[Ackman12]

At my last appointment, my doctor told me this.

"With your acute psychosis episodes becoming more frequent, i.e. your kingdom, Emily, Rose, the Bukater family. I will have no choice but to have you institutionalized, possibly for an indefinite period of time. Nothing seems to work on you. I think it's best if you would enter an institution. There we could watch you and make sure you don't delve off into your little world. I want you to think about it however. By your next appointment, I want you to have your mind made up. I'm hoping you will see the light of your actions."

I don't want to go to my next appointment with him. I need help, but not like how he's talking. Institutions are for the really bad folks. I need to go to the hospital, but since I work for a Wal Mart company, they'd fire me. They don't like people with mental illnesses. So I can't go to the hospital, plus my parents won't allow me. I have to suffer this way. I'll probably end up taking my own life since they won't let me go get help.

Wow. What an awful doctor, it seems like he talks down at you like a criminal. "I'm hoping you will see the light of your actions."
Institutions aren't necessarily for bad people. They could be a place that helps you, you aren't a bad person! If you feel like you have/want to go, maybe talk to your parents about how it could benefit you as you are feeling suicidal.
I never knew Walmart was like that.

I wish you the best of luck, and I'm sorry I couldn't have been more helpful.
~ WTTJ

[splitimage]

Wow - talk about a Dr. with no bedside manner - that's no way to put it.

But I am going to make a bit of a counter argument, if he really believes you should be in a hospital because your symptoms are getting worse, it's something to consider. I've been in the hospital twice for mental illness - once I went in for an indefinite period and wound up being discharged after 8 weeks. Both stays really helped me get stable, and get my meds sorted out. There was some group therapy every day except weekends and I got to see my pdoc, almost every day. Both times probably saved my life.

If you really are thinking about killing yourself, then a hospital is probably a good place to be.

Please stay safe.

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[ECHOES]

A second opinion would be helpful. Can you see another pdoc to help you?

[lizardlady]

Hospitals aren't for "bad people". They are a place to be safe while you get help. If you are thinking of killing yourself it might be the best place for you for a little while. You can get therapy and the docs can work on getting your meds right to help you.

your life is important. more important than wal-mart and more important than your parents. your emotional problems sound serious and, according to your doc, are getting worse. it's time to get better! i have been in mental hospitals and there are worse places. you are worth the extra care they provide. please listen to your pdoc and look forward to getting better! you are worth it!!

[IceCreamKid]

Hold your horses, and let's not have any of that suicide talk. Please go to your next appointment and discuss what you have said here with the doctor. Doctors will prescribe what they see as the most efficient, effective treatment, but often without considering the total picture (I had a nice doctor prescribe a wonderful, effective drug for me -- that I could not afford!) So go to your next appointment and tell your doctor that losing your job is NOT good for your mental health and ask him to explore other options with you.

[shezbut]

I can understand your fear, Ackman 12.

I've been hospitalized once as a teenager (for a few months), which then changed to a lower-keyed inpatient residency for another 6 months.

As an adult, I've been hospitalized a few times. These hospitalizations ranged from 2 weeks to 2 months.

I haven't regretted my decisions made to turn myself in. Sometimes, it took a little while to come up with the right medication combo. We also had to boost my self-esteem, and teach me self-affirmations.

Every once in awhile, my symptoms are too strong to simply maintain one-hour per week T visits. Those are miserable times for me. Suicidal ideation occurs more often, more strongly, etc. Those are times when I need more help to get me through. I can't be a very good mom when I'm so depressed and hopeless...and I don't want to make my children's lives any tougher than I have already. That's when a hospital visit is absolutely necessary for me.

Newer laws have made hospitals a lot more comfortable and supportive than they used to be. Throughout the weekdays, psych doctors are seen daily on their rounds. You're encouraged to give feedback. There are usually lots of support group meetings on weekdays/weeknights too. Other residents of the unit/s are very supportive and kind. They're normal people, just like us. They're just having a real tough time continuing with their lives right now. Weekends are more relaxed, making time for more visits and crafts. I really can't complain about my hospitalizations in the past 5 years.

