[Mountaindewed]

I woke up with major anxiety and thought I needed my meds early. Then I remembered I barely ate yesterday. So I drank a Gatorade and some water and I ate a Lunchable and I feel a lot better. I need to stop thinking its always a med issue.

[MuddyBoots]

Now that I'm not killing myself with drugs, I am destroying myself by restricting/binging/purging. I just started DBT, maybe that'll help.

[Deilla]

I'm eating junk food.

[Mountaindewed]

Same not very hungry stuff. Although today I did restrict out of frustration because I am out of a food staple and it took me awhile to find an alternative that I would actually eat.

I heard someone say on a podcast that you don't mess with a big persons food and you don't mess with a smaller persons food. And I do find that to be true. I need a variety of protein snacks and shakes or I get crabby physically and mentally.

[Mountaindewed]

Everything but water has been making me anxious today. I tried eating some protein cheese crackers with my Geodon and my anxiety shot way way up. The tuna I ate earlier did the same thing. I had an iced latte today so the issue could possibly be traced back to that. But basically plain water is the only thing that isn't getting me going today. I want to drink a propel for some hyrdration and electrolytes but I'm concerned about getting anxiety from it.

[MuddyBoots]

Didn't truly binge (just had yogurt and applesauce), but purged anyway this morning. In DBT today she taught me the STOP skill and rational/emotion/wise mind skills and I think if I practice them, it'll help.

[Mountaindewed]

Food has still been making me anxious. It seems to be a physical thing. Like I get hungry and then I get anxious afterwards. It seems sort of backwards. I'm still eating though although today I did a lot of just picking at stuff.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I did something stupid and I threw out my nausea and heartburn meds this morning because after I'd take them I would get super hungry. I kept my stomach pain med though. So I haven't been hungry I've just been nauseated instead.

Hunger can nauseous. Are you sure that your nausea and heartburn don’t have any side effects that could cause the hunger?

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Food has still been making me anxious. It seems to be a physical thing. Like I get hungry and then I get anxious afterwards. It seems sort of backwards. I'm still eating though although today I did a lot of just picking at stuff.

That is understandable.

[unaluna]

I cant believe you throw out your meds so capriciously! Then again, i have 8 year old ambien in my drug box.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm not restricting really today. At least not really on purpose. I'm kinda heavy on the diet products though. In general I just haven't been hungry for various reasons including emotionally.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I'm not restricting really today. At least not really on purpose. I'm kinda heavy on the diet products though. In general I just haven't been hungry for various reasons including emotionally.

I understand how your feeling.

[MuddyBoots]

Things are not going well on the eating disorder front. I'm super anxious about going back to work even though it's the lowest-key job out there so the b/p is out of control.

[Mountaindewed]

I like my therapist a lot but she got me hooked on Mio, those flavored drops you add to water and we often spend some of our session talking about various diet foods we both eat. I'm not sure thats really helpful? Like why does she never go into a session asking me if I ate a burger instead of asking if I've tried protein diet cheese crackers.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

Things are not going well on the eating disorder front. I'm super anxious about going back to work even though it's the lowest-key job out there so the b/p is out of control.

I’m sorry that your feeling anxious. It normal to feel this way.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm drinking a lot of Mio and eating a lot of mini bags of Skinny Pop popcorn. I worked out this morning and did so many squats, dead lifts, and side bends with my kettle bell weight, that my legs felt like jello afterwards. It was a good work out though and I didn't push myself too much.

[MuddyBoots]

after yesterday (purged three times), I'm afraid to eat. All I had today so far was a protein bar after some HIIT. I'm going to be busy tomorrow so it'll probably be another day of restriction.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I'm drinking a lot of Mio and eating a lot of mini bags of Skinny Pop popcorn. I worked out this morning and did so many squats, dead lifts, and side bends with my kettle bell weight, that my legs felt like jello afterwards. It was a good work out though and I didn't push myself too much.

Sometimes I feel like that when I do different yoga.

it has been one of the worst weeks for eating ever

3 takeouts, a homemade pizza, and the rest chicken

out of said meals, only the takeouts stayed down. I'm starving!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

it has been one of the worst weeks for eating ever

3 takeouts, a homemade pizza, and the rest chicken

out of said meals, only the takeouts stayed down. I'm starving!

I’m sorry that you are struggling right now.

[Mountaindewed]

I worked out again today. I haven't been too hungry but I wouldn't call it restricting since I legit haven't been hungry.

[MuddyBoots]

I don't even want to recover. I don't mind if this kills me.

[Mountaindewed]

I thought I was spacing my food out pretty good today. But then I realized I haven't eaten anything substantial since 7:30AM and now its almost 4 and I'm wondering why I'm about to have a major panic attack. I mean, I ate pretty much fine quality wise. Just my time management sucked. Dinner is in the oven. I didn't push the workout today.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I thought I was spacing my food out pretty good today. But then I realized I haven't eaten anything substantial since 7:30AM and now its almost 4 and I'm wondering why I'm about to have a major panic attack. I mean, I ate pretty much fine quality wise. Just my time management sucked. Dinner is in the oven. I didn't push the workout today.

I haven’t really eaten today. Sometimes I forget to eat.

[MuddyBoots]

Cookies, pizza, applesauce, cereal, a protein bar-- all in a half digested pile in the woods somewhere.... it's almost scary how good at purging I've become.