She's gone, seems I should have listened

Hello (((Wisewoman))). I am sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself during your time of need. Soidhonia

I broke all of the rules today by talking. I talked first with a therapist who was going to start treating my baby this month. I soke further to the oversight agency who was going to type up what I said and email it to the director of local agency. I even broke the rules so way much further by saying we were verbally and emotionally abused and that these people had no caring as to how the little babe was doing. She is still with sib but therapist says it will explode due to severity of attachment disorder. I guess I opened a bag that could drag me to hell today. I am already in hell. No fun.

The important thing is that you are doing what you think is best.....I don't feel there are rules when a persons well being is at stake.....you are doing what you feel is needed to be done. I agree that people who do things wrong should answer for what they do.

I am still trying to figure out how to approach the social workers at the hospital where my Mother was.....when they wrote down all the correct buz words, making it sound like there were doing everything....when they never had actions to follow up the words. People should be held accountable for their actions....especially when those actions & their jobs effect so many people at such a deep level.

Hopefully by pointing out what happned, those at a place that can do something will be able to help her now.

You are still caring for you & looking out for her best interest....it may not get her back with you, but hopefully they won't hurt her any more than she is.

Debbie

im a great believer that rules are sometimes made to be broken wisewoman and in this case i think from what you ve said that you broke them for the right reason. once we do what we truly believe is best for all having thorught it over then i think those actions should be respected. i personally think you did well.
defending the health and well being of someone else can never be wrong.
more power to you wisewoman. you are a good person,

Thanks You two. I don't know if anyone will even care, no-one called my spouse yesterday as agreed upon. I am living hell. Hell is here on earth and here I am. I never thought that I had ever done anything that evil. Time to review and see who has been hurt by my actions. Also time to sleep as it's that or suicide sometimes. Just keep me sleeping.

hon have they said why they took her? was tpr already done? I am really sorry you are going thru this. (((hugs)))

wisewoman please tell your T, gp or someone how you are feeling at the moment. no one should have to feel as bad as you do and certainly not have to deal with it alone. you are cared about and deserve help.
please take care and be gentle with yourself.

(((((((((( ww ))))))))))))

You are not evil at all. You are a caring, loving person who does her very best to help brighten the world. Please talk to your t, your pdoc or your gp about what has happened and how you're feeling about it.

Hugs,

Jan

Well, I am awake and so sad. I took over a large load today of her things. They took my baby because it wasn't a "good fit" after 11 months they decide this. Seems to me that they had her placed here to make it look good for the TPR to get done and then switch her to somewhere else. Poor little %#@&#! moved around so much. She doesn't deserve it. I have talked with her would have been new therapist and I am seeing doc tomorrow. My T tomorrow. My baby! She was starting to really love me. I love her so much. I snuck out at midnight with her blankies just out of the wash and a care bear that was on hubbie's bureau. In my nightie and a jacket,. I forgot that she would not know how to call us because I changed my phone number when dcf kept bugging me. She will be happy there for a little while and then the flames will start. I have to go take a lot of drugs right now. Just need the sleep. awake and aware is too much.

please be careful of yourself wisewoman. be honest with your T tomorrow and tell her you really need help getting through this. i am worried about you.

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... If it is causing you this much distress, what they ask, what you feel you need to do, then it just isn't the right thing for you, is it?

Step back and reevaluate, please. ... It does no good to destroy things that help you deal with life, with what you like to do, that might change your attitude and ability to cope in the future.

At the very least, reconsider that such conflict might be trying to tell you there is someone else you can help, maybe, instead of this one.

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I think this bears repeating. It's from another thread that you started, WW.

I am now being investigated as a child abuser. oh yea, that's me, that is what will tip my pot, I will appeal and appeal any such decision but if they can't see the wonderful truth then who cares about my life with a label like that.

We all know they can't touch you there, WW! But please, don't stop learning, don't stop growing. It's at these difficult times that the best lessons are learned.

oh for crying out loud!! there are so many people they should actually be investigating why do they waste time so badly in investigating people who are only guilty of caring!?!?! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
im so sorry this is happening wisewoman. from what you posted it makes sense in retrospect that they are investigating you because people have gone insane about appropriate and inappropriate boundaries, outlawing all kinds of caring, important, comforting, soothing, loving touch in their paranoia. this is so wrong you are being subjected to this. i so hope they cop themselves on very quickly and realise what eejits they re being and how badly they have treated both you and the poor girl!

oh biiv, here we have it. They have theses thousands of kids waiting, needing s home and many won't do it because it feels like your bringing a microscope into your home to focus on your self.

So I find out through my attorney and her calls that what I am getting is a licensing investigation. If I can get through this without losing my license the we get ask for my kiddo back. I want her so badly. There is hope that I can live now. aaaaaaaaaai want my kiddo.

hey that sounds like good news! theres a chance she can go back with you! thats great!!
i will be keeping my fingers crossed and sending positive thoughts that these people come to their senses and see what a mess they ve made so they can fix it and send her back!
good luck!

Not doing well with this at all. got in trouble with licensing because I never put my PTSD on the application. It feels so private and I do not want anyone to know, So I lied on the application. I am so scared, if we lose license I still fight but I am pretty crazy right now. Very crazy. can't give details but I am so sad I can't stand it.

((((((((((((( wisewoman )))))))))))))

(((((wisewomen)))

lots of love to you!

Oh (((WW))) I'm so sorry to hear that things seem to be compounding in your life. I do hope they square away. Please reach out to those who know you IRL and can assist you with some of this stressful activity.

Maybe it is time for a change. OOOOOooo I know that is scary and right now you may not know of anything else you all can do... but your health is most important in the long run, and this avenue just seems to dig you in deeper.

Please take care.

compounding, man these guys want to know your shoe size. How many people have not had the entire truth on there apps? A lot of politics mixed in here. How do I stop loving my little girl and simply move on? The one who depends on me?

You never stop loving, but we all move on for the greater good. (((hugs)))

I am so very Wisewoman that you have to go through this, and the little one, too. Please take care of yourself.