cancer and family history

On this Day July 1st , 52 years ago ,,,,,,,
The best and most caring & loving forces in the unniverse put such effort forth ,
with all their magic , and sprinkled with a dust reserved for the fairies and angels ,,,,, and You became .

Enveloped in all the grace and poise of something so Special .

Then some 23 years later ,,, I held your hand ,,,,,,,,,,,, and we spoke .




And Then >>>>.......

((((((((((((((wmd)))))))))))))))

(((wmd))) thining of you on this very difficult day.

what a lovely picture - you both loook so happy

Dear WMD,

I feel soothed in knowing Donna is with you every day. Looking down at you not missing a beat in your life. She is out of pain now! Thank God. And is experiencing so much joy, eternal happiness & bliss it's hard for us to even comprehend!!
She is fully aware of your Love for her.

I imagine she wishes the same for you!
She would be in ecstasy if she knew you were living your life here with deep joy, happiness and Love. Until you meet with her again & there will be plenty of time for that, eternity .......

All my Love,
Always in my Thoughts,
Holmes

the love you 2 had shines through in that picture......you are both beautiful.......just letting you know that you are in my thoughts..love you...

Today ,, many have reason to grieve for our nation >> 9 - 11 8 years ago

Me ??// 9 - 11 just 2 years ago ,, was when Donna drove up to the parking lot of our restuarant ,,, and told me with the negative shake of her head ,,,, the Dx ,, was cancer .....

and I walked to her car door as she opened it ,, got down on one knee ,,,,, and said : This can wait ,, You come first " ,,,

and in just a short 2 years ,, she has died ,, and I wish I could have in her place .......

so muc h has transpired since ,,,, but I STILL ,, !!!! wish to be dead ,,,,,

WMD.

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(((((I WMD))))))))

I only know Donna through you - but i know she would not want you dead dear one - she would want you to live and be happy - she would want you to carry on because she loved and still does love you - the people we love go away in body but are always a part of our hearts.

I see Donna in everything you say and do - i feel her love for you in the way you speak of her - yes you were lucky to have had her in your life - and she was very lucky to have you

(((((wmd))))

My friend, my thoughts are with you. I have been in PA for 3 months and just arrived home on Sept 10th. I stopped in for a visit and found this thread. You are very special in so many ways and I know the sadness of the loss of Donna is no doubt overwhelming at times, but my dear friend hold on to life and be brave in the face of all that is going wrong. I for one value your support and friendship on this site as well as in our phone calls.
Yes, I have been away a long time and many of my on-line friends are missing. I need to find them all again and hold hands and hearts in the effort to say that through all our hardships we lived to tell the tale. And this will give us courage to fight on...

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when i first found your thread awhile back a thought came to me that i meant to mention. have you ever thought of writing this story as a book? your love for donna is beautiful and touches so many people who read it here. just a crazy thought but i thought i would mention it.

i hope you are doing well and taking gentle care of yourself.

My mom died of breast cancer on june 10, 1992. She had ignored her body and so reported a lump, had surgery and was dead within 2 months time. She was not a fighter and i prayed she would go quick and hurt little and she did.

I'm posting here for kinda selfish reasons. I experienced a lot of abuse in chilhood, much of it sexual. It has left me very resistent toward getting proper physicals and well woman procedures. Part of me knows just how stupid i am being but the rest of me overrules my attempts to make appointments because they are so afraid of people and of the vulnerability of wearing stupid bits of paper or flimsy cotton things.

So, please do not be hung-up like i am. Take care of your bodies and get regular check-ups whenever you can. It is the right thing to do and as soon as i can work past my meltdowns over doing it i will get it done even if i have to medicate myself to do so.

My mom's death was hard on me for a lot of reasons and there are questions i will never get answers to them because she is dead and she is the last of her family that i can speak to.

I hope i have not be inappropriate, but i feel very strongly about taking care and yet i have weak spots inside where i just can't move. Be safe, it's pretty much up to you to stay safe.

Leslie

1girl ,,,, Hope your stay in Pa. was kind to you >.. welcome back home .. & T/Y .

bloom ,, ,, I have started downloading this thread into word doc and am going to title it " I wish it weren't so " ... [ and being a care giver ] .. Just downing my posts ,, as rules prolly prohibit me from useing replies .

Have 6 addys of publishers that do survivor stories books .

pix >.... Donna had lost her virginity while drugged and gang r**** at spring break ,,, and as a result never went for annual anythings till she was Dx'ed with cancer .... I understand what your saying .

Maybe you will find some outfit you like that will allow for a check-up ,, and still make you feel more in control someday ..

and there was absolutley nothing wrong with your post/reply in this thread ,, {{{{ hugs }}}} .
....... ........
WMD.

Dear WMD,

There is no deeper Joy,
no truer promise,
no greater gift,
than knowing You are,
Loved.

Love You Corky,
Holmes

dearest bc.....what a wonderful tribute to donna to put all your feelings and words together in written form...i wish you so much luck.....i know how much your story has touched me and even changed my life.....i know that so many people would benefit from your words.......God bless and love you....747

Thank You so much >> mlp .

WMD.

My butterfly >...... it is hard for me to copy paste it ,, for I glance and read it some ..... but I'll get it to my compo and print it out ... I trying .

.....and I didn't know it was an effective writing ... just thought it was sad ...

WMD.

Ya know how your brain don't miss nothing ,, although your feelings get super emotional , and your mind fixates on an event ,,,? >>> And then not until you think about it and why so difficult to even comprehend WTF and / or why ? [ confused yet ? ]

Ok ... simplier ,,, I came to accept that Donna is REALLY gone ...
For the last 12 hours I have gotten choked up and cried ,, [ like now ] ,,,
And a couple hours ago I figured it out ..... This is the 9th month since she passed .

..... and in that same 12 hour span >>> I also Realized >> she is Dead .
[ first time I have excepted this fact . ]

WMD.



February 6th, 2009 .... Rest in Peace My Love .

i will pray for the best outcome for all WMD

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i dont have words........ know that i care .....

i hope that God gives you the strength that you need....you are much loved....

Run , P7 , 747 , ophelia ,

God looked around his garden ,
and found an empty space .

Then he looked down upon this earth ,
and saw mytired face .

He put his arms around me ,
and lifted me to rest .

Gods garden must be beautiful ,
He only takes the best .

I don't know how much more I can take .
WMD.