Checking in (How do you feel today)? #3

Urgh. Things were getting so much better. I'm finally happy and have someone who cares about me AND my son, my "family" are no longer a part of our lives, and my fiancé and I are starting to plan our wedding.
Then s*** blows up with my son again. There's no reason for him to be in care, just a lying creature who I suspect is a sociopath- she sure as heck fits the criteria! So my 6yr old son gets shunted from placement to placement because "Child Protection" don't want to admit they stuffed up.
He told me yesterday that the "carer" spat on him and tried to break his leg yesterday morning.
"Child Protection" decide, at 11pm, that he can stay at home because it would be too much of a disruption to him (they almost regurgitated word for word what I'd already told them was going to happen 3hrs prior when my son was just about to go to bed for the night). Now, despite the fact that it's written in legislation, they're refusing to place my son with family, being my fiancé, and said that it's ok for my son to stay with me in an emergency but any other time they have concerns. WTF?
URGH! I'm so sick and tired of dealing with the fall out and repercussions of this stupid woman's lies. I've had enough of it constantly affecting my son and I'm sick of seeing him get physically abused by people who are supposed to be looking after him. How is him being in care with a person who hurts him better than him being at home where he is always looked after and loved???

Sorry for the huge rant. Feeling absolutely horrid today.

I do not know how I would have made it this far without you...my beloved PC friends

(((((everyone)))))

I have been up all night again I need something to knock me out

Sweet Dreams and Peaceful Sleep, (((Buttercup)))! Hugs!

I feel ok. I am in good spirits. I am happy to have a 'second job' assignment to work at a catering event today. I hate working part time at my age but when you need extra cash you just gotta do whatcha gotta do, kwim? (know what i mean?)

I'm tired cos was awake at 4am and angry/frustrated/worried aboug finances. I know i'm lucky to have a good job but paying off debt is killing me. I've got another year of living with absolutely no money for anything except survival. Plus its payday today and 200 has gone from my account that I dont even know what it is at the moment.

Sorry. I'm ranting.

I'm tired, my stomach hurts, it's cold outside, I'm cold, I'm depressed, it's a certain time of the month which makes it much worse, and I have a sore on my gum.

Is it okay to just not know?

Feel totally shattered not slept for something like 36 hours so I am going to try and get an early night, Also got diagnosis today for my daughter (ASD) I am pretty sure that I am cursed.

That feeling is back! The one where I feel like I need to escape. That depressed feeling, the anxiousness over nothing, the pit of my stomach is turning in knots. I hate this!

After 4 hours of being overwelmed with the feeling of misery, I finally feel 'flat' and a little lonely.
I pray to make up tomorrow on the other side fo the mood scale!

I'm feeling disconnected in my groups. I hate my body I'm fat and gross. I'm tired. Mom is really mixed up today and I'm worried. I got out my class binder and tried to help people. Don't know if it worked.

I'm really irritated, I've been sleeping so much with my new meds that I'm having trouble sleeping now! Ggggrrr, Oh well at least I'm not having anxiety attacks!

OK spoke to soon I guess, OK I sometimes feel like my heart skips a beat or just beats a harder than usual. It scares me but I deal with it and take bear aspirin, it helps.... Is this part of anxiety or should I mention this to my doctor? Any way I get like pains in my head also that start to freak me out like bubbles or my nerves twitch but I also was diagnosed with ice pick headaches and they start up also, really scary. I don't know why but I have a fear of having a stroke and that's why I don't sleep most of the time because I'm afraid to go to sleep! I feel like I'm crazy or am losing my mind slowly!

definitely talk to your dr!

like death run over

What does that mean?

I just woke up and started work. I feel a bit sick, grumpy, and sleepy; but coffee sometimes does wonders so we'll see.

No sleep whatsoever last night, luckily all I've been doing this past week is sleep so I'm feeling.... Alright today!

I'm in a pretty good place right now. I took a personal day yesterday. I did some housework but mostly I just indulged myself with video games and netflix. Generally laziness. Felt really good. Now it's back to the grindstone...

That's what I DID yesterday..LOL

I feel kind of relieved that the doctor's walk-in sign-in sheet was full. It means I can go back to bed and get much needed sleep before work instead of sitting in the doc's office waiting for 3 hours for a 15 minute chat. Back to bed for me after PC check in

I feel pretty,
Oh, so pretty,
I feel pretty and witty and bright!
And I pity
Any girl who isn't me tonight.

I feel charming,
Oh, so charming
It's alarming how charming I feel!
And so pretty
That I hardly can believe I'm real.

See the pretty girl in that mirror there:
Who can that attractive girl be?
Such a pretty face,
Such a pretty dress,
Such a pretty smile,
Such a pretty me!

I feel stunning
And entrancing,
Feel like running and dancing for joy,
For I'm loved
By a pretty wonderful boy!

-Fleeing Bellocq, Muse of the Mission District

Feeling good just can't sleep!

Good so far...but for me the day is just starting at 8am after work...TGIF for damn sure!