I'd recommend giving your T's idea very serious consideration. It's a lot better to go into the hospital on your own will, rather than being sent by a court of law!

[Ackman12]

Originally Posted by unhappyguy

your life is important. more important than wal-mart and more important than your parents. your emotional problems sound serious and, according to your doc, are getting worse. it's time to get better! i have been in mental hospitals and there are worse places. you are worth the extra care they provide. please listen to your pdoc and look forward to getting better! you are worth it!!

I can't get an LOA(Leave Of Absence) yet because I haven't been there a year. They'll fire me, I know they will. I can't go to the hospital, especially after what happened the second time I was there. I'm scared to go there, the nurses, the techs they'll all make fun of me. They did the second time I was there, they would taunt me by saying things like "You couldn't stay away from here, could you?" It made me feel like crap. So I'm apprehensive about going there.

[Umbral_Seraph]

Wal-Mart is the devil and that Pdoc is an *****; seems like he's got a bit of an ego...

Despite that, please consider going. You sound like you really need someone to help you. Keep in mind that you can choose the doctor you see.

[gma45]

Hi Ackman12 I am sorry you are having a hard time. I hope you do what is best for you. I would let your Dr. know what you are feeling about going back to hospital. Do you feel that the last two times you were there they helped at all? Maybe a second opinion is not a bad idea? Walmart can be a very stressful place. I just hope and pray that you get feeling better. I am here if you want to vent. peace be with you!

[BlackHoleKid]

Hey, that doctor isn't all-knowing or as brilliant as he thinks he is, but you need to do whatever it is you need to do to stay alive and healthy. Even if you lose your job. It may take a while, but you'll find another one eventually.
Find another doctor who isn't a creep, and do whatever it takes to get yourself in better shape again. I'll be praying for you.

[InTheShadows]

Hi there,

So, I had a job where I had only worked there for 8 months and needed to go to the hospital. I went and was there for almost a month. Even though I didn't qualify for the MFLA (Medical Family Leave Act) the company still adhered to it. Now it wasn't walmart so IDK. You may want to private message onward2wards, he also works for walmart. He may be able to give you some insight into company policy.

You can also make an advance directive before you go. What the advance directive is, is a document that is legally binding to the medical profession that dictates your care. You can put in it that you refuse to go to certain hospitals, refuse certain medication, etc. I've done that and it was a good choice.

I hope you get help before you give in.

Q

[RunningEagleRuns]

Have you tried many meds? Read my signature.

[InTheShadows]

Originally Posted by RunningEagleRuns

Have you tried many meds? Read my signature.

I would like to add as well, that if you are buying generic psych meds the law allows them to be +/- up to 25% of the actual dosage on the bottle. So, if you're prescribed 100 mg of MedX and you take the generic, you could be only getting 75mg of the med.

That info came straight from the mouth of my psychiatrist.

Q

WOW! I'm so sorry your P doc was so...blunt, to put it mildly. If he's talking institutionalization, why aren't your parents involved. (Are you a minor?) Job wise there is a mandate called reasonable accomodations. It means if you tell your supervisor what your illness is (Don't have to go into detail) the company is required to make accomodations for you. If that means a leave of absence, so be it.
Not all hospitals are awful and you can choose where you go IF you do it voluntarily. Staff people who belittle you are IMHO the cruelest of people.
I would go to the next appointment, with a family member or close friend. Listen to what the P doc has to say and offer your own opinion. The advance directive is a great idea. Good luck. This will get better. and it isn't worth suicide at all. You are more important than that.

[Ackman12]

I don't want to go to Mercy again. I'd rather go to Centerpointe, because they let you smoke, but the bad thing is, is that my pdoc is based out of there.

You have a right to a second opinion and to change doctors. Do what is right for you; you're the one that counts here.

[Ackman12]

I really don't want to see him.