I think I should say goodbye~

I am in a rage of anger with myself right now. I dont think I want to be nice to myself right now. And in the midst of all that , I am hurting others. Part of me is like so what to that , the other part is angry for doing that . Being that I cannot trust myself on how I am acting or reacting to all of you and myself I think I better go here. I hate rejection and yet I am making some of you fee it. For that and other things I am sorry. Take care everyone~

Tryin

Tryin PM me whats wrong talk before you go anywhere, Please
Angie

Beth - don't you think that the depression is making you think this way? Every time we post, we take a risk that it will hurt or upset or offend somebody. i am not saying at all that that is what you do, i mean it is natural in a way, what you are thinking. maybe you are just being a little too sensitive about it? Take a break if you feel you need it... but i personally think you're doing great here, but of course it's your choice. i know i am not expressing myself well here, i hope none of this offends you.

I hope you find your way back to us, sweetie. You will be missed!


Angela

Instead of leaving, would it help to discuss what is making you angry? I hate when somebody feels they have to leave. BTW, I sent you a PM awhile back about your avatar.

Hi tryin, you didn't really think you could pull a stunt like this and escape the scrutiny of the Sqrl, did you? Ha, how wrong you can be. (sqrl laughs and tries to sound like Boris Karloff, but alas, he's a sqrl, and you know what they sound like.)

Silver put it perfectly. I should just stop there. Silver said it all.

Why is it we are all so mortified by our own feelings seeping to the surface, when we have and demonstrate this vast reservoir of patience and understanding for others'? You're not unique in that, and I'm not chastizing you at all. Just stop for a second though, and think of all the reaching out and participating you have done here, and how you feel when one of those you have shared some life with wobbles toward the curb for a crash. Well guess what? None of us can stand it when you do either. SURPRISE. Now, if you please, (picture sqrl sitting up, one paw over sqrl heart) let us have no more of this nonsense. We need you, and you need us. Keep it simple.

Ummmm...what they said.

Hon, you cut yourself 0 slack. It's ok to be angry. It's ok to not agree. It's ok to be hurt. Feelings are important. If you shut them off, you become cold and heartless. And that is not you.

I hope you stay. I'm glad to have met you. Who will give me good recipes if you go? Who will tell me what Jorge is doing?

Stick around. Think of it as a favor...for PsychCentral.

No! Please don't go! If you prefer, PM someone about your anger and why. I'm a prime candidate! Please don't let your feelings lead you the wrong way, Hun. We all love you.

I'd hate to see a fellow Nascar fan go anywhere. WE are few and far between Tryin. I hope you find some peace and come back again real soon.
I hope you find a safe place to vent it or talk about it. Anger at ourselves is a hard one to let go of. It's one of my problem areas too.
All the best, plenty of hugs
Tina

Dear sweety, I sure hope you will not leave or if you do, not for long at least. I understand that sometime we have to back off a bit because we are all struggling with different feelings. But I hope you will come back. You are one of the kindess person here. I would miss you so much! I'm going to be selfish here and say that I all need you so much. You are all helping me to hold on. Please come back!

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nightdream

<font color="purple">Please stay, try. You are a most welcome and most wonderful part of us.

If you ever need to talk, just pm or pc me.

Jan </font>

I hope that you decide to stay.

I should have done this back when I posted this. But I have held you all so close to my heart for so long and I hated to leave. So many of you have been my friends and confidants and I love you so much. But one of the admins here has shown their true colors and stripped the dignity of two of the most loving people I know.And to me that leaves this place lacking of integrity.I am glad however that you got your head on straight and realized it would do more harm than good to not ban the one person . After all they gave so much time and love and support to many people here . I dont feel safe here either from the pm's i had received yesterday. Call it running from my problems or whatever you want. But I see it as being what it is. Accusations and all that hurt the soul and I was as far down as I could possibly be in the first place.

I am sorry to all of you whom i care about and love so much. I am sorry for leaving this way. I hope one day you can forgive me. Know that you will always be in my heart. With much love~ Bethypoo~ Tryin

Beth, I know that you're having a hard time with this and I hope that you can some day rejoin us here. I wish you only the best and I'll miss you. You know how to get in touch with me. Don't be a stranger. Much love sweety.

Ryan

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I am sorry to see you leave. Hope you'll decide to come back . . .

Bethy,

I hope you can find a way to stay with us. You are loved a lot by so many, and it sure wouldn't be the same here without you. Your sense of humor, your supporting ways, and those giggles... All of this will pass, these things do with time. You've been a wonderful friend, and I would hate to see you go. Your support for us has been nothing short of a miracle. It would be such a terrible loss were you to go. I won't have anyone to pick on my spelling....

Please, for me, take some time and think this over. You're needed here and loved by many. Stay with us and let us be your support.

Sending you tons of love,
Greg

Ha, I forgot all about the giggles. You do do that a lot Bethy. I really do hope that you'll stay. Greg is right, it just won't be the same without you and your rut ro's and such. Come back when you're ready. I'm always here if you need me.

Ryan

Bethy,

Over the past couple of weeks, I have grown very fond of your quick wit, and sense of humor when in chat. We really haven't had the chance to know each other all that well, but I hope you reconsider your decision to leave. I know I will miss you!

Taking a break may be in order, and I commend you for recognizing that you may need to explore that possibility, but you would be so sorely missed by everyone you have touched, even in the smallest way (including me!)



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Jenn

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Please take care of yourself. I'll be thinking of you and missing you. I wish you could feel safe here and I'm so sorry your heart was broken and your faith tarnished.
Look after yourself hun. Greg knows my email address so if you want to stay in touch, I would love that.
Every sunday I will let a tiny piece of myself root for Jr., in honour of you. )
I would only do this for you Beth. Oy, what a sacrifice...lol
I must love ya,
Tina

Bethy, if you go how will we find you, you've helped the little ones so much , we need you here. Greg said you have his e-mail, how do we get it if your not here,

...i know that you don't know me very well but i can see that you are loved by many........i hope you will stay........the recent incident threw us all for a loop but as you see.greg is still posting.thats a good sign!........stay with us...we need you and we all need each other....peace..julia

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Hi Sweetie, Dishes done? Okay, I am as surprised as you are that this community can be cruel to one another. That said, I hope you stay and hang out with those you feel safe with. I know you are not my son but I will sell you what I told him, the best revenge is to do well. In this situation maybe it means holding love in our hearts and forgiveness and understanding and letting the peace begin with us. We, you, I, each of us can choose to be loving and kind in the face of cruelty. Maybe that is the only way it changes? I feel like I have been away until recently but I do hope you hang in here. I would miss you and you are a good friend.

By the way I forgive you even if you are a Nascar fan.