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It has been a while since I have been on here but I have started having issues again (or maybe they were just hiding).
I have what some people would call an emotionally abusive spouse. Not so much towards me but to my daughter. I have been talking to my ex on and off the entire time I have been with my husband and I do love him but I am married. I don't know whether to leave or stay. My husband would divorce me if he found out I have been talking to my ex still. I can't and don't want to stop talking to my ex and my husband doesn't deserve to be lied to. I have a two year old and a six year old that I am trying to stay there for but still can't help wanting to be with my ex. I shouldn't have gotten married but I did and know I don't know what to do and I know someone is going to get hurt. I feel like I have hit a dead end. I need some direction. Additional background info can be found on my previous posts.
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Which of the two men is the father of your children?
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You need to answer these questions honestly and to yourself:
1. If there were no ex or children in your life, would you want to leave your husband? 2. Why did the relationship end with your ex? 3. Why shouldn't you have gotten married? is it because you married the wrong man or is it because you don't like to be tied down? |
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My husband.
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"You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present. "
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I think you should put the relationship with your ex on hold and deal with your current relationship first. I think your ex is clouding the picture. Do you want to stay married to your husband? You have two small children together. That can be motivating to stay together. You said you love your current husband. If you love him, why don't you want to stay with him? Have you considered marriage counseling?
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The fact that your husband is being emotionally abusive to your daughter
![]() ![]() you said that you wished you did nto marry him, and that you are only staying for the kids, you know what you want to do, its the hurting someone that your scared about because someone is going to hurt and if you guys separate your going to be hurt to, but grieve and move on. it will take awhile but if its the right thing to do it will get better, and if you do decide that you want to stay with your husband then put your foot down that his behaviour towards your duaghter is not going to be tolerated as emotional abuse is at times worse then physical. |
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I do love him but it is more of a love because I have been with him for 5 years. I married him because I felt rejected over my ex not saying he loved me when I thought he should and I thought my husband would. I don't even know at this point if I want to stay married or not. I am scared of being on my own. I am scared that if we divorce then the children would still have to be around him by themselves with me not there to protect them. Then what happens if he gets with a woman like is ex's were (physically abusive and alcoholics) and then my children have to be in that environment?
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"You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present. "
~Jan Glidewell |
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Who are you refering to has the good connection? Me and my husband? Or me and my ex?
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leave your husband if that is what you want, but i know how hard it will be especially considering your son will still have to see him, but he seems like he is really good with him. Because your daughter is not his then she wont have to have nothing to do with him, which will do wodners for her self esteem. Remember you are a mother first and for most you protect your kids! |
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It sounds like this marriage is in serious trouble and your children are suffering. A therapist will help you learn to stand up to your husband. "He tells me to be quiet" is not a reason to stop trying to protect your children. Another way to fix the situation is to leave your husband and get your children away from him. I hope you will see a therapist.
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OMG! ![]() I am new to this forum and came to get a better understanding of what is going on in my relationship and what to do about it - although to be honest, I KNOW the answer to both questions already. Hazel Glitter I pray you are following this thread or at least checking in ... the situation you've described mirrors my relationship/life - it began fourteen years ago. *[I brought my 7 year old son into the relationship and my husband & I have no other children.] My husband treated (treats) my son that way. Nothing he does deserves any merit what so ever. There's always something bad, something that wasn't done right or, when those excuses won't work then my son only did well because "hes after something" "he wants something from you". If he tried really hard and got 3 of 4 things done well husband ignores the good work & focuses on the 4th, that wasn't done. He'd totally ignore him at the dinner table when he spoke or asked questions - we no longer eat together once my son found his teenage voice he said he didn't want to eat at the table. ![]() I tried everything to work with my husband, all wrong apparently, I even offered to go to family counseling to learn what I WAS DOING WRONG if he would come with me. ~Not!!