Just random thoughts and a question

I used to visit this pro-ana forum. Someone there is very sick right now. She's being tube fed. I think she's dying. This made me realize how horrible EDs are.

A few months ago I was purging everyday and trying to starve myself (to no avail).

I'm on prozac now and I dunno if it's the prozac, but I haven't felt like purging for some months now. Or maybe I never really had an eating disorder.

I haven't been watching what I eat and I've gained weight. I probably gained 5 pounds. I'm too afraid to weigh myself. I'm techically still at a healthy BMI, but right now I want to lose weight again.

I'm going to try to lose weight the healthy way this time, eating 1200 to 1400 kcal a day. I'm going to try to follow the food guide.

Should i do this? or will it trigger me to binge and purge again? I haven't been counting calories at all for these months.

Anyone bulimic have any luck losing weight the healthy way?

Maybe try to watch what you eat without specifically counting calories? Go for healthfood and such perhaps? Numbers are usually very triggering, so it may be the counting process rather than the diet itself that might trigger you.
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I've watched the "pro-ana" and "pro-mia" sites for about two years as I wanted to see the poison my now ex wife was being fed. Stopped visiting about a year ago...

Please promise at least you won't visit those types of sites again...stay here - much more supportive. ED's are very dangerous physically and mentally in many ways. I'm sure you have a pretty good idea of what they can do.

Since you are on prozac - you've gone to some kind of professional? Is regular therapy visits involved? It is less about the food and more about a coping method or control. Having said that, I would still highly recommend that you have a nutrionalist help you develop a meal plan. If at all possible stay out of grocery stores at all costs; I would have someone else purchase the food and help you rid yourself of triggering foods. If you have family living with you, I would encourage you to let your loved ones know...

By the way 5 lbs - really is not that much and you indicate your BMI is still healthy - is that healthly on the low side or high side? Is it really necessary to worry about 5 lbs? Just a whole bunch of thoughts to think about.

hmm well being a bulimic, id have to say, yes. actually, i have. I have been on every dag on diet you can think of i swear. I went on the South Beach diet and it worked, the first week i lost 4 pounds. I ate everything that I was supposed, strictly follwed all the rules and guidelines. I was never tired or hungry, But i wasnt happy, it wasnt foods i like and it was too much hassel. GOod luck, some diets arent for everyone, just test try a few and see which ones fit you best

Thanks for the replies

I started to eat healthy today, but then I screwed up and ate a chocolate chip muffin, but I'm not going to beat myself over it.