I'm unable to be a teenager , the life isn't me, this life isn't me....

I'm 17 as most know, my problems have always been before my time. As of late, I've said "I'm going to be free" , "I'm going to be a teenager". My T keeps asking me "would a girlfriend help"? I've explored this stage but have only been heart broken to find out I'm not what any girl I'm intrested in wants. I've been an adult in a young body all my life, the struggles seem unbareable because I've not had the experience with some of the things I've faced.

Now turning into a teenager, right before I become an adult ,...seems impossible. I've never fit in at school at all. I tried speaking with a girl I found physically attrative my first t hought was "this is wrong to like someone for their body first"....mostly all the women I've been attracted to where online and I saw their personality first. I got my heart broken trying to fix my life. They say life is to short, so I took in control and accepted to live it, ppart of life is heart break, I've just experienced it.

I often see teens at my school making out, I want that I want to experience love, sexuality, when I'm young so I'm not old when I learn from my mistakes. Alot of my teachers are very immature , in fact its depressing. I have one who his password to his PC is 2 girls in class in which flirt with him, he has been rumored to have slept with 1 girl in the past that was a minor. My teachers also make us average our own grades, they're too lazy to do their job, heck itts just worksheets , nothing like a lecture at all....

I'm sorry I'm ranting but this teenage life....doesn't cut it....I've been an adult and a teen...both miserable......I must find an angel..........

A way.........

I'm 18 now, but when I was 16 and 17 I found myself wishing my teenage years away. Like you, I hated school - I'd had bad experiences making friends (and in my final year I didn't have anyone at school I considered a friend at all, just some acquaintances), and I didn't feel I fit in. I didn't go out at night, I'd only ever had one "relationship" (if you could call it that), and I spent most of my time at school by myself.

Turns out, though, that when you turn 18, you may legally become an adult, but you don't stop being a teenager! There's still time to experience things you feel you missed out on at school. Since I started university, I may not have found a boyfriend (still early days yet, though ), but I have started going out some evenings, and although it can be hard, there have been times when I've actually felt like I fit in, which very rarely happened during school.

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that even though you don't feel like you can be a teenager during school, school isn't your only time to be a teenager. 18 and 19 are teenage years as well! And the people you meet at those ages will generally not be the ones you already know, so they won't judge you - you'll have a clean slate.

Not sure I've been much help, but I hope you feel better soon.

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While im not really the best with words, i'd like to let you know that i'm/we're here for you.

melissa

We are here for you if you need anything. I'm not the best with words but if you need anything just let us/me know.

dustin......an angel will come into your life and you be ok..promise.....

i really understand what you're saying moonkin... its so cool to have a place like this to come find friends and support and people who show they care... in my teenage years there wasn't anything like it...

one of the responses mentioned that its never too late to be a teen... i just wanted to add to that... theres a town near where i live called Nederland. the locals have re-named it affectionatley to Neverland.

its a place you can find full grown adults still enjoying the feeling of youth... it's happened to me too... im 44 and at times i feel 16...

im not saying one shouldn't act their age, in fact its important that when the chips are down we all behave as adult as we know... maybe that is whats happening to you now... you feel the pressure and strain of your emotions and you are trying to deal with it the way you believe an adult would... a very mature response to a troubling situation...

don't worry, you will have time to enjoy life at every age... but i understand the sense of loss you might feel... it is a sad reality... try not to let it beat you... when you've worked your way thru some of the downs about being who you are now you will be able to see their true values also...

teens are harsh.. it takes alot to fit in anywhere with teens cos they are mostly so preoccupied with societies trends of whats hot and whats not
as rio said once out of there u may find a place to fit in
i have always felt i missed out on an innocence only being a child allows but that times past and im here now and finding ways to live in the moment and enjoi it as much as i can
heres hoping u can find joy in ur day
(((moonkin))))

THANK YOU ALL SoOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!

