questions: dissociative disorders version #2

My goal would be to rest from the good and bad therapy has done a toll on us. Doing enough to get by is what I would require as a goal because for obvious reason there is will always be alters on teetering on either side waiting for more waiting for the demise. I remember them often enough age is a factor time doesn't wait on anyone so anything better will always be something new in life. I'll take my social security help for the right now and be okay with occasional part time work. I think I will always have this for a hobby keeping us open. I'm struggling the right now is what I will speak to in this thread.

How are you at not allow alters to dissociate as much, say at the grocery store without it seeming like a flooding of preferences for those that switch often...Also without it being, I just want to again show a difference without it frustrating those whom already know. Keeping in account the budget what has to be gotten out the list if kids are alone for shopping without having to say shut up! lol. Sorry kinda of a loaded question

I feel I have very little (or no) control over that kind of stuff

I never thought i'd say this, but their's an advantage to being agoraphobic.

that advantage being, it's tough enough trying to keep things together at home. I can't imagine the weird looks/ comments/ what ever else if I was say at a grocery store and switched.

when was the last time you discovered a new alter, and how did you feel about it?

A few months ago-- a little girl who is always asking for something to eat. But the weird thing is that she's dead, that's what she said. I feel creeped out about it because my parents told me I almost died when I was little, was on palliative care in the hospital and the doctors began directing my parents towards grief counselors and making arrangements for me to get last rites. But I lived. I researched the illness a few years ago and found out that it tends to only be serious in malnourished children, otherwise it's very mild and routine.

So I feel very weird about it, yes.

Ummm, if you could be a piece of furniture or home appliance, what would it be, and why?

I would be a fridge or stove or oven because I love to cook

What's your comfort food of choice?

So I know I sound crazy but I don't feel like I'm alive. I attempted suicide in late January and ever since then I've felt like I'm dead. I feel like im in hell, this never ending sense of lonliness and depression (even more so than before). I feel like I never woke up when I took this pills and I don't know what is wrong with me. Help??

hey alison,

welcome to PC (psychcentral)

I hope this forum helps you.

their are a lot of supportive people here who understand

jellybeans

I love them

especially the big, really big tubs of them

question: where do you see yourself in 1 year's time, and what is 1 thing you can do now to help yourself get their?

where do I see myself in a year?



what is 1 thing you like about yourself

that I put others before myself.

what about 1 thing you don't like about yourself?

I'm impatient AF. I try not to be, but now I'm impatient that my patience isn't getting better!

What are your top 3 favourite books that come to mind right now?

1. the railway children

2. oliver twist

3. jayne air

question: do you like fruit?. if so what fruits do you like?

I love mango but I'm allergic I eat it anyway....
I also like tangerines and blueberries and kiwis.

If someone in your system is afraid of a person and is controlling your thoughts the most, but others know that the scary person is totally ok and not scary at all, how do you get everyone on the same page?

I think if you normalize talk about it with safety time it can heal all wounds set up do what you can to make it okay. Show people doing scary but being okay ultimately television music etc. A safe way to show what you can do to get past the scaryness and not just whimp out.

How long do you go before allowing those scared to be lost because ultimately it isn't worth their approval? 6 months a year when they come up it mostly invalidating or cold because you can't keep worrying about the one that spoils it for the bunch especially is newness is your problem.

Does time really heal all wounds? It has been a lot of time... but whenever the bandages come loose the wounds hiding underneath are as fresh as the days they were made.

Nope. Time certainly does not heal wounds. Love does.

What do you think of the phrase, "Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger?"

at anais_anais, I've always wanted to try mango.

I mean, i've tried mango juice, but not actual fruit mango.

the phrase I think is stupid.

makes no sense to me

what were your thoughts when you were first diagnosed with a dissociative disorder?

What was it? Why, I just wanted to read about it? I dissociated the statement for what is really meant to say the importance of it. I should have existed therapy gotten out of therapy stayed safe when I read about the toll, we hate pain. It sent us on a odd quest to read about it I mean a whole lot very inquisitive on the topics and topics that alike dissociative disorder. It made us wonder if someone in the depths of our subconscious that would indeed be hurt pain uncertainty more and more confusion I actually think it might have helped some understand why we lose stuff..

Did you treatment provider open up, or did you have get the experiences and they put the names on it for you? How helpful especially if from the start was your therapist I had virtual no help?

Had to drive a town over and made it. But when I got there I felt like I was going to pass out. Even now at home my head feels light. Eventually I want to be able to drive to the next town over with out anxiety. I think it is going to take awhile.

I was the one who told my T I was DID. One of my parts started talking to me and knew everything about me, and told me I needed his help. Up to that point I thought he was a figment of my very active imagination, although I really did already see him as a part of me and I was aware of other "mindsets" that would take me over sometimes that even had names. But I didn't make the connection until Gnash started talking to me. I was already researching complex PTSD, because that's what I was going to t for, and so I found DID literature and it fit- it explained my whole life. And then I told my T. She was accepting of it but thought I was DDNOS (I'm definitely DID, no denying that, new T concurs). She was helpful in so many ways but with my parts, no. She didn't want to talk to any of them (and some were quite insulted by that) and didn't know how to deal with dissociation in session or how to stabilize me for trauma work. We went too fast. She really encouraged me to seek out a T with experience in DID and that was the most helpful.
Basically until my current T all my help came from my own research.

What is the most helpful thing someone has said to you?

Not sure if most helpful, but the current thing I am hanging on to and finding helpful is "oh, we can fix that" referring to me being so inclined to be dependent/avoidant.

Did you go to college?

That when performing the music of a "good" composer, you have to be very involved, tell a story, have your own ideas, give it something extra to make the audience understand. But when performing the music of a "great" composer you have to be selfless, removing all technical obstacles in order to perform the music as purely and faithfully as possible. You have none of your own ideas, no self, no ego, only the truth of what is on the page. You cannot add anything or take anything away.

If someone invited you to a meal at your very favorite restaurant (they pay), but you hate them, would you go?

Ooh I cross posted with kecanoe.

Ok, yes I went to college. Keeping my question about the restaurant with someone you hate.

No I wouldn't. I don't hate many people at all so if I hated someone i know there would be a very good reason for it. Buttered toast on my own is a far better experience than a paid meal at a favorite restaurant with someone I hate.

How old were you when you first became consciously aware that you were dissociating? (As in you were able to use the word dissociation to label your own experience)

37

At what point did you first refer to yourself as "we" when speaking to yourself or to someone else, if at all?

I guess at around 12 or 13, I don't remember exactly

now we do it all the time though (well, not all the time), if we feel particularly bad.

and I guess, seeing that that's most days..

are you worried about anything in the coming week?