I knew that would get your attention...





theres just one small glich though.

I really do . Im in shock so I all I know is I have to have ovaries removed and lymph nodes looked at

on Monday.

So Im doing what the doctor told me to do

thats let people in my life who know me know.

Sure and glad I haled my hiney in sooner than the july seventh apointment they said I coud have

I guess when I said Okay Ive been in pain for almost two months .If you want me to wait one more month and I have cancer ..you will be hearing from me..

guess this time it was okay to ask to be heard and for consideration...

Patricia

[bebop]

good luck on monday hon. I had my ovaries and uterus removed when I was 24. I will be thinking about you.

[Fuzzybear]

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers
Please keep us updated, we care

[Junerain]

Patricia it seems that bad things happen to good people...you have been such, such an inspiration here....I am going to be thinking of you a lot....wishing you God's speed in a complete recovery...love, deep love to you

[notz]

[NuckingFutz]

patricia, we are here for you. I am glad you went in early! Stay brave!

((((((((((((((((((((patricia))))))))))))))))))))))))

that must be really scary. Good for you for taking care of yourself and insisting you be seen sooner rather than later.

Breathe. Post. Talk.

Lots of

[Rhapsody]

You will be in my thoughts......

[Naturefreak]

((((patricia))))

You are a strong person . I will say a prayer for you
Take good care of yourself

[wierb]

Originally Posted by auroralso

I knew that would get your attention...





theres just one small glich though.

I really do . Im in shock so I all I know is I have to have ovaries removed and lymph nodes looked at

on Monday.

So Im doing what the doctor told me to do

thats let people in my life who know me know.

Sure and glad I haled my hiney in sooner than the july seventh apointment they said I coud have

I guess when I said Okay Ive been in pain for almost two months .If you want me to wait one more month and I have cancer ..you will be hearing from me..

guess this time it was okay to ask to be heard and for consideration...

Patricia

I am sorry for you that you have this problem good luck with your operation lots of love
wierb

[Rmdctc]

I hope all goes well and you get better soon. Good luck with it all and let us know how you are doing.

[(JD)]

Wishing you peace in the midst of trials!

[wierb]

I hope all goes well and you get better soon. Good luck with it all and let us know how you are doing
lots of love
wierb

[I_WMD]

also ,, I [ as well as many IRL and here at P/C ] am glad you Pushed back at the Docs ,,, and got in ASAP !

.

.
WMD.

[Christina86]

Omigosh, I really am sorry. That's horrible. I hope the operation/procedure/medical stuff goes okay!!

Thank you all. these responses are so kind. I was just reflecting on that it was a woman who emailed me in private to respond to a concern about a medication I had of hers and she shared she had a cervial caner scare . This was right at the time I began noticing the pain and that lead to me wonderig if I should be concerned . her mentioning it was intregal to a wake up call for me . So Im amazed at how these little commings and goings between us here o the internet matter.

I have been trying to voice my concerns to a Phone friend who has consitantly brushed me off.
This hurt so much that I did not tell Him I was having further testing.
he did not call me a all to follow up.
I got hurt and angry . and finnally said I was waiting for results . plus my dog is very ill. I got the same brush off t that his work was more important.
well he was the first perso I callled . and he ended up saying.

well other peole have this surgery all the time .. And Im not gonna be concerned till I know what funeral parlor to send flowers to .

it was the meanest nasty thing I have ever herd. Im not sure if thats from him or from a mutaul friend of his .

they both hate me now ..

My therapist made an emergency appointment for me and we tried to figure out how I was going to clean my cluttered apartment get my clients caught up my dog taken care of

have that vacation I have not had in 20 years and get laid . since its been along time ... all of this before Monday .

So ...

my eyes hurt .

WMD.... thank you . you can come cook and clean for me , yes?
I have ADD and sometimes OCD .is that okay?

Patricia

oh I thought I had this in here.. Bebop, can I pm you with a question?

Sending you Tinkerbell. She brings you healing, trust and pixie dust.

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

Sending you Tinkerbell. She brings you healing, trust and pixie dust.

Thank you Orange.
I have been watching walt dizney movies lately. A couple of days ago I watched the lion king. yesterday Pinichio for the first time .

