Bad day...need to vent

Sometimes I wonder, "WHY ME"
I am at a job that I once loved, but my coworkers have really made it miserabe for me. My hours have been cut to nearly non existing, and I don't know how much more of the back stabbing I can take. They want me to quit, but I refuse. The boss doesn't like me, and that is all that it amounts to. Can't say that she is my favorite person, either, but I have people to take care of, and if not for them, I would have put in my resignation a long time ago. To think that that would be enough, I received a letter from my Dr. today, and I have to go in for a procedure-biopsy, and may need surgery.
I guess that most people would be able to handle the load, but I don't do good with stress, and all I have been able to do is cry this afternoon. My husband is upset, because he just doesn't know how to handle it when I cry. I can't help it. I am so scared, and I am tired..It is a beautiful day outside, but I can't even bring myself to step foot outside right now. Thanks for listening...I really needed to get that off of my chest, and don't feel that I have anyone to turn to right now.
(((to all)))
inthedark

Hi inthedark,

I am sorry you are going through all this I hope that venting helped a little, and please post as often as you need to. We are here for you. Maybe someone will have some advice, and we are all good listeners ...

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P.S. My husband can't handle it when I cry. He feels that he needs to "fix" it.

inthedark,

You have a lot of stressful things happening to you right now, it's no wonder you're feeling the way you are. Sounds like you could use some understanding and a whole bunch of TLC today. We guys tend to get upset when we get faced with things we don't understand, never dawns on us to ask questions. Kinda like asking for directions I think. Maybe just let him know it would be a big help if he would just listen and offer a shoulder?

Vent with us all you need to. It's a good place for that, and I hope the day gets better, or at least not any worse.

Big hug,
bp

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."

Hi, I'm so sorry you're having a bad time of it. Don't know what to say except maybe that you could look for a similar type job after the holidays? I don't know... it's so awful when jobs go sour.

As for your crying... it's okay. Tears are cleansing. I know what you mean about the men in our life not being able to cope with it. Maybe if you told your hubby that if he just held you and told you it will all work out would be a way of "fixing" it. Men are wired to "fix" things and when they can't or don't know how, they get frustrated. They don't realize that they don't always have to "fix it," we can do it ourselves, usually, after a good cry in the arms of our man.

Thank you very much ((fuzzybear, bptoo, ozzie, septembermorn)) The cyber hugs are wonderful. I am really feeling better now. I get this way sometimes if I have too many negatives all at once. Things will be okay, and my hubby survived my tearfulness
I did get hired part time at another job, so hopefully I will start that soon (not guaranteed any hours right now, though) , and when a full time position opens, I can finally resign from my current job. It will be difficult to leave my "comfort zone" as I have been with current employer for over 10 years.
As far as the medical part, I am not sure what is going on yet, so I'm just trying not to think about it right now.
Thank you all for the ear and all of the kind words. It is nice to know that there are such caring people here.
Inthedark