[Georgia Bridge]

Bes stop action 🐍 👀! 🎲... Be you win!
Be T change face. Be me leave in head. Be me stay body.

Originally Posted by falcon09

Day after looking at it, it really does feel surreal.

Like this isn't real, or what.

I cottoned on to the DID thing just over a year ago. I still doubt it at least 18 times a day - despite the growing mountain of evidence! Sometimes part of me will be furious at my T for refusing to acknowledge what is going on or the parts of me he's met, at the same time as Im laughing at myself for thinking I have a mental health issue I don't even believe in.

From my experience, and from everything Ive read on here, in books, etc etc - Is that life feeling unreal is a part of the DID deal. Now Im trying really hard to be ok with and just accept that I don't have a clue what is real or not. Its not working, but thats what Im aiming for!

[krazy_phoenix]

kp just checking in to say that I'm still going, still here, still trying. Lurking mostly. In chat every now and then. We are still striving for stability.
Hope you are all ok.

My hands hurt

The moron guys go to work like they're invincible and don't wear gloves. My fingers are missing skin, swelled up, cuts everywhere, and a half dollar sized spider bite on the back of the left hand.

I can hardly even hold a pot of coffee.

And we're supposed to go do it again today.

T doesn't want to start the integration work until we can afford it which will be when we are gainfully employed which means months from now which seems so far away. I just want one to talk too. I think I'll just find one that I can talk her ear off and not worry about processes just yet.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

T doesn't want to start the integration work until we can afford it which will be when we are gainfully employed which means months from now which seems so far away. I just want one to talk too. I think I'll just find one that I can talk her ear off and not worry about processes just yet.

They take things *really* slowly. Its *so* frustrating. I think its a good fight. I think.

Actually, it might be cheaper to go find a mental meeting somewhere or get a sponsor.

[Kiya]

Swapping too much to work... got pulled off indefinitely.

[kaliope]

Originally Posted by CassyO

I cottoned on to the DID thing just over a year ago. I still doubt it at least 18 times a day - despite the growing mountain of evidence! Sometimes part of me will be furious at my T for refusing to acknowledge what is going on or the parts of me he's met, at the same time as Im laughing at myself for thinking I have a mental health issue I don't even believe in.


From my experience, and from everything Ive read on here, in books, etc etc - Is that life feeling unreal is a part of the DID deal. Now Im trying really hard to be ok with and just accept that I don't have a clue what is real or not. Its not working, but thats what Im aiming for!

I tried to get my old T to recognize this forever and he ignored it which put me and the system over the deep end I don't know how many times because they were screaming to be heard. Now I have a t that specializes in DID and I am the one that continues to deny it up-and-down when she is trying to get me to work with the system over and over and over again. I am waiting for her to fire me that she is so frustrated LOL

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An other forcibly took over last night. It's funny how they think that they are going to take over forever and change things. Well.....here we are! Lol

Grrrr. A blog I started has been deleted.
All that work.

[Gr3tta]

I started back to work at a new job, part time. There are two of us able to work. It is totally zapping my energy, but I think it's good to add some structure to my days. Plus we Really need some more money coming in!

[darkpurplesecrets]

We must be bad. Life story.

Other parts just want to run away and start a whole new life...

Possible trigger:

or end it.

[Gr3tta]

Working through Christmas with new responsibilities. Hope it will be a little slow.

Everything's changed.

[kecanoe]

Made it thru Christmas. Only dissociated once.

Mums the word.

my new insider octavia is a strange person

i don't have her age but by the way she acts, i think so. had my fair share of switching over christmas and my fair share of flashbacks.

oh and not a single gift. arn't people so nice!. (sarcastic smile)

i almost messed up that post entirely.

yay for the edit function (some of that nearly looked as if octavia was writing) but i took it out.

oh yeah, and you know i said that i have problems finding things i enjoy?

the only thing i know for sure is that i like breaking things

We're sitting in the GP waiting room wondering who is going to talk to the doc.

We took more AD last night...we feel much better today, not Sui like the last few days has been.

[kecanoe]

Did my first treatment with Brain Spotting. Interesting.

having a hard time aceepting the fact it's later than it actually is (or something)

we keep thinking it's tuesday and the fact it's wednesday worries us... and did i just mess up the top line?

screw it...

[darkpurplesecrets]

Feeling like our arms and hands are backwards, like we are tilting to the side but we are sitting straight up. For days now body memories have hit hard, our left arm and shoulder feel as though it is dislocated once again from the socket.

I try to fight through the pain, fight off the tears that used to never even make notice they were present, but now they push at me from deep within, from a place I don't understand yet I do.

Those within screaming at times, other times a deafening silence. Sometimes it days like this I want to disappear forever........for everyone sake......would it really matter at all? Tears fall as silently we disappear out of the way......

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Omg it's New Year's Eve already. It was the 29th recent like....yesterday? At least that's what I signed everything as!