I just came on here because as i was trying to fal alsleep I had a visual of mt brother red faced angry and naked and Jing off with this look of glee on his face that I have cancer.

It was very vivid .. The doctor told me to cal him and let him know .. I didn't tell her he was my abuser. He has not called me back
Im feeling abandodned by the male friends in my life They all know and no one has come forward ..

except for ome man In my EA support group . Hes a married man and ghe is the kindest funniest man . And he retuurned my call . and said to call him any time. and he even remebered and actaully reminded me I went for a test . i fact the day he asked me was the day the doctords were trying to reach me. that was Monday.

I have only loved these men .. I was only kind .
and now when I need these men they are not here and it really hurts.

[nightbird]

(((aurora)))

Please, if you can, focus on yourself at this time, and what your medical team that you will be assembling have in store for you and your recovery.

You will have more support than you ever dreamed possible now,
with the cancer community out here IRL and your friends at PC and elsewhere, as they will appear.

Don't worry about friends coming forward, as most people close by don't really know how to handle such news, or difficulties.

You are the most important person right now, so I would concern yourself with what you will be doing next... try not to look back, or distract yourself with what others do or don't. It's good to share this, but try not to dwell, okay Sweetie.

I hope all goes well. I am sorry your biopsy came back with the words we all dread to hear.

I hope you heal from this, and as you stay in touch with your feelings, and join in the support your community has available for you ~ for free... you find peace.

You might also find that the language of cancer patients, with all the difficult processing ahead, can be even more powerful for you than those who disappoint you now, when spoken by other women who have been there... so hang in there and I hope you look for support in your area, as soon as you can.

It was one of the best things I have ever done.

Learning to live in this world with cancer is a new path, one you can fill with hope and love and healing, while letting go of any expectations on others because as we now know, expectations aren't real, it's just some thoughts in our head.

Peace and grace and calm moments ahead, I wish for you ~
You will get thru this,
Night
xoxo

p.s. there is a forum for surviving cancer here, you can access thru my profile, that has lots of info regarding current cancer resources, books that inform and support, and recent research as well as what dietary needs you can meet now. it's available to anyone needing info, and to add anything they want to. Please avail yourself, if you would like to...

xoxo

[I_WMD]

also ,, I was first going to suggest ,, [ And Im not gonna be concerned till I know what funeral parlor to send flowers to .

it was the meanest nasty thing I have ever herd. Im not sure if thats from him or from a mutaul friend of his .

they both hate me now .. ]........these may just be the kind of negative mindsets you could do with out ,, IMO.

Now as far as ??? [WMD.... thank you . you can come cook and clean for me , yes?
I have ADD and sometimes OCD .is that okay? ].....

Anything's posssible .
WMD.

[Rachie]

Im so sorry to hear! You're a strong woman you will get thru this fine! I wish you a speedy recovery. Good luck lovely, ill be thinking of you

much love, Rachelle xoxoxo

[Junerain]

We of PC are real people, cyberspace or not, and perhaps know how deeply we care, and that is true and real. How is your dog doing? Shout out to your dog. Shout out to you & how beautiful you are

Hug hug hug to you

Nightbird...

I do not want to go down this path...

I see the surgeon tommorrow and I do not want to ask questions.

in onther words.

Im scared.

thank you for your strong words. women with cancer have been all around me in real life since December. i guess there was a reason...

Junerain,
today is my dogs 14 birthday.

shes losr more weight and is not eating

the first boarding place i checked turned me away because my dog was old and had health problems and they didn't want to be bothered with an emergencey vet.......

I went to a near by vet I had taken her to when she was a puppy. A woman there helped me write down the steps I needed to do in order to get my girl kenneled .

I did just what she said exactly . and I got her in to Papered pets where they said they had baby food. ( lol) and I clould bring what ever people type food she might be willing to eat.

and she got her boarding shots. just in time . they are all full for the fourth of july. lucked out again.

I just got everything done under the wire . five days for the bordetella.
so shes all set .

now what Im really balking at is how to tell my massuse , my manicurist and harir colorist.. that I have to cancel for next week...

