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I survived the christmas party!
I came prepared. Purse with makings for tea including cup and stevia to sweeten the tea and gum in case I needed to eat/chew something sweet. At 6;30 I was hungry so Before going there I ate a slice of cheddar cheese and a handful of smoked almonds, At the party This is what I ate: a bowl of smoked cod chowder(like potato soup) 3 small slices of cheese and 2 small crackers. small orange, luscious pear, one small bite of just fair chocolate moose... (I don't know how to spell it) came home at 10;30 and ate a small bag of pop corn. I came in 3rd for the ugly christmas sweater contest. LOL and the best part: I knew almost every one there so not much social anxiety!!! We have on e more gathering to go to on tuesday nite, I already packed my silver purse with tea bags, cup etc so that is ready to go. There will be quite a few people I don't know. Yikes! I drank nothing but tea, I socialized and was not anxious, I managed to eat health foods, I did not pick at my fingers or face. It was a successful evening. ![]() bizi
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#52
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I like how you prepared for the meal. Nice going.
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#53
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Ate ok today until I baked cookies and ate 3.
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Still can't upload. Yesterday came up slightly short of 1500 but over 1400. I picked up one of my kids from a late shift and it was about 2 am Saturday morning before I got to sleep. I slept in a little, so it was like breakfast and lunch kind of merged. At the end of the day, I was eating a few things (ice cream, a banana, raisins) just to get the count up even though I really wasn't hungry. But if I let the count slip and then see the scale move, I will have a hard time sticking to eating enough to be healthy. It makes no sense for me to stall eating 1500; I know this from a practical standpoint, doing the math on how much I was losing at ~1000. Frustrating...
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Why are you frustrated Updown? Do you want to lose faster? You've been killing it, so try to be kind to yourself.
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There is a lot of emotions surrounding eating. I hope we can make healthy choices and enjoy what we choose to eat.
((((HUGS))))) bizi
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179 this morning...down 6 pounds in 2 weeks.
yeah! bizi
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My weight went back down to 178. Interesting. I am paranoid over the weight going up, for how do I manage not gaining any weight, and also paranoid about losing weight, for I already have lost too much too fast. I need to find a range in calories that will work for me, and find a way to keep to that range of calories. Hopefully I will be able to maintain my weight without counting every calorie that I consume.
I am suspicious of there being a very slim range of calories given to maintain a specific weight. I did some calculations and found that the amount of calories to maintain my current weight is not that much different from the amount at the time I was 235 pounds. For instance, the maintenance level of calories for my 178 pounds is 2037. The amount when I was 235 pounds is 2347. This is not that much of a difference, perhaps a few cookies or a couple slices of banana bread. When I was 235 pounds, I consumed many more calories than what is listed as a maintenance level of calories. I still remained at that weight with no change in my eating habits and calorie intake. I maintained that weight for years. Any thoughts? Perhaps I do not remember those days that were much closer to my maintenance calorie count of 2037? Last edited by Tucson; Dec 10, 2017 at 02:01 PM. |
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Tucson, my opinion would be to try to eat as healthy as you can and not too many sweets.Eat protein at every meal. Are you able to lift weights? This helps you to not lose muscle.
Sorry if I have not folled you in your journey. I comend you for your weight loss! and am envious. My path has finally started so I am making small steps. It will take me a long time to lose this weight. my mood is more stable now so maybe I can stick to my diet. good luck. ((((HUGS)))) bizi
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Thank you bizi. I made the mistake in making several desserts in a row. I made a mistake here in my zeal to bake in the kitchen again. My last dessert was very rich homemade pudding with a crust on top. Must be a hundred calories a spoonful. So I need to slow down allot. I am having others help me eat my desserts to keep me from eating the whole thing. So I totalled 2500 calories today. This is too much, and I am starting to gain weight. I want to keep my weight around 180 to 185. Perhaps my calorie count should be between 2100 and maybe at most 2300 a day. As a side note, it looks like the upload of images is still broken.
I am going to try to start having healthy meals, and only one small dessert a day. Today I ate canned green beans. However, I placed a slab of butter on it. I was next thinking adding grated Romano cheese. This is too much. I also must return to making salads. I have been having a yogurt smoothie a day. I need to stretch this out over a two day period to make it more affordable. I do not want return to how I ate before this, because I will eventually reach 235 again. I cannot afford to let this happen. That would be very depressing. I have lost allot of muscle. I think protien drinks would of helped. So I should soon start exersizing, not to lose weight, but build back what I have left of some of my muscle. Last edited by Tucson; Dec 11, 2017 at 01:16 AM. |
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I still weighed 183. This was especially annoying as it seemed like it was another "perfect storm" weigh in and should have been on the low side. There is no way that 1500 is my maintenance level. I do feel a bit bloated but I really expected a drop. As long as it isn't going up, I am staying the course. I am resisting what is now a string urge to do some VLC days.
