you dared to open up and that takes courage!! You could try letting all the negative out in a journal, just get it all out in there, write away everything you feel don't take the time to write perfectly just write write write and keep the journal with you wherever you go. then you can keep yourself positive with certain people, and try to develop real close friends where you can be completely honest just use discernment. The way you write, I can sense you took lemons and made lemonade- a bad childhood turned into new courage. Write down any tools you can use to keep your feelings in control while not denying the bad feelings, all feelings are human.

[sometimes]

Hello. i just had one comment to make. i never realised i had clinical problems like anxiety and that i was messed up. Even when i was thrown into therapy i thought i could and should handle it all on my own. It's been three years and i personally don't think i am much better...worse in some ways...but the funniest thing that i realised was that now when i am upset about life...i go to people for help. And i talk about it, which always helps, just a little bit. So if you get some therapy (i don't know if you're getting it), maybe you will just change like me and over time will like talking to people about your problems. Maybe the fact that you're here means that there is a part of you that wants to talk about it? Keep your chin up,
Sometimes

So very well said June... outstanding advise. Celeste, opening up is a terrifying thing. It means that you're letting down your defenses and letting someone inside your mind and heart and for us that's next to impossible. You had courage before when you said these things and you have courage coming to us here now looking for support. We're all here for you when you're ready to talk about things. Take your time, practice writing it out, and when you're ready it'll be easier, even if only a little bit. Take care of yourself.

ryan

[jennie]

i have trouble voicing my feelings, too.

my t tells me to practice saying things outloud. one assignment is watching a tear-jerker movie, then whenever I cry, i am supposed to TALK about my feelings. then in t session, i am supposed to tell t what i said. you can do this with anything you have feelings about. any time you cry when you are alone, voice your feelings outloud. then go to t and say what you said when you were alone.