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Mar 09, 2006, 06:21 PM
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i can't stop crying.................anxiety extremely high.....................dissociating..........................i'm no good for anything except one thing says h..................my t is out of town.................i'm sorry...................................
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Mar 09, 2006, 06:24 PM
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iamanne
Hang in there! Sending you a safe hug>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ((((((((((((((((((((( iamanne )))))))))))))))))))) 
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Mar 09, 2006, 07:13 PM
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Hang in there hon, sending you peaceful thoughts (and growls if wanted
 ...)((((((((((( warm safe hugs ))))))))))))))
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Mar 09, 2006, 07:17 PM
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Im here ((((((((((iamanne)))))))))))))) Hang in there. You are not good for just that. You are good period. no for something about it.
You are a human being that feels the way you do because you were hurt and now it hurts to remember. Just being you is good, excellent and fantastic. Hang in there. look around you to remind yourself where you are. Find things of different textures to feel and compare so that you stay connected with your sense of touch. put on some relaxing music that you enjoy listening to. taste different types of foods like something sweet and then something sour for contrast to keep your sense of taste connected to the here and now. How about a bath with scented and soft bubbles. Did you know that hair conditioner makes the softest type of bubbles compared to normal bubble bath in a nice warm bath? its really cool and the variety of scents conditioners come in is great. my favorites are 1. orange and tangerine and 2. lavender. T will be back soon. Sometimes when I miss my therapist I get paper and pen and and sit on my couch, close my eyes and imagine sitting in her office in that one spot on the couch I always sit on. And she's in her chair on wheels and the I open my eyes and start writing. Sometimes I even write with my eyes closed. I also talk into a tape player sometimes (course I always record something over it because I hate how my voice sounds on tape). |
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Mar 09, 2006, 07:25 PM
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Hey sweetie, little bunnie bummpies for you
)) ) ) )))anne ((( ( ( (( I think you are a wonderful person. I have been glad to meet you. Give yerself some credit, please. Give yerself some gentle goodies and breathing space, ok? This too shall pass.... it will get better. I'm caring.
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Mar 09, 2006, 07:35 PM
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Hi anne, I am right here. You are doing so well!
Please take care and stay with us if you need us ok! 
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Mar 09, 2006, 08:43 PM
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Fuzzybear...................lots of growls!!!!!!
I need the demons chased away.................bad stuff happening.............can't talk now..............talk to everyone later...........................    
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Mar 09, 2006, 10:03 PM
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Mar 09, 2006, 10:56 PM
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It is so tough to get through life when T is out of town, I do know!!! Breathe... we are all here for you.
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Mar 10, 2006, 06:18 AM
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((((((((((Pegusus Fuzzy Sky)))))))))
Thank you for the warm thoughts. Pdoc gave me some extra meds. H decided he was insensitive and out of line and just frustrated. No kidding, duh! Unfortunately, the words don't go away. Those triggers are still too strong. Thank you for being here .gif)
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Mar 10, 2006, 06:22 AM
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  ((((((Myself))))))Your advice was right on the mark. It was extremely helpful in letting out some of the emotions that were swallowing me up. I envisioned my T being there and I "talked" to him via writing. I'm going to take it with me to my appt on Wed. Hopefully, I can keep things at bay until then Thank you 
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Mar 10, 2006, 06:25 AM
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 (((((((((hillbunny)))))))))) Thank you for the kind words. Someday I hope to be able to put them back into my vocabulary. PS: I like the bunny bumps  so do the little ones, and they need them right now.
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Mar 10, 2006, 06:32 AM
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((((((Rainbowzz)))))) I do need you......I couldn't talk yesterday.......things were too wild in my head.......those words h spoke were a big trigger for me......that's how my dad would manipulate me.........dad's a bad man.........in therapy my T tried to explain how they are memories that are still raw ......but, I experience them as happening now and can't understand what he's saying.......we're working on it......and then my h hits me with the incensitive stuff.......(I need an icon for a storm cloud right here)........thank you for giving me a rainbow when I needed it the most.......
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Mar 10, 2006, 03:13 PM
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you're welcone and glad it helped. Thats one thing I havent done - taking in what I wrote during those times, LOL maybe I should sometime. Course if I did the woman probably wouldn't have time to do anything else. once I get paper and pen in hand I write pages and pages and my writing is like stream writing - it starts out one place and just keeps flowing and ends up miles away from where I began. LOL but I love that you are going to take it with you to your appointment. hang in there.
