Damn it I have done it again

Why do I do this to myself....

I have binged for weeks now and have not been to the gym since 29th April. I don't have the energy to go to the gym. I didn't think I was too bad until just now.....

I went to put on a pair if jeans which I only wore last week and I not can't fit into them. They are a "medium" size in UK and I am really angry at myself for doing this. Why can't I just do the good decent thing and just not eat.

The whole point of the gym was to lose weight as my Depakote had made me add a few pounds/stones whatever it is. I am just raging now

I wish I didn't binge but I do and I always like to binge. A huge bag of crisps are staring me in the face

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Maybe you just need a hobby? Maybe you are just bored and need to find something to do with spare time i am the exact same when it comes to food you just eat and eat when i'm bored i go for a run or just listen to music or go for a walk.

hope this helps ?

I can so relate.

what are they doing there?

they are evil and should be banned

I only buy small bags. (and one bag at a time) It satisfies the craving for chips (North American for crisps) and then they are not there to stare at me.

be strong

roses

Thanks guys,

I should of went out for a walk today but I stayed in bed until after 3pm. I really have no will power. I use to have LOADS of will power before I became ill. Now I have none and its so hard to motivate myself.

Every day I promise myself I will go to the gym and I will be better but it never works.

I pigged out Friday and Saturday watching DVD's..... I go through phases where all I want to do is watch DVD's..... part of fixation between that and my Nintendo Wii lol I can't win.

I promised myself I would lose 4-5 stone at the start of the year as I was wanting to run a wee marathon for Cancer Research which takes place every year in my City..... well guess who will be walking it again. It only takes like an hour to walk it and the atmosphere is amazing. This is in under 4 weeks time. I will be fat and horrible as nothing fits me and I don't have money to go and buy bigger clothes.

I just hate who I am soooo gullible towards food.

I think I am gonna not eat anything bar 1 meal a day and that will help..... I have done this before and it has worked obviously along with exercise.

All I wanna do now is pig out as I am now angry at myself but instead I am away to clean and keep my hands busy!!!

I really caution you against doing that. Restriction and deprivation set you up for binge urges because your body wants you to survive and does not like to be starved.

Although I had a tendency to binge before I ever went on a diet the urges to binge after restricting were like nothing I have ever felt before.

Dieting is not the answer to Binge Eating Disorder.

Thanks BalancingAct,

What can I do though? No one knows about me binging nor about not eating much.... I can't talk to people about this and no one understands what its like to need to and want to do it.

I am sitting here waiting on people coming on msn but my friends are busy and I don't want to text them and ask them to chat with me as I feel I am a pain in the neck for them. They have their own issues to deal with and I know thats a complete contradictory as I am leaning on you guys but you guys kinda understand in a sense

Oh I completely understand.

I understand the lonely place you are in.. I understand the hopelessness. I understand the fear that it will keep on going indefinitely.

I believe there is two sides to binge eating. First is the physical.. which is the simple part to conquer and also the most critical..

You cannot restrict. You must eat enough.

It is recommended that you plan three meals and 2 snacks. Each snack and meal should include a bit of protein, fat, and carbs.

Eat every three hours

Those three things will allow your body to begin trusting that it will get regular nourishment and the intensity of your urges to binge will lessen.. I promise!!!

The other aspect is the mental addiction.. which I am working through myself right now... =\