Originally Posted by ACQPL

Today is one of those days that i don't wish to repeat. Ever.

Yet is keeps repeating, again.

Never felt so miserable

Where did the sunshine go, why are the clouds so grey and dark, why does the lightning burn but fail to provide light.

it is good to here from you, ACQPL

sorry you're not feeling that great, but hope things get better

I am feeling blah.

and crap

I don't really want to be here

[Luce]

So today I say with absolute certainty that I do not and never did have DID.
And that is the truth of it.

Originally Posted by Luce

So today I say with absolute certainty that I do not and never did have DID.
And that is the truth of it.

you're going to stay around and support us though (as a system and as a forum), I hope?

still struggling with memories and paronoya

sucks..

I don't want to be host of this god dam body anymore

[Aardwolf]

Thank you Luce. It helped us the sounds. It is looping & It gives attachment.

The wings are gone, the lift cannot lift. It is so hard to focus on anything, on anyone.

All we hear are screams.

[Luce]

Where are all those inner helpers when you need them, ACQPL?

things arn't bad today.

less intense

just hoping it lasts a while. perhaps I can get some stuff done around here.

[Aardwolf]

Today was fine. We were going to meet someone and do something.

They never showed, didn't call, didn't text.

At least we know we are worth nothing to those who used to care.

Excuse me while we drown in sadness

Originally Posted by ACQPL

Today was fine. We were going to meet someone and do something.

They never showed, didn't call, didn't text.

At least we know we are worth nothing to those who used to care.

Excuse me while we drown in sadness

awwww

(((((((hugs))))))

[Aardwolf]

Same old empty feeling in the heart
Words are difficult today

wish people would stop tellingf us to "like christmas"

oh if only they knew how horrible it is for us

[Aardwolf]

Work was bad & I am bad today. I am a terrible person who doesn't deserve the help they are trying to give me.

[Aardwolf]

Today is lonely, I am not sad anymore. It is better to feel nothing at all.

we want to know why the muppet's christmas carol has suddenly become difficult to watch and a trigger.

we're always okay with it, but today when we went to watch it..... god.
it's not raining outside today, weird for this time of year- very weird

still trying to peace together yesterday (lost so much time), but ultimately that's all it is, an evening

eating everything in site at the moment

ugg

[Aardwolf]

(((shattered))) - We have sun and blue sky !
Hope you're all okay

we have a highlight of our weekend

we were actually called by our system name, "atlantis"

we can't believe someone actually remembered, and didn't call us by the host person's name

*dances in circles around the forum comunity*

this actually deserves it's own thread, but we can't be bothered right now to create it

apart from that pretty average

no sleep yesterday.... quiet day today

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Been feeling insignificant and shy, embarrassed of ourselves, mental illness is a gravestone around our neck holding us underwater.

are you all okay?

wishes to be deleted... from this site, or from the earth

((((hugs))))

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

are you all okay?

wishes to be deleted... from this site, or from the earth

((((hugs))))

Sorry...it's a bad time. I've been deleting all our bad posts.

[Luce]

My new T is contacting my ex t for information and I am terrified. We have had a lot of contact with ex t this year and alters have told her a lot of things... that I don't want shared with new t. There is so much I don't want her to say. Ex T told me if there are things I don't want her to share that she thinks are important for new t to know she will talk to me first. This is so scary.

no need to feel sorry, AC2.

I hope you stay around.

((((((hugs)))))

I love this site without the signitures, and without the difficult editing options. makes life so much easier

(and the site is actually faster too, so yays)

[Aardwolf]

Today has been turbulent, but calmer. Just two meltdowns, which is progress

[Luce]

Saw T. Made fool of self. Exposed ugly truth that is me.
I don't want any of this.

hoping to go a whole day without losing any time in... well, a lot of days.

hoping today wil sort of be an emotional rest

seems that way so far which is good

okay so we didn't lose anytime yesterday (yay!), however towards the end of the day we got a bit of a nasty shock- our family (who we posted about recently ) saying we were worried they'd find us- and we had that protection meeting, sent us a christmas card

so we tore up the card peace by peace (satisfaction really), then got on to the people we had a meeting with a few weeks ago and told them about it

1 of the ladies is coming next friday at 10 A.M to discuss what happened and how we feel.

a not so perfect ending to what would have been a good day. we had to deal with memories and stuff for the remainder