Anything's posssible .
WMD.

I havent a clue whats ahead WMD .. its all in Gods hands now.

my adress is... X-D

Rachie .. Im palnning on bieng back to work in two weeks Im not even telling my customers . just that Im gona be gone next week .

thank you all .. so much...

Patricia

today I was thinking.. .. I do have one question for the ask the doc session tommorrow ...

, I do like to combine procedure when ever possible ..

so would you mind if I had Anthony my private plastic surgeon on board since your opening my abdomen?

I was thinking an augmentaion through the navel and finishing up with a tummytuck ..
what do you think?

[January]

I am so sorry this is happening to you. This is the time to be very pro-active in your care and I'm delighted to see that you have done that by pushing for an earlier appointment.

If you can, try to surround yourself with positive, loving people. Please draw on the strength of all of us here at PC. We care.

Originally Posted by January

I am so sorry this is happening to you. This is the time to be very pro-active in your care and I'm delighted to see that you have done that by pushing for an earlier appointment.

If you can, try to surround yourself with positive, loving people. Please draw on the strength of all of us here at PC. We care.

Thank you . january.

I had not been to see a doctor in three years . And what got me to go was to look into getting medication for adhd.

that led me to not being able to get help because of one phych doctor.

the doctor after that failed attempt to get help said.

well theres nothing pressing .

we can do the routine health exams in a month or so just schedual an appointment .

so .. i canceled the one I had set up which was in one week because of her sayig it was not pressing .

so it was another two months I think before i got in . and even though when she did the exam and i was in extreem pain and bleeding . and she saw a growth .

when the pap came back normal . ..

well lets just say . I got no call form the doctor or anyhting about anything.
So a week after the pap results i called and said you know Im in pain and bleeding.
so they got me in and then they desided i should have the sonogram .

again waiting quite a while ..

for the appointment . and then to get the results.

so I get the results from the doctor and he tells me OBGYN will be calling to et up an apointment

so in two days Im sitting at my phone checking my caller ID .
hey a number from the university. i redail it .

good morning OBGYN..

I say umm I found this number on my phone ,
she said oh yes we had a cancelation..

they did not leave a message on my machine.

so Im sittng there and say well... I guess I need an apointment.

and she said July 7th. which was another month .. I ask if theres anything sooner .

she said No but you can go out and try to find another doctor.

welll , No I can;t because I do not have insurance and Im on a sliding scale only available at the university.

I did not say this to her it was in the back of my mind though. andn I t came to me after I hung up the phone.

before i hung up I said

in a concerned yet steady voice . i said its been quite a while now . and its my body and no one knows whats going on yet . So Il take the july 7th but if I have cancer you will be hearing from me .

So that got me in in one week .
and I had to wait at that appointment
because the doctor was called for emergency surgery.

so It was a two hour wait. . I had my knitting along.. thank goodness.

cancer shawl for someone else.. LOL!!!!!!!!

so I get the exam and the doctor says we dont have to do the needle biopsy now because thats not gonna be difinitive . you need a DNC . onlt them will I be satified its not cancer .

she left it up to me ,

I said give me a bullet to bite on ..GO FOR IT. !!!! ( manged to only say I want to swear right now .)

LOL!

I loved this doctor .. she is the neatest woman ..but shes not doing the surgery . she is one exceptional woman ..
so I believ Ill meet another one today.

I think these women doing this work are special ..and they are swooping in right now caring for me .. and im thankful they are getting me in right away .. very . I want it out today .. and Im fortunate to have this right down the street and not have to drive miles or relocate .
and there is a new cander center being built here and doctors coming in from all over for poeple . so Im realy VERY fortunate . very

Now to find out how Im going to pay for this.... I have to ask that question.

im now torn about the finacial responsibilty factor.

Patricia

january , the being pro active .... you realy do have to yell pretty loudly at the university. they have SO MANY people coming in and out . Innundated . and you have to be patient . and its a tough cal to know whos in ne and wh is not ..
ive always been very healthy ..

they did find eleveated liver .... I m hoping that does not mean something serious.

Its VERY easy to fall into the cracks .
and i tend to just say .. your the boss.

this time something told me to not do that.
.