~ He didn't need some shrink telling him how to raise a kid. Things continued and often got worse, much worse. It would take pages to recount it all. I've often wondered about a marriage so young that had so many bad/sad memories and few good ones. I went from a loving, giving, carefree person with a great job & a loving, outgoing son to a woman who left her job of 23 yrs depleted due to chronic pain & perpetual stress. I battle depression often, I carry anxiety everyday, I see a therapist and (joy, joy) am on a cocktail of drugs just to deal with the challenges of what has become my daily life ![]() My biggest concern is my son (I can/will recover). Now 21 he essentially lives in his room - he chose not to go to college and doesn't look for or hold jobs long. When he recieves positive feedback he excels - minimal criticism and he shuts down. If you ask me, he's depressed and his self-assurance/esteem is extremely fragile if it exists at all. Sadly he often relays the same/similar negative, caustic opinions that his step-father does - at times directed at himself. He is very defensive and sees most everything as a criticism. ![]() HazelGlitter I am telling you all this because you need to protect your daughter, son & yourself. Growing up in a 'home' full of negativity & ARGUMENTS will destroy all of you slowly but surely. The children are at the greatest risk, your daughter certainly but also your son. Even though he is not often the recipient of the critism & threats he has to live in the environment. As for yourself, your personality & relationship with your husband will change, the frequency of arguments will increase, your willingness to resolve/mitigate problems will lessen and resentment will grow. I know I am projecting my story on to you but some effects are inveitable. As for me, now that I'm no longer working and husband's retired I tend to live in my room as well. Husband moved into other room abt. 1 1/2 yrs ago. For the most part I no longer miss the contact. Why do I stay? That's partially why I'm here reading ... as I said, I believe I know. The question is how do I work through/around my issues. BTW, even though I dislike being 'alone' another relationship is the last thing on my mind! My ability to sustain myself financially is of foremost concern. Pls consider what I've written here ... the toll negativity has taken on my life is immeasurable, the effect it has had on my son is criminal. Don't let this happen to your children or yourself. I wish you lots of support, strength, and courage in whatever path you take. ~ Irish
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I know many single parents that make things work in their life but I am scared to take that step. Where am I going to go? I have no moral or emotional support other than on here. How am I going to make money? We work at the same place so I would have to quit my job. I am at a point where my ex and I still talk every few months or so and it is just to say hi and he asks if I have support from friends and family to help me in my situation. I am not even worried about a relationship with him as of right now as far as dating goes. I really just want my children to be safe and happy even if I am single for the rest of my life. I believe I need to focus on them more than anything else. I just need to be strong but it is so hard to do. ![]()
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Just checking in w/you ... tried to write direct but, apparently don't have enough PMs .... so, here's no. 2.
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I feel like I am on a roller coaster because after I get mad and want to leave him....I change my mind and want to stay with him. I don't know where I would go and how I would support myself and my kids. They both love him and I am scared of taking them away from the only father they have known. We had a conversation last night and he said he doesn't see how he is being verbally and emotionally abusive. He says that any woman that stays in an abuse relationship is stupid. He also believes that all women are "dirty hoes" at some point in their life and they are always the ones to cheat and that no matter what the man does it is the woman's fault. When he realized I was really upset by all of this, he said he was just trying to aggravate me and that was not really how he felt. That is really how he feels because he has made many comments over the years saying the same things. I am sad and confused and mad. ![]()
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Hazel ~ You have GOT to get your kids OUT of there!!!
![]() ![]() But the fact that I stayed with that man destroyed my son. And it didn't do ME ANY good either! My self-esteem was destroyed, and I TOO became an alcoholic. I drank myself into oblivion for 20 years! He had beaten me down into thinking I was stupid, useless, worthless, unlovable, ugly, yadayada -- so I drank to ease the pain and escape. Thank God for AA -- they saved my life and I've now been sober almost 19 years. Hazel, even if you have to go to a SHELTER -- get those kids OUT of there and get an ORDER OF PROTECTION against him saying that he abuses your daughter and you!!! You CAN get one! He won't be able to come within 100 yds. of you. (or something to that efffect). You can always get your stuff from the house later when you find a place to live - and have the police come with you. BUT GET OUT. Those kids can't AFFORD to stay around him any longer. As far as "visitation" -- you can have the judge DENY that, if you can convince him that it's in the best interest of your daughter -- she may have to talk to the judge. But that's ok!!! I wish you the very best Hazel. Don't be afraid. It's always scary being on your own, but YOU'LL MAKE IT. Your kids come first! God bless. Hugs, Lee |
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