[silentangel]

ok i have a weird question. im wondering how other ppl see their memories. memories of anything- happy or sad. when i think of something that has happened. i get a "still-framed" picture in my head, but its like im an outsider l.ooking in. like i can litterally see myself standing there in the situation like i was another person. this happens for almost all my memories..... does this make sense? now that i read it, i hope u can follow me. i sometimes tend to have a weird way of seeing things. but anyway i just wanted to see if anyone else sees things like me

[kimmydawn]

I'm exactly the same way.

I get a snapshot. If I'm lucky or unlucky (whichever the case may be), I'll get an audio "feedback" to tell me more or all of it. Sometimes another snapshot will come, sometimes not.

Now, there are a few that I have a short clip of, and that actually move. Why I do that with some and not others is beyond me. There's no connection between good and bad with that either. No clue.

Before I worked through alot in therapy, I just got the still clips (and not many) with no auditory tape playing for me so that was very difficult. I didn't even know if they were real memories.

Yes, I always see myself in them (no matter if a still pic or a short playing clip) as if I'm standing back or someone else was taking the pick.

You're not alone.

KD

[Mouse_]

I'm the same way...it's like someones pressed the pause buttom until the feelings come that are connected with what was going on at that time.

[bipolar_bear]

The same thing happens to me. It is just a frozen moment. There is just the picture nothing else. It doesn't seem to be if they are happy or sad they all come the same way.

BB

[wanttoheal]

Yes, I am the same way. The only Christmas I have memory of growing up is a still shot. It's a picture of the girl sitting on a couch in the dark, looking at the lights on a tree and tears are coming down the face. I was outside the body looking at the body. That's usually the type of memories I have. I only have a very few of those from childhood. I have more from my adulthood, but I'm missing a lot of adult time too. I don't have an audio from that Christmas one, but I guess it's pretty self explanatory that I was sad about something so maybe not needed. You aren't alone.

So if many have this, then we are normal, right?

[Perna]

Mine come as a result of a "trigger" and are usually tied to that trigger and can often lead to something else in a "stream"?

I see rooms and stuff as if I'm walking into them and panning my eye-camera around to get a 3D image. So sometimes I'll get a background "scene" and in addition I'll get a scene I'm in and watching myself so it's like a 3D "feel" for the whole situation/memory. I guess a lot of my memories are like reading a novel scene? I can remember my stepmother thrusting her bottom teeth in front of her top teeth and her "steely" eyes that were clues she was very angry and I shouldn't move a muscle or I might be hit as if it were happening, I just can't describe it well enough to write the novel :-)

[Kiya]

Huh.... now that you've brought it up, i really have no idea how i remember things. I'll have to wait for a memory to come up and see, i guess. what is coming up as i read these is that there are actual photos that i have seen and i remember the photos - not the events. So you talk about chirstmas and my mind brings up several actual snap shots taken in the years. but i can't seem to remember the christmasses them selves. probably because i have hated christmas for as long as i can remember. lol - that reminds me... i think i remember in words.... if i can come up with the words, then those have feeling and meaning attached, according to which alter they belong to.
now i'm confused -lol
kiya

[Rhapsody]

I get my memories in snapshots and in video form - like I am watching a movie, it was weird at first, but now I am used to it which allows me to try best to let the video of my past life finish when the movie starts.

I get the "snapshot"... memories... with no feelings... and then as I have really gotten comfortable with my T... and working with the body memory T - I get body memories... that just keep going in a steady stream.. like connect the dot... you have to really trust the person that you work with.. that he can handle what is being brought up..this flow keeps going and going... even thru to my own T.... so it is sort of this knowledge that has always been there.. haven't forgotten it... just able to come out.....

Sometimes.. a trigger will "jolt" me..

[kimmydawn]

Oh, yeah...good point! I usually have no emotion attached to memories no matter how I get them and usually no memory attached to inappropriate or out of context emotions. There's a huge separation in that respect as well.

KD

[wanttoheal]

Kiya, that makes sense about the photos. I used to think I had some still shot memories and then found some actual photos and realized the memory I had of that was the actual photo, not the incident.

I don't have emotions attached to memories either, even mundane things or things that happened to other people if I am there. I have had people comment on me talking about something as if it was just a fact, no emotion, but truth is, there isn't any emotion available. I think they all get stored behind the walls in different areas.

[silver_queen]

Some of my memories are proper memories where I get the memory and emotions as well - which are usually strong eg joy or sadness.

Quite a lot are viewing things from a distance with no sense of emotion and no idea of context, just get flashes of memory. And sometimes I don't know if I've imagined them or dreamed them, so that gets confusing too.

[Kiya]

>I think they all get stored behind the walls in different areas.

yep - here too. kiya

[Susan27]

hi silentangel,
i have the same thing! that's part of what i was trying to describe in my post about my lack of identity. i have clips and still frames but can't remember feeling like i was in it or it having any meaning except a deep sadness and i'm not sure what that's from since it comes with both good and bad memories. thanks for posting this!

[silentangel]

yes now that i think about it, my "feelings" are not attached to the still frame. i dont know where the feelings/emotions are hiding, but im wondering if i should just leave well enough alone.

[Jaide]

I know what you mean, and I also get that, it is such a weird feeling...

I find that this happens generally most often in dreams, and majority of the time, its like I'm watching a movie of myself..and I can see myself. Or else I will find someone else in my position and watch them go through my experience. Especially lately I have been having reoccuring dreams with the same memories and people.

[Numbers]

My memories er very different. Sometimes they are very vivid, it's like I'm right back at the time it happened. A lot of emotion is connected to these memories.
Other times it's just still photos or like a panoramic view and I can see myself like you described. There are no emotions and sometimes I even wonder if it's something real, because it feels like a memory I didn't know I had. I'm afraid I can't explain it any better.