Tucson - I lost a lot of muscle also. I did it by losing too quickly without exercising. I need to start getting some regular exercise. That would start moving the needle again. I like to walk, but it is dark and cold when I have the opportunity.
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I weigh 179 today, rounding up. I am sorry for mentioning the desserts that I have made. It is not the right thing to do amongst people who are trying their best to lose weight. Having these desserts available to me is not good either. I am going to have to give some away.
BTW the specialist told me he could not find the reason for the weight loss. So I will be going back to my PCP to see what is next. I find it difficult to believe that depression did this to me. @UpDownAround: I heard somewhere that a person has only a given amount a muscle cells in the body. So if I lost them, maybe I have to make due with what I have left? Not good. Not good at all. |
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I never heard such a thing. You can rebuild. Body builders bulk up all the time. It is nearly impossible to add muscle unless you are eating more than you burn and working out. I am planning to go 5 below goal and then try to build muscle getting back to goal. My psyche could not handle taking a break from the diet and doing it now; I refuse to gain back anything I have lost until I am below goal. That's why I am frustrated with my apparent stall of the last several days. I have to start exercising. I will include some barbell work to try to keep from losing additional muscle. I need to bundle up and wear my reflective gear and walk even if it is cold and dark or I need to some up with something I can and will do inside.
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It was a 2300 calorie day for me. I restricted myself to two desserts even though I am tempted to have more. Discipline, discipline. I will have to give away one of my desserts to keep me out of trouble. When I put on a few more pounds, I will start exercising. I have a good health club, LA Fitness, within walking distance. My health insurance is paying the monthly fee, so I might as well use it. It looks like the image uploading feature on this website is still not working.
PS It has been in the 70s here in Tucson. I am so glad I am out west. Last edited by Tucson; Dec 11, 2017 at 09:29 PM. |
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My goal is to eat healthier and not eat out so much. I hope to start working out when I have the energy. Today I ate out but it was Panera Bread. I have soup and had a turkey sandwich. For breakfast I did not eat some healthy. I hate turkey sausage. I ate three regular Johnsonville sausage links and two wheat toast. I’m doing better with drinking water.
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My husband told me that he thinks I have EDNOS. I have been a little obsessed with losing weight, But I don't think I have an eating disorder.
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I expected to lose no weight while waiting for my gall bladder to come out. I'm eating things with lots of calories and little that is actually healthy. But I've lost about 2 lbs. which leaves me 1 lb. short of my next goal (last hospital weight before clozapine) and 5 lbs. short of breaking 200 lbs.
It's not healthy to lose this way (not eating) but it is nice to see the loss even though I'll probably regain it since it wasn't lost healthily.
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Shiit. I really need to get my eating habits under control.
As soon as my mood plummets and I feel overwhelmed, I run out of food in the house and stop cooking or bringing lunch and that is when I start eating crap. I need to go bck to eating cleaner. Less going out to eat and more eating healthy foods in normal amounts. I feel like such a fuuck up. Can't stick to anything. Ugh. |
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Naynay99,
Be kind to yourself. Dieting is very difficult to get started and so is having the discipline to see it through. You will get there in time. Sincerely, Tucson |
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NayNay, Tuscon is right. Don't start by beating yourself up. In fact start when you are feeling fairly good about yourself because it takes patience if you are doing it right.
What worked for me was finding a diet that makes sense to me and then following it. It's not easy but it does work because it gives me structure and if I question a food I just look in my book and know if I can eat it that day or if it's a bad idea overall or if it's fine tomorrow if I watch for other things. Good luck and be gentle with yourself.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Weight is slowly coming down since not drinking. It is a great feeling!
snacked last night on some pop corn, individual bag has 210 calories,I ate 2 1/2 bags cause hubby ate some. I thought it had fewer calories. oh well. Portion control is a lot of our challenge. Keep it up everyone! better is better! bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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I binged 2 nights ago. So I'm fasting for 3 days to clear my system out again. Only water for me. This is day 2.
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How is it unhealthy?
My brother fasts for 3 days every full moon and he is one of the healthiest people I know.
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