Originally Posted by Laurel1562

Just got back from a few days out of town to celebrate my anniversary. It was a good time.

But looks like I picked up a virus and I feel sick.

Funny(?) note: I had to double and triple check which restroom I was going into ever since Big Billy took me into a men's room on a separate occasion and I didn't know it till I got out of the stall and saw a guy standing at the urinal.

He's such a sniper in taking executive control, so far as I know only in these mischievous ways.

hope you get to feeling better, laurel

being ill is never nice

we're going to try and not hurt our throat and be like mummy

we're going to try

well we were told if someone inside does it they arn't just hurting themselves they are hurting all of us

so

hey i'm malika and i'm 16 and I've been in control since yesterday evening and i've been having some fun on other websites just making people annoyed.

I love making people annoyed.

I guess I don't mean to do it but what the hell, it's fun and I love to see diffrent people's reactions

and it's great to be out. I am so happy to be out and in control

did I tell you I have a bracelet on my wrist that is completely made from seashells?

well I do and it's amazing.

it was gotten for me down at the beach and I've had it on me for about a week now

okay so yesterday we didn't sleep or rest again. others are having problems with that too and I don't know why. it's pretty ****.

hope everyone is having a nice day

malika

I want to hide.

[Claritytoo]

I am kinda annoyed with my t. I mentioned that I like to sit on the porch and watch the birds at the bird feeder. She said I use that as a distraction. I never thought of it that way. I thought of it as enjoying sitting on the porch and watching the birds. If that's a distraction than everything else I do is a distraction. What does that make my life? Its kinda of f'd up that this thought keeps rolling around in my head. Part of me thinks that there is a lot of truth in it but part of me now wonders if everything we do is just a distraction from the realities of living. This is the s**t that rolls around in my head.

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

I am kinda annoyed with my t. I mentioned that I like to sit on the porch and watch the birds at the bird feeder. She said I use that as a distraction. I never thought of it that way. I thought of it as enjoying sitting on the porch and watching the birds

I love to do that too! I think of it as "experiencing joy in the moment". I find it grounding and peaceful.

Perhaps even more than that I think taking time out to watch the birds/smell the roses/whatever is healthy.

Aren't they so lucky to be able to fly?!

yesterday for the first time in a long time we actually had a deecent (well sort of deecent meal)

it's just ashame our teeth were hurting us, because it took away from the enjoyment of it.

and that's all we have to say

everything else about yesterday.. just the same

In limbo due to stress and anxiety...we are drinking more than usual. Our kid...

feeling okay

no sleep (again), and this morning felt a bit dizzy because of the amount of pain I was in

but I guess i'm better now

still in a bit of pain and still have no plans for the day, but this is my life we're talking about

also had a pretty nasty flashback yesterday about past abuse.... uggg

another night of no sleepp and severe flashbacks

honestly not sure how today will be yet because it's still only half 7 in the morning

feel like crap though

It’s been to hot and muggy to care, like it’s been 90*-100*, and I’m always exhausted.

My son’s future is causing great stress and anxiety what with his car payments (which I think was stupid for us to co-sign to), his d.w.i. Fines and lost of job, and his govt loan which the paperwork is b.s. and might not happen in time.

Great concern over his career choice of hvac because of his inability to do simple math, always gone with his friends...

We’ve been dissing a lot, so much better just shutting down...

We are drinking a lot.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

It’s been to hot and muggy to care, like it’s been 90*-100*, and I’m always exhausted.

it's been hot everywhere

I know here (in rainy england) we've had a heatwave

so

I regret not being a whole person. I’m incomplete. I shoulda never have been. I’m easy pickins. Deep sleep is welcome, but nightmares scare me.

I wish to just vapor.

[Amyjay]

My therapy session this week was awful. After making some breakthroughs in the previous weeks in getting through another layer of the system we've gone back to a shutdown. Being aware of self was not okay this week apparently. It felt like I was a tiny bubble of consciousness floating near the ceiling and nothing else existed.
I had no words to say and T didn't have very many either.

malika got us banned from a website!

not cool!

now the rest of us are going to war with natalie the admin

I want blood

Tw........

Wolfie is Hungary....just stay no

yesterday we had rain and thunderstorms

oh were they needed!. it was a welcome break from the heat (though now it's hot again)

doing okay..

panic attack this morning because of insect related stuff, and another night without so much as a lie down

all that aside, feeling pretty upbeat..

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I want blood

Tw........

why do you want blood..

I don’t know. I want eggs and waffles.

boring but stable sunday.

...so far

I doubt the boring part will change- stability might though

guess what guys?

another night without any rest

yesterday did remain pretty boring.

had a less than average meal, and then just sat in our room not really caring about anything.

oo. guess that could be said for today too.

arn't our lives exciting

Our kid is driving me crazy with anxiety. About ready to kick him out, put his car in collections. DWI, no job, smokes weed, sleeps all day.