Lots of Luv!
Dustin

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dusty i know what u mean, to be honest i didnt realise you were still a teen.
i can sympathise with your way of thinking alot, and have. the teacher slept with a pupil? please say i got the wrong end of the stick here, thats interfering with professional boundaries. i think your teachers are on the wrong side of immaturity there. feel free to chat with me anytime u like. i know it is hard to see things from an adult angle at your age, as you cant truly enjoy the things that most do as a kid. im sure one day you will find something to help you. as for me, i cannot wait to become an adult. but at times i can be extremely childish. IMO, most peoples childhood is childish and great because of their niaevete (sp?) and it sucks that u cant just lock up your knowledge for a few hours and just have fun.
take care hunni
self

Moonkin,

That is way wrong that your teachers are using the student's name, who flirt with him as passwords.

I'm truly sorry they are providing such an inferior education experience for you.

The teen years are just such a tough time for everyone who journeys through them, I don't know if anyone ever feels like they belong in the settings they find themselves.

I think life typically includes quite a bit of heartache, but there are happy times too.

Keep believing -- especially in yourself.

Will you be going to college?

EJ

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dusty i know what u mean, to be honest i didnt realise you were still a teen.
i can sympathise with your way of thinking alot, and have. the teacher slept with a pupil? please say i got the wrong end of the stick here, thats interfering with professional boundaries. i think your teachers are on the wrong side of immaturity there. feel free to chat with me anytime u like. i know it is hard to see things from an adult angle at your age, as you cant truly enjoy the things that most do as a kid. im sure one day you will find something to help you. as for me, i cannot wait to become an adult. but at times i can be extremely childish. IMO, most peoples childhood is childish and great because of their niaevete (sp?) and it sucks that u cant just lock up your knowledge for a few hours and just have fun.
take care hunni
self

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UNforunatly yes....he "supposedly" slept with a girl a couple years ago, but from seeing his behavior I wouldn't doubt it.

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EJ711 said:
Moonkin,

That is way wrong that your teachers are using the student's name, who flirt with him as passwords.

I'm truly sorry they are providing such an inferior education experience for you.

The teen years are just such a tough time for everyone who journeys through them, I don't know if anyone ever feels like they belong in the settings they find themselves.

I think life typically includes quite a bit of heartache, but there are happy times too.

Keep believing -- especially in yourself.

Will you be going to college?

EJ

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Yes I plan on going to college to be a therapist myself =).

I delayed replying on purpose. You needed to hear that some of what is going on in your school isn't appropriate behavior. But I think now you are ready to hear that a lot of what you are going through IS part and parcel of being a teenager.

The teen years are those tough years between being a child and being an adult. We all go through it (well, most of us, there are some adults who haven't matured yet.)

During that time of growth, our minds and bodies are both growing. We want to stay a child, enjoy the fun things, not have responsibilities, stay protected and cared for. We also want to be an adult, be treated like an adult, be allowed to make our own choices, and similar responsibilities.

But as a teen, most ppl just aren't ready to be an adult. That's one reason why teachers have you grade your own or each other's papers. That why they make you do things that you would think are a teacher's responsibility: to help you assimilate into an adult world where things are not all done for you.

There's usually confusion as a teenager. Mixed emotions about who you are, what you are, who you should be and how your peers view you. There's always doubt about how good you are and whether anyone will ever love you. It is all normal.

I'm glad you have PC to help you get through this time, and I'm sure you will find many other teens here who are going through the same stuff. You can all safely traverse the path together here.

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I delayed replying on purpose. You needed to hear that some of what is going on in your school isn't appropriate behavior. But I think now you are ready to hear that a lot of what you are going through IS part and parcel of being a teenager.

The teen years are those tough years between being a child and being an adult. We all go through it (well, most of us, there are some adults who haven't matured yet.)

During that time of growth, our minds and bodies are both growing. We want to stay a child, enjoy the fun things, not have responsibilities, stay protected and cared for. We also want to be an adult, be treated like an adult, be allowed to make our own choices, and similar responsibilities.

But as a teen, most ppl just aren't ready to be an adult. That's one reason why teachers have you grade your own or each other's papers. That why they make you do things that you would think are a teacher's responsibility: to help you assimilate into an adult world where things are not all done for you.

There's usually confusion as a teenager. Mixed emotions about who you are, what you are, who you should be and how your peers view you. There's always doubt about how good you are and whether anyone will ever love you. It is all normal.

I'm glad you have PC to help you get through this time, and I'm sure you will find many other teens here who are going through the same stuff. You can all safely traverse the path together here.

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