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Mar 10, 2006, 10:35 PM
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**** TRIGGER WARNING ON POST*******
i wanted to give grace to some of you in case children are present. anne, hun, first of all ((((((iamanne))))))) Second of all, you are doing so well! I am proud of you! You inspire me, who hasn't even really found her niche yet in therapy, who hasnt really even started to delve.. you inspire me that even though it might get tough I can do it. You know, if you cant talk right now, well, you cant talk. I look at it this simply. But at the same time, you can reach out without speaking. You can send me an icon or smiley that means you need a hug or support, or anything! Anyone can do this. maybe we should have an agreed upon smiley where if you are scared, you can post just the smiley and people will know you are challenged right now.  I like the above. my father is a bad man too. but you know I always felt more sad for him than angry, and that is my downfall. I do not know how to get angry, I saw so much anger in my childhood, Im scared to death if I let myself get angry, I might be the same way. So I just dont get angry. Ever. not joking, ill cry for hours but I cant get angry. I too experience the hurt as here and now. I feel physical pain. I experience pains in areas where I was hurt, again. As if It was happening. Certain objects if I see them i will feel pain. I know where you are coming from. This isint much but its all I have to offer, besides my love. Keep in mind that T can't always be positive, or else you wouldn't face anything would you? I had a T who was too positive. She was a everything is wonderful sweep everything under the rug kind of person. It did me no good in the end thats exactly where I ended up, and here I am now going over this %#@&#! again. lol We have to realize that T is human too, and we are human, and you know what? humans are damned full of mistakes, and that is FINE. As long as we recognize the mistake, and at least try and remember how we made it. i am full of rainbowzz.  ill tell the story of why I came to be rainbowzz sometime soon. Im not quite ready. |
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Mar 10, 2006, 11:52 PM
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((((((((((((iamanne)))))))))))
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Mar 11, 2006, 10:31 AM
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((((((((((Myself)))))))))
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Mar 11, 2006, 10:32 AM
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Mar 11, 2006, 10:35 AM
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(((((((((((Rainbowzz))))))))))) .gif)  
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Mar 12, 2006, 09:08 PM
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((((((((((((((((( Anne ))))))))))))))))
I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I am here for you. Hugs, Jan
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#21
Mar 12, 2006, 10:03 PM
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Thank you so much Jan.
I was doing "okay" today, but had another stupid trigger watching tv. I wish my T would get back from vacation. I guess I would have to figure this out without him anyway. Just very panicked right now, a bit dissociative, I tried journaling but that only made it worse. So, ughh, I took a pill. That's my last resort. Hopefully I can sleep tonight without dreaming - fat chance. Ugghh!!!!!!  
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Mar 13, 2006, 12:01 AM
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ugh I totally relate to the taking of (a?) pill when feeling panicked and a bit dissociative. Not as bad as some of my other "coping" mechanisms though ggrrrrr
most of which I am trying to phase out with differing degrees of success >>>>>Fuzzy and lucy<<< gentle hugs for you ((((((((((((((iamanne))))))))))))))))
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Mar 13, 2006, 10:17 PM
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fuzzy, it was only (a) pill. My pdoc said I could but I know what you mean and thank you for the gentle reminder. It has been "that" difficult lately. I wanted to do bad things. Lots of dissociating, nightmares, confusion. I did hear from my T today. He sent me an email from the airport and said we would talk tomorrow. Yippy!!!!! I know I can make it until tomorrow. It has been EXHAUSTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ggrrrrrrrrr, I need fuzzy bear paws to scare away all of the bad stuff and a rainbow to lighten the sky and a nice rhapsody song and play on the swing with caroline and kd and jan and sky and myself and sleeps with butterflies and notthemama and all my other wonderful, comfortable friends who keep me safe  Boy, I didn't realize there were so many! I have to go to bed. My mind is crazy and scared and confused and swirly and overloaded and - ugh
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Mar 13, 2006, 11:56 PM
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((((((((((((( Anne )))))))))))))))
I love to play on swings! Wouldn't that be nice?  Hugs, Jan
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#25
Mar 14, 2006, 12:09 AM
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*SHINESHINESHINE*
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