Daily Comments #6- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Grandmother wants me to find the status of a flight on the Internet for a relative of ours and she expects me to do this with neither the flight number nor the airline I am told this relative booked a flight without knowing with what airline he booked it with.

*Sigh*

Good luck, Mr. V. If you figure out how to do it. I applaud you.

I just got home from work and feel very tender in the hip and knee (right).I took my regular meds and two naproxen capsules. Hopefully that will lead to rest.

Whisper of a snow fall today, cat grooming, wondering if I'll find enough clean clothes for work today (I'm pushing my luck this week), too many memories.

It is hard to know how bad my Dad took this, that he even cried because he has always been so strong and stoic. The words of wisdom are not coming to me, instead I am fearing this may be that one loss that leads to a rapid decline. I feel so damn helpless, I hate it.

Day three of the juice cleanse. I feel like the leader doesn't want me there that I ask too many questions. Not sure if I will post there anymore. I did have a nice chat with another one of the juicers this morning.

After this shift tonight, I am off for a day. Tonight, one of my favourite coworkers is on shift with us

I can't use the Icee machine at Target.

I think I need a demo class. I know I look like a moron who is making a complete mess.

I so love the tv show american horror story :)

Lots going on.

I'm not on-line much lately. I miss spending more time here. (Today, actually, I did spend time and it picked me up a lot.) After spending 9 days staying with my S/O due to my depression and his needing help, I came home yesterday.

Today, I actually enjoyed being home by myself. That surprised me. I got some cleaning done. I have to push myself to be more active. Too much time babying myself and complaining of being incapacitated by aches and pains. I'm lucky that I'm not truly unable to do things and I must remember that.

Have a good week everyone.

I am a big college basketball fan, so I am getting excited about the games and about March Madness starting before too long. I know--probably most of you couldn't care less!

I think I'd rather be rejected than teetering back and forth wondering if someone is angry with me and wants me to go away or if I'm just imagining it.

Oh no way...me 'n you! I will be GLUED to my iphone app that lets me watch all the games for a flat $3.99. It's the only time of the year I am this much of a sports nut. I LOVE MARCH MADDNESS!!

Klonopin 3, sleep still 0

Zopiclone 2, sleep...maybe four hours

Sweet... Two hours of sleep to start the work day

Contractors working all night in the elevator and landings directly next to my bedroom. Sleep? No comment.

It is 16F out here right now. I need to go water sampling but not in this kind of cold! I really don't feel like catching pneumonia right now.

I am feeling nausea today as well as being very sleepy. I slept a lot yesterday and I should not be this drowsy. Looks like I will have to be taken off my anti-anxiety med even though I am on the lowest dose. I see the Pdoc on Thursday but am not sure that I should wait until then to stop the med. I have a lot to do today since I was down most of the weekend. I hope I can get it all done.

Feeling good & happy now... and hope it lasts till I go to bed tonight!!!!

Goin' to eat some comfort food to see if I can stuff the loneliness and crying with something

Is failing ALL that I can do?! Fail. Fail. Fail. Fail. Fail at chess, fail at arcade games, fail in school, fail with relationships, fail to be liked, fail in photography, fail, fail, fail. When was the last time I succeeded at something, damn it!

Yet it confuses others that I have come to the conclusion that I am a failure?! Based on what I see, I am either A.) a failure, or B.) I suck at everything.

Is it too much to ask to have SOME kind of redeeming, #1 accomplishment, to not always finish last or second, be mediocre, and have to come back with nothing but a "You tried" and not actually succeed in anything.

I am so useless!

Really need some help right now!