anyone experience this?

I went to thearpy Tuesday. I lost time and the therapist said that i had a girl come out who told her about cult stuff. I have had experience with cults and this time of year sucks fo rme. She said that i am not the main person either that i am someone else. and that the main person is sleeping. is that possible? has anyone heard of this or experience this? or is my thearpist nuts? She said taht another alter told her about me not being the main person and that their are guards guarding the main person.
I also am having problems sleeping. i am in college staying in a dorm so it is hard. i Just started a antidepressent and i am so tired and can't concentrate. i have so many papers and tests due that i can't even count.
does anyone have any feedback. I am kind of not sure what to think except my T is nuts?

I have not experienced my alters telling my therapist's I am not the main identity, but I have experienced the fear of being lost in the many parts, and the resulting confusion. I hope you continue to seek the guidance of your T, as you work this thru.

Take Care... I just wanted you to know you were heard and your experience acknowledged, even if I can't relate exactly..I understand the struggle to seek validation of self, amongst the selves..

I have heard of alters that step forward for years and the "main person" not aware until they find themselves suddenly with two years of their lives missing.

But most are not in T at the time as they are unaware.

There just might be someone here who has experienced it though.

Everyone's experience is similar yet different.

similar but different for me too. keep seeing this t is my hit. evidently some of your parts feel safe enough to reveal themselves and clue her in so she can better help you. fascinating, huh?

I've not experienced this either but I just wanted you to know I am listening and care. T and I take the approach that we are all me but the barriers in the brain can be a very confusing thing and often different parts of the brain are apparently just as confused as mine.

You are doing great to be able to stay present while T explains. My t doesn't say a lot about when she talks to me unaware as it often tips me over so that I lose more time. I'm so glad you have a T that you are comfortable with. Stick close to her and she will help you through this maze. I'm so sorry you are struggling and I hope you can find peace soon.

Hi confused, sorry it's taken me so long to post a reply, had T last night.

But yeah I've experienced some of this. I'm the host, not the main person. I'm kind of seen as the mother of my pieces. Take care of things that the main person isn't able to cope with. Think it's just a way of protecting the main person until it's safe enough for them to know things and they are able to understand. It's really confusing. I know for myself it was a shock. But I understand my role now and why I'm here.

This is a very hard time of year for those of us who have experienced cults. Is hard for me to say cults because it was my family. So I get very confused and torn with dealing with it all. Especially when some of my pieces are drawn back towards it all. Is hard to keep safe this time of year.

When I found out about being DID I was in the middle of college. I ended up failing a few classes that first semester I found out. Was very hard to function in college when I felt like my world I knew was falling apart all at once. What helped me some was writing down everything that was due and trying to shedule everything out even down to the time I would eat and sleep. Might try to have your T help you ask everyone inside to help you out with getting things done. Functioning is the hard part somedays. I hope things start to work themselves out for you.

Take Care,
Monty

Montygirl
THank you for writing back. Your ideas have been a big help and also by telling me your story to some degree to let me know i am not alone. take care and thank you

Hello confused. I have something to respond to you about this, but need to get my head on straight before answering. Just wanted to let you know that I understand and will respond within the next few days.

I have heard of this type of thing happening and I have witness it once during my out patient classes at a center that is strictly for people with DID.... this place greatly helped me to understand myself and others that suffer from DID (and) for that I am grateful.

BTW - I have NEVER told another living soul this....... but I am presently trying to figure out if I am Me (or) is she ME, my last alter.
I am not for sure.... and all I do know is that my DID T told me that my last alter and I are so closely related (similar to each other) that it is hard to tell who is Carol and who is Carolyn.

I personally became aware of Carol when I turned 12 - when all hell had broken loose in my life, but I honestly thought it was just me wanting to be someone else, therefore, I changed (shorten) my name to a more mature persons name.... hence the name Carol that many knew me by for about 5 to 7 years.

I still hate it when my old buddies (or family members) call me Carol.... I often cringe inside from sickness.

Thanks..... for letting me tell my little secret to others that care.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Thanks..... for letting me tell my little secret to others that care.

That was very brave of you Rhapsody.

Thanks for trusting us.

Petunia

Hearing you

yes for two years i thought that i was working man in alabama. i drove on up there and put on some overalls and began to pick up some weeds but then i came too eventually and walked back to tampa to drink some beer and puff up some smokes and all.

I am not the original person either. I have been here for the past 16 years (I'm 36 years old now) and my original role was the "timekeeper" (making sure we didn't lose time or appear to lose time) and "the one who keeps it all together for the outside world". I've been out for the majority of the time since I was 20 and have experienced co-consciousness (without realizing it) for the past 11 years.

My original person was put into jail inside when she was 5 years old. I don't know why yet, we will find out when I'm able to deal with it.

I hear how hard this is for you right now and the most important advice I have is to keep working with your therapist. Hang in there until the antidepressant kicks in. Keep talking to us here at PC. You will make it through this too.

Elizabeth

Well for me I thought that I was an alter and not the host even though most of our entire life I ran the roll of it. When I was very little I took on being an alter. I even gave the alter that I thought was the host the host name and took on an alter name. I didn't want to be the host because I thought that if I wasn't the host then it wasn't happening to me. Well about 3 1/2 years ago I found out that I was actually the host and not an alter. It was very surprising and shocking. I was able to take care of things so much better when I thought that I was an alter protecting the host. I felt more a protector than the host. So now that I know that I am the host, it is harder to take care of things because I don't want to do it for myself. If I was doing it for someone else, then it would be so much easier. That is what I experienced.

I call my "host" the "gatekeeper" (that's me!) and I came out after a lengthy stay at a specialized hospital, although I had been out and active before as the primary caregiver for people around me, including my (outside) children and family.

I think this happens a lot and over time, after learning your system, you will maybe feel more comfortable with this.

My original person has been asleep since she was very young and our jobs are to keep her asleep and safe so she does not have to remember any bad stuff. It makes complete sense to me but I do understand that I will someday have to work toward more healing.