[mick]

i feel like im starting to run my life around my friends, i feel like that if im not around them, im mean nothing, and that im a loser that nobody wants to be around. and im pretty depressed when there not around. but they still hang out with me just about everyday. i get mad sometimes for silly reasons. and i feel as if im going crazy, i cant get this feeling off my chest and i want it gone. badly, i know this is probably nothing, and if so. plz let me kno, but im a very bottled up person so im not sure if im crazy or not. cause nobody knows how i feel. help?

thank you

[kimmydawn]

Hi and welcome, mick!

I'm sorry you're feeling so confused and distressed.

Can you tell me what happens in your alone times, hon? Do thoughts and feelings cave in on you that you try to push away or something else?

We're here for you.

KD

[sanityseeker]

Hi Mick..... first you are not crazy but you are clearly out of balance right now. It's good you are reaching out for help.

You might want to talk to your doctor about it but in the meantime here are a couple of things you might benefit from doing....

Get enough sleep.... sleep deprivation can cause the kinds of symptoms you speak of.

Eat a balanced diet and take vitamin supplements to boost your defences. Avoid sugars, alcohol, caffine, artifical sweetners.

Get regular cardo exercise -- swimming is a great choice but anything to get your heart rate up at least 3 times a week.

Those are the 3 basic self-care habits and routines that everyone needs to incorporate into their lives.

Neglect of any of those basics will cause symptoms like anxiety, depression and physical pain.

Sleep is critical. Regular and routine. Same bedtime and wake time everyday.... even on weekends will do wonders to level the emotions and improve thinking skills.

Hope this helps until you see your doctor. Number 1 priority is to get enough sleep. Minimum 6 - 8 hours at the same time every night will do wonders.

If you leave this untreated it will only get worse so don't brush it off. Take charge early by taking good care of you body. Give it the rest it needs, the exercise it needs and the food it needs.

Hope this helps ease your mind and give you something real to do.

Take good care..... meditation is a great stress reliever too. Be good to yourself.

[mick]

when im alone and all the friends are gone, i feel unwanted. i feel like they went home cause of me. cause im not funny, cause i dont want them to leave, cause im boring, all these things though my head at the end of the day. but its just my feeling, i dont express them in anyway. latly ive been relying on my friends to have any fun in life. if im not around them, im depressed and bored. its like there a high and im addicted to it. i just want to be able to relax and still be happy, even when everyone is gone. ive also notice that me and my girlfriend havnt been getting along very well, and i think its because i value my friends more than her. and im starting to get a little short fused on her, for stupid reasons. is this normal?

[mick]

thank you kimmydawn and sanityseeker,

i will try to get more sleep and eat better. god knows i havnt been doin much of either.

and i havnt seen a doctor yet, and i dont really want to. but if symtoms seem to get worse, i will see one and get some extended help.

[kimmydawn]

I don't believe in normal, hon.

I believe it's a personal perception that's always changing and never attainable because of that.

It sounds like, yes, you are depressed and that's really messing with your self-esteem and you're using your friends to escape it for a bit...much like someone might use a chemical dependence, you're right.

How can you turn that around? Maybe face and discredit these unwanted and depressive thoughts? Depression is a huge liar, you know.

Is there any way that you can see a therapist for a bit?

KD

[mick]

well ive been trying to face these problems by going though them in my mind and solving them myself. but it has yet to work.

and i think i should go to a therapist, but i have a hard time taking time out of the day to see one because if i see one that means i cant hang out with the guys for sertain days, and thats the tough part.

but talking alone feels good.

ive never tell anyone my feelings, and it feels pretty good to vent out a little.

<3

[Mark_C]

You may just be depressed, but if you feel it is worse than that seek help if you feel you need to. With any type of mental ailment (depression included) it is always better safe than sorry in my opinion. If you feel like you are suffering more than you should from everyday life, get some help. We all need help sometimes, it doesn't make you crazy. And I agree with kimmy, there is no such thing as normal. Just what we happen to percieve as normal.

[sanityseeker]

you've come to a good place to vent and talk and let go of those thoughts that are robbing you of your peace.

its good you've realized talking to yourself doesn't work very well sometimes. A therapist can be a great sounding board and help you learn coping skills to manage your symptoms.

The time with your friends will likely benefit from the time you give to yourself to being the best you that you can be. Maybe you can make an 'after-therapy-session' coffee date with some of your friends. Make it a reward or bonus to your taking good care of you.

I glad you've gotten some relief from talking about this. You are never alone here. Support is but a click away always.

Take care........

[sanityseeker]

eeks.... not coffee..... lol.... green tea.... that would be better